Aaron
It is funny though
I just witnessed my mother's death
But I feel nothing
I thought I hated her but I feel nothing
No sense of satisfaction , nothing
I do feel grateful for one thing,she thought me to just love myself
I don't think I do love myself
Considering the amount of time .I think about killing myself
I loved her more than anything
She married my father ,the phychopath
We both have been abuse
But she married him
And when I asked her why she married him
When she knew he was deranged
She thought she could change him
So pathetic
She thought she was in a fairytale where she would live a happily ever after
It was supposed to be her problem, somehow it was our problem because she refused to leave him and we both get physically abuse
And when my supposed mother finally got the confidence to free herself from him
She left me without me
She ran for her life
I was just fucking ten
And my own mother left me with a monster
She fell in love again
And in her own way ,live happily
Oh yes
She came back
When dad died from a shooting
But I was broken already though
I was going to make her life a living hell
Do stupid teenagers shit
Derive her from her sleep and peace
You know that kind of thing
Too bad she laid to rest.
And now I don't want to live anymore
Listening to juice wrld, rental on my headphones.
I am not sad ,I just want to feel things
Love, heartbreak, sadness,joy,and all those shit
I like juice wrld,too bad I can't relate to everything though.
I know it is kind of disrespectful to use headphones in funeral of the motherar and their step father but I don't wanna listen to people repeating
Oh" she was a sweet soul and kind "
Like which kind of mother leave their son with a monster
But me
I was observing though
My step father family is here
His ex wife,tear stained and all
It was obvious,she had been crying for a long time
Who cry that much for someone who left you
Ok I take everything I said about feeling whatsoever
I don't want to be this pathetic
His son, don't know his name
Seem nonchalant but he is also mourning
And then there was a girl besides both of them.
Did my heart just skipped a beat
She held my gaze .
And she smiled.
Smiled at me
Why would she smile at me
Do I look funny
I hate her already