To everyone who read Valorin...
To everyone who gave my novel a chance, even for a few minutes...
To everyone who waited for a new chapter and didn't find one...
This message is for you.
I don't know where to start, and I don't know if an apology after all this absence is enough.
It's been more than three months since I last posted a chapter, maybe more... even I've stopped counting the days.
But throughout this whole time, one thing has stayed with me constantly...
That feeling of guilt.
Because I knew there were people who probably came back to the story more than once, hoping to find a new chapter, then left disappointed.
And for that...
I'm sorry.
Sorry I disappeared without explanation.
And sorry I left a novel that never made it past seven chapters, even though it reached over 9,000 views.
Even today, I still look at that number in disbelief.
Nine thousand...
Nine thousand people gave a beginner writer's novel a chance.
My dream was for us to reach ten thousand views together, then keep going step by step, but I stopped before I could get there with you.
And still...
I will never forget what you gave me.
Thank you for every comment.
Thank you for every minute you spent among the pages of my novel.
And thank you for making a beginner girl's dream feel possible, even if only for a day.
Do you know what happened?
At first I thought I was writing a good novel.
But over time, I started reading what I'd written through a reader's eyes, not a writer's.
And that's when I realized the truth.
The idea was beautiful...
but the execution wasn't.
I felt like I wasn't telling a story, I was summarizing one.
Like I was writing a long movie synopsis instead of letting the reader live the events themselves.
I felt my characters weren't breathing the way they should.
And that my world didn't have the life I'd dreamed of giving it.
The more I read, and the more I learned, the more I realized how early I still was on the path.
I could have kept posting as I was.
But I didn't want to.
Because you gave me your time.
And the most precious thing any person has is their time.
I never wanted any of you to finish a chapter of my novel feeling like you'd wasted minutes of your life on something not worth it.
I wanted to write something that would make you wait eagerly for the next chapter.
Something that would make you smile...
and grieve...
and feel tense...
and live with the characters, not just read about them.
At the same time...
I went through a period that wasn't easy.
Like any person in this world.
There were beautiful days...
and hard days...
days I laughed...
and days when writing felt too heavy to carry.
That's why I stepped away.
Not because I hated writing...
but because I loved it more than I should have.
I loved it so much that I could no longer accept giving you something less than what I aspire to.
And despite everything...
my dream didn't die.
If anything...
it grew bigger.
I still dream of becoming a writer who can make readers forget time while they read.
A writer who makes people laugh with her characters, cry over their losses, and close the final chapter wishing it hadn't ended yet.
That dream hasn't changed.
As for Valorin...
it isn't dead.
I've never forgotten it.
It might be a long time before I return to it.
Maybe months...
maybe years...
but I will come back.
And I won't come back until I feel I've become the writer this novel deserves, and that everyone who believed in it deserves.
I also want to tell you something that might make some of you happy.
I've started working on a new novel on Webnovel, but under a different account.
It's called "Azorith Cairn".
It's not just a new novel to me.
It's everything I learned after Valorine.
Every mistake I made, I'm trying not to repeat in it.
Every lesson I learned, I'm trying to let show between its lines.
I'm still learning, still making mistakes, still stopping sometimes to reassess myself.
But this time I don't want to publish quickly...
I want to publish something worth reading.
If you're still interested in my work, I'd be so happy to meet you there again.
And if you're not...
that's entirely your right.
It's enough for me that you were once part of the beginning of my dream.
And in the end...
there's just one thing I want to say.
Thank you...
not for reading a novel.
But for giving a girl who was writing without knowing if she was any good a reason to believe in herself, and to decide to learn instead of giving up.
I will never forget that.
And I hope...
when the day comes that I return to Valorine...
I come back to you as a better writer, not a faster one.
And as I always say...
if we're meant to meet again, then until we meet again.