"FORTUNE"
Have you ever been in love with somebody to the point where you perceive them as nothing but fortune? A treasure that is nowhere else to be found, a rare form of fortune, even if it's in a human form.
I could swear that everything about her is fortune, the way those lips taste and make my body feel, hmh.. even her body feels so safe and she's perfect in every way, I swear it's like she's built in fortune. Her heart, voice, words of wisdom, her scent, smile, morals, her energy and spirit is fortune to me.
I become a better part of me when I'm with her, everything about her is next to the best of things, being with her is just a one-of-one kind experience and I can't even wrap my mind around it but everything about her feels, seems and hits me like it's so out of things world.
That body, the skin, the warmth, the embrace of the hugs, the kissing part, those lips are heavenly to me, she is just like fortune.
"EX GIRLFRIEND"
There's nothing good that could come from this, she said it herself and I quote, "We are never getting back together". I took that shit and got the fuck out of her face and I ain't been stressed, just been occupied by a pretty face.
Just a few days later, she's texting me, asking me questions that somebody who doesn't care about me should not ask, it's like she says one thing and does something else, just because I love her doesn't mean she should fuck with my mind anytime she feels like it.
I told her I wanna make her my girlfriend again, she said she rather remain as an ex girlfriend, took that rejection and focused on the girls that talk to me all day long, now she's coming back to me with questions as if she didn't say she doesn't wanna be with me.
I can really fuck up her whole day with just one post but I still got a soft spot for her and I can't put her through that kind of pain. Even if I still love her, she should leave me alone because she says she rather remain an ex to me, I'm not what she wants for herself, so she should go be with what she prefers over me.
She says she doesn't care about me, yet she still have concern about me, this is what I get for keeping contact with an ex girlfriend, especially one of her kind.
"TEMPORAL LOVER"
10PM, it's another text from her, just like the last two nights and just around the same hour, I'm starting to think that she only thinks of me when she's lonely. She's got a man that she constantly posts about, I've never said shit about it but I guess it ain't shit because she's trying to be my temporal lover.
I know that body like a path I've walked on for 100 days, I know how I make her act bad and these late night texts got me thinking that she misses the energy I used to bring, if she was really happy, she wouldn't reach out to me every night.
I know that body like the back of my hand, so beautiful, thick and brown, used to hold it right in the palm of my hands, taught her some things she's never done before, been a while since we kissed but she's been texting me every night around the same time.
She keeps spinning the block as if she can't find something that I give her in the other guys.
"PLEASURE"
Pleasure some would say that we've got an unhealthy relationship, in some situations I would say the same because I find myself in bed with different kinds of girls, I've made bad decisions just to get you Pleasure, I've fallen in love with you Pleasure more than I've even opened up for love.
All of that doesn't matter when the clothes are off and both bodies get under the bed covers, when love is made, my relationship with you pleasure seems like the best type of addiction..
"A NONCHALANT BELOVED"
I thought that with time, she would get used to me and understand me a little bit more, it's almost three years since we met yet we're never be on the same page. She still wrecks my mind, she still wears the necklace I bought her two years ago, ain't that supposed to mean that there's still a piece of our love in her heart?
Sometimes she's the most loving and sometimes she keeps her responses super short and dry, that shit makes it hard for me to get through to her. It's almost 3 years of knowing each other and we're still not any better and she still gives me two sides of her but that ain't nothing new, she's always been like that like that.
She never speaks her mind, she rather keep that shit to herself and she doesn't realise that the guy on the other side of the phone is not a mind reader, there's questions that I need answers to but she never bothers to answer. That ain't nothing new, she's always been nonchalant and because that's what I fell in love with, I can't be mad at how she really is.
I just wanna know if she's really meant to be in my life or if we're always gonna have these kind of moments, where it feels like we're finally making progress and coming into a full cirlce, it's always a matter of time until she turns off her feelings.
That ain't nothing new, she's always been nonchalant..