03 July,2008
My Heart was shattered…he was with a girl…he look very happy,calm and smiling…
Who is she?? His girlfriend…or Classmate or Friend or…someone he like!!
Thousand of questions!! But No answer
In Evening
Again I saw them on shop buying some chart papers,pen and discussing something!
May be a Group project? Assignment ?
What the fuck is going on!!!
Suddenly they went to next shop buying ice cream and eating! A Ice cream date may be? Or just two classmate having fun and discussing on project may be!
All I can do is watching him from far while skipping my own tuition classes!!
And I went to my home I cannot control my tears like I cannot control my heart from loving him?
Why one sided love is so painful!!
You cannot share your feelings with someone!
You cannot ask any question from them!
You are nobody…. Yes…you are nobody to him!!
He is not answerable to you
May be I should drop all my feelings towards him…he will never love me like i do…I should stop this
And I promise myself that I will not wait for him after school to see him…I cannot tolerate more pain…he is happy that's enough
10 July 2008
It was Sunday morning my mood was already off I have not seen him since 06 days but his smiling face always come infront of my eyes when them…may be it will take some time to recover…
Suddenly I listen some sounds from hall area some people are laughing… my curiosity in action take me there and…
And…
Daksh
What
Daksh is sitting in my home with my brother I see him from window from far and yes definitely he is Daksh!!
Wait what that girl I saw her yesterday with him was also there and one new girl all 4
They are doing assignments? I was right !! Holyshit
I was right !!! She is not his girlfriend
Suddenly my face just glow up instantly
Daksh was wearing a white shirt and blue shirt on it and black jeans watch in left hand and his smile
I never thought yesterday…
The first thing I will see his face when I will get up
Suddenly I went to bathroom to shower it was the first time in my life when I took shower just in 5 min so cannot skip his view
Suddenly
My brother come in my room and ask me to help him in assignments and I agree on this and I dress well and go in hall to meet them
It was the first time when I formally met him and finally he will know my name he will know about me…I think universe has build this path for me…