Sighs ..Is this the first page? Doesn't matter I just want it all gone,the confusion,the feelings,the emotions,the heavy heart I carry. A quick pause,just one I prayed for relentlessly. I am currently spiralling,will it end? I don't know.When will it end? I really do not know. I want to hope that it won't be long now,any moment from now I pray.
It has been weeks now,same pattern, different thoughts, so many questions,so many this and that, maybe truly 'Before order, chaos must be' now don't ask me,I am also really trying my best to find out too.Trust me I have been in this same loophole longer than you think,but in the faith that there will be light at the end of the tunnel. It all started about fifty days ago, I am sure about the statistics, cause everyday has been literally me trying to live through each day.I know to many they would say it is not much of a big deal,but if you were in my shoes you would understand it is never the same.yes!.Easier said than done.