Cassian Rourke
Everything felt saturated and extremely cold. I didn't want admit that it was because of his presence.
The way I hated to admit it. Saying his name was like bitterness being added to my tongue.
"Aiden"
Like a sting on my skin. But at the same time, I loved that sting. It hunted me.
If only I knew a one night stand would turn into this, I don't think I would have gone ahead.
But now Aiden seemed like a necessary evil. His irresistible scent was stuck in my mind and there was nothing I could do to remove it.
I've had so many men in bed. Countless men I had fucked but Aiden had done the exact opposite. He had fucked me.
Now, I didn't know what to do. Was it possible for him to unfuck me, get him out of my system and mind.
Was it possible? These were the thoughts I had in mind as I fucked some guy I had met at a bar.
I saw him, liked him and brought him to my bed.
I tied his hands, spreading his ass cheeks on the bed, I made sure his ass was facing me.
I rubbed my fingers on his bare ass and he let out a moan. Pathetic. It was nothing close to Aiden's.
He was a copycat, an imposter. I hated him for not being Aiden but my boner grew.
So I flipped out my cock that was already throbbing hard. Thanks to Aiden. Oh, how I hated him for having such an effect on me.
I pushed my cock in his ass. There was no room for foreplay. I had no patience.
Why would I want foreplay with someone who wasn't Aiden. The more I thrusted, I could hear him grunt.
"Hmm mm"
I hated it. It wasn't Aiden's.
"Shut up!"
I yelled. As I slapped him aggressively. I was angry and I was punishing him. He didn't deserve this.
Aiden was the one who had deserved to be in this position. Not this lonely stranger I had found at the bar.
Imagining he was Aiden wasn't helping matters. But I continued fucking him. Then for a flip second I saw Aiden's face and then I felt myself releasing my cum.
"Aiden, fuck, fuck"
I said. Immediately I came back to reality, I realized I had yelled his name to a total stranger that barely even knew him.
He was going to feel used as he should, he could never come close to Aiden. Nobody would.
I walked away after everything. I didn't want to see his reaction. I didn't care to. All I wanted was Aiden. Aiden Hale.
***
It had caused me such a strange panic.
But yes, I was looking for Aiden. Dad had done everything in his power to hide his location but I was ahead of him.
As I began searching for Aiden without anyone tracking me, I found it difficult admitting to myself why I was doing it.
"Why, why Cassian?"
I questioned myself as I drove. I bit my lip in hesitation because I couldn't get an answer for myself.
Before I left I told my staff I needed to check on something as I left. I told them if the Damon came around they should tell him that I was working on something
Or they could tell Damon that I was handling loose ends. It was their choice really. I knew that Damon wasn't going to believe a thing but it was worth the try.
As I make a turn I tell myself that I'm simply trying my best to make sure that the situation between I and Aiden hasn't escalated.
But I knew that was a lie. I wanted to see him for purely selfish purposes.
Cause deep down, the truth was pretty simple and quite humiliating. Even if I didn't want to openly admit it.
I just needed to know if he was safe. I needed to see him. It was almost as if every hour that passed by without any information on him or knowledge on him was tearing me apart.
The walls of my penthouse made me feel tighter without his presence, my world was empty.
Just as I'm lost in thoughts. My phone rings. I look and it's my father. I hesitate before picking but I do.
"Hello. What do you want?"
I ask bluntly.
"Can't a father, call his son again"
"Cut to the chase, what do you want?"
I had no patience in me. It had run thin.
"I need you at the estate now. There's something important I have to tell you"
Hearing that. I pulled the brakes and placed my hand on my temple as I replied him.
"I'm on my way"
I realized that I was a Rourke before anything else and Aiden was just an addiction that I was letting control me.
I had to distract myself not chase him.
***
My father calling me back to the estate gave me no choice but to go. It was the awakening I needed to stay away from Aiden.
What was I thinking? Going after a fling.
"I came as you called"
I said immediately I entered the Rourke mansion. The luxurious and expensive house was coated with emptiness.
Just my dad there. As I met him, he was quite composed, sitting behind his desk like the entire family's future rested on his shoulders. He always had that look if you asked me.
"There's a lot of damage control and public image fixing we need to do."
He spoke like I'd done something shameful. If I were to guess, it was Aiden. Or better still my love for fucking men. That was the problem.
"You make it look like my very existence has put the Rourke name at risk"
I fired back. I wasn't going to let him get under my skin. That was when he
told me the craziest thing I never thought he would say:
"Cassian, I'm giving you an ultimatum. That is: you will get married to a suitable woman, publicly and quickly, or you will lose your position, your inheritance, and everything tied to the family name."
I couldn't believe what he was saying.
"What are you saying? You can't force me to do that"
I said.
"
I've said what's on my mind. Do it or face the consequences"
I felt something inside me freeze. I couldn't accept this.