KAIZA'S POV :-
Uhhh!!! Finally we've found that person.
He is Uk right now, and as I knew, it was kevin's man.
He's going off limits now!
I've sent the team to catch him as soon as possible.
It's okay now.
I was sitting in my study area. Planning to get Kevin.
He is nowhere to be found after he kidnapped ash.
Why did he even find out about his parents!
It's all mess now!
I was doing something in my laptop, and I heard Ash out in the hall.
I went there pretending not to see her.
But I can't!
She was staring at me.
I don't know why?
I'm getting nervous now!
I asked her to stop staring.
Maybe she just wanted water.
It's been over 2 months now, i haven't even talked to her nicely.
Living like this is a total hell.
I'm hurting her so much.
I can't.
I can't anymore.
But wait, I don't have the reason to do it anymore.
Once they catch him, there might not be any risk.
But how do I control myself?
Looking at her eyes makes me wanna go deep in them.
Her face makes me hate myself even more, thinking that I'm hurting this pure soul.
Now, that evrything is already so messed up, I can't even leave her, she is always in danger.
She doesn't even know what's going on around her.
She tried to Annoy me, but how can I even get irritate form this face?
I pinned her against the wall, unknowingly.
Being this close to her makes me want to kiss her.
But instead i gave a kiss on her neck.
And left.
I missed it.
I bit my lower lip, as I remembered the trip night.
FLASHBACK
I was kissing her passionately, I undid the bottons of my shirt.
My hand still moving into her top.
Just then the fire alarm rung.
I pulled back.
It was awkward.
"A- a fire alarm?" She asked, in awkwardness.
"We should leave this room, right now." I said, in worry.
I fastly buttoned up my shirt.
She also fixed her clothes and we both went into the main lobby.
Everyone was worried.
an announcement held, for the fire in the kitchen area.
It was around 2Am, everything was fixed.
We could go to our rooms.
But, what just happend, made it too awkward for us to talk to each other.
Damn this alarm!
We both were in front of our room doors.
She wanted to say something.
Am I knew it.
I know she heard a ghost story, so she's afraid to be alone in that room.
"Umm...kai...can..we-" she muttered.
"..Ash..cn we stay together tonight?" I asked.
"...okay...I- i'll just get changed first" she said.
A slight smile appeared on her face. Eh tried her best to hide it.
She was hesitant, so I myself asked her to stay together.
She didn't bring any night wear so I just gave her my clothes.
Which were too big on her.
She just wore her shorts underneath, cuz my pants were like a whole skirt for her.
I laid down on the other side of the bed.
After an hour, i still couldn't sleep.
"Ash.." I said, gently.
"Hmm.." she replied.
She was not sleeping too.
I wasn't the only one here.
"Are you okay sleeping here?" I asked.
Eyes turned to her.
She looked in my eyes.
Everything changed, I was glued to my position.
"Umm..ye- yeah" she replied.
"If you're not sleepy, why don't we play a game?" I asked.
Because I know none of us might be able to sleep.
She sat on her place.
"What game?" She asked.
"Spill the truth." I replied and also sat at my place.
"What kind of game is that?" She asked raising her eyebrow.
"Umm..so we just have to ask questions, if you don't nswee, I'll just draw something on your face..." I stood up from the bed and took her lipstick that was on the table in the right corner.
"...With this lipstick." I continued.
"That's ysl!" She yelled taking that lipstick from my hand.
"Aww my baby! You can't use this lipstick on face!"
I just chuckled.
"Then how about you give me something?" I said.
"Ohk I'll try to find something." She went off the bed and took her purse.
It's over 10 minutes, is there nothing to play with?
"Don't you have anything? Are we really gonna spend these left hours finding something?" I said.
She didn't reply.
"Uhhh!! I found it!!!" She suddenly jumped with excitement.
"Oh lord you scared me!" I said, trying to be dramatic.
"What is that?" I asked.
"Umm...it's my lip liner, which I already stopped using, so maybe we can use this."
"All this time just to find this?"
"You wanna play or not?"
"Ok ok!"
It was already 3:30, our faces had so much different characters.
Her face was all red, that liner did it's work well.
"Okay so last question!" She said.
"Fine, go on!"
"Have you ever loved someone...deeply?" She asked.
I looked at her, it is her, it's always had been her.
I smiled and then replied.
"Yeah. I did, and i still do." I replied.
"Oh." She lowered her face.
"My turn."
"Umm." She murmured.
She thinks that it's some other girl.
"Do you like someone?" I asked.
We've been living together for over half of a year, she still have her co actors, I'm concious about.
They had so much closer scenes together, I trust her.
But I don't trust anyone else.
But if it's her decision so what can i do?
"...yeah." she muttered.
"Who?" I asked.
"One question at a time! And it was our last turn anyways. Let's just sleep now, I'll go wash my face!" She said.
She went to the bathroom.
I was internally freaking out!
I washed my face and we finally went back to sleep.
In the morning 4AM, we were asleep, holding each other, unintentionally.
END OF FLASHBACK
That trip..
It was great.
Once all of this is over, I'll take her somewhere no one could intrupt us.
Where we can stay freely, just like a normal couple.
But...
Looking at the situation, I don't think I can give her that life.
Loris is quite for this time doesn't mean he won't do nothing in future.
He must be planning something even worse.
I should be ready for that instead of thinking bout it all day.
In these months, I've been too much stressed, about what do I do.
Yeah, right, what do I do?
Do I need to continue this?