POV: SIENNA
I've been managing my approach to Vivian for years. This is something I know about myself with the same clarity I know most things, which is to say completely and without much comfort, the awareness of a pattern that I've been inside long enough to recognize its shape without being able to step outside it. I soften things for her. I time things for her. I deliver difficult truths in the register most likely to be received rather than deflected, which is a kindness I've been extending to her since college and which has produced mixed results at best.
Tonight I don't do any of that.
I knock on her door at seven in the evening, which I know is the hour she's most likely to be home and least likely to have anywhere to be, and when she opens it she looks at my face and something in her expression shifts, the specific adjustment of someone who has read the weather correctly and is preparing for it.
