225th Round
"I suck at neurotypical communication aka the communication you're used to but I am very serious on writing 117 chapters just so you could read it. You will be the Kim Dokja to my Han Sooyoung and Yoo Joonghyuk. I need closure and I don't know what else to do asides from being an author and writer to find closure. I literally have autism spectrum disorder hence my rudeness and weirdness, apologies for that. Just know that I hope you forgive me for my past actions that was acted out due to severe mental instability and lack of proper medication."
"I'm sure you don't want me in your life and think I have moved on but I truthfully can not move on. Unfortunately being blunt is really common in autism, I have tried my best in masking myself for you. What I did was a violent tantrum, I also have Disassocative Identity Disorder in which I may have forgotten what I even did. This is the most logical thing I can do. Truth be told, I would of liked to hear your story in the really long paragraphs in a document that you wrote. I would re-read it over and over again. Don't underestimate my reading abilities, I read ORV which has 1,000 chapters. I can handle the long paragraphs you send me. I suck at summarizing and I am an extrovert so I am sorry for overwhelming you yet again. This is something I tend to do, I just have a lot to say to you honestly."
"Needless to say, I am someone who has chronic emotional pain due to being autistic and mentally ill. What you saw was probably my mentally ill brain speaking, having borderline personality disorder is very difficult to have. I know you had someone in the past having this mental illness and she was problematic. I will write 117 chapters just for you and have named it "Khaleesi Lizmarie Lectora". the last name is called reader in a feminine term on purpose. I'm sorry if I hurted you, I'm trying to create something that you would appreciate in hopes of earning your forgiveness and privileges to communicate with you again. I acted extremely arrogant and unwilling to compromise."
Despite my three paragraphs to her, I still got blocked and was unable to get a response that wasn't just pure silence. Perhaps she refused to talk to me after all. I'm sure in an alternative universe out there, I had the chance to date her somehow. However in this universe, I'm stuck playing cat and mouse with her in a digital way. The gray mouse defeated the orange cat in this universe and thus I regressed.