It's a three-day trip.
I take advantage of the moment we stop in a small town to buy (with Lucca's money) some more normal clothes for me and Sammy, although I have no idea where my blue gown went, since I woke up I was in normal clothes, just jeans and a shirt, my undies were the same so at least Lucca didn't go to far in changing my clothes.
I buy the most disguised clothes possible.
After all, no one would pay attention to two girls in jeans, neutral color hoodies, and glasses.
After we got into the car, I noticed that Lucca was very stiff and his expression was not at all happy.
He accelerates the car and drives off with screeching tires.
After the last conversation, as little as possible was said.
Not even Sammy, who is always so communicative, wanted to say anything.
A strange atmosphere hung in the air.
So much had happened in such a short time, and so much more was yet to come.
During that time, I couldn't sleep for a single second.
I'm afraid I'll have nightmares again, or that Theodore will appear in the middle of the road again and make the car flip.
Everyone is suspect.
This had to end soon or I'm going to go crazy.
I don't know what to feel anymore, I can't hate Lucca nor do I have the energy to love him right now.
I can only hate Theodore for taking and taking from me, everything I hold dear.
Love makes us see life in a different way, it blinds us, it makes us want to protect that person no matter what, even if it costs us our lives, it makes us want to dedicate every second of the day to making that person happy, it makes us move heaven and earth for that person.
Hatred also makes us see life in a different way, it blinds us, but makes us want to destroy that person to the last atom, even if it costs our lives, it makes us dedicate every second of our day to thoughts and plans to end that person, it also makes us move heaven and earth after that person, it makes revenge become something that brings us happiness.
But at this point, I don't know.
People always say the opposite of love is indifference, but I can't be indifferent, I can only hate.
And I don't like it.
But it's something I can't control.
I'm already starting to lose track of what's good and what's not.
In my mind I invented a thousand ways to destroy Theodore.
All of them are unrealizable by an ordinary human.
Something I had stopped being a long time ago if it's all true.
Only when Lucca looks at me, or has any physical contact with me, do I forget this hatred for a brief moment.
I just want to love and be loved.
I just want this all to be over soon.
***
When the car finally stops, night devours the sky.
The darkness is not total, due to the lights from the car's headlights.
Lucca parked the car in a huge clearing in the middle of a forest, which he could only get here by entering a seemingly obscured unpaved path in the middle of a road in the middle of nowhere, if he didn't turn with such familiarity I would never have seen the path that was closed by bushes that opened easily with the car force, then after being beaten down by the vegetation for a long stretch came a very steep trail for two hours, without stopping.
Dimly lit by the car's headlights is a seemingly abandoned mansion, all the lights are off.
The ground is covered in dry leaves, in every direction you look you will only see trees and more trees.
Lucca turns off the headlights and everything is plunged into deep darkness. "Let's go," he says.
"But this house is abandoned, probably infested with rats and other disgusting creatures, I'm not going in there." Complains Sammy.
Although she enjoys nature and sports doesn't mean she likes dirty and all of nature's creations.
"So you'd rather stay in the dark, in the cold, and within reach of any hungry animal that's wandering around?" He retorts.
Sammy snorts in displeasure.
Obviously there is no chance of retaliation.
Even though darkness had taken over everything, I could still see everything clearly. All these changes freak me out a little.
"Wait, Alex, can you see in the dark too?" Asks Sammy.
She's obviously loving seeing in the dark, even more than mental communication.
When we stopped at a gas station in another middle of nowhere, Lucca said that we can make the other person visualize a future desire of ours, beyond the communication itself.
He made me visualize him and me on a green plain again, kissing, and I felt like it was real.
We enter the porch.
Lucca knocks rhythmically on the door.
It opens by itself, and at the same moment all the lights turn on.
I almost go blind.
A girl appears at the door.
Her curly red hair falls delicately over her black dress, framing her oval face and thin waist, she has big blue sparkling eyes, she is (like me) wearing Converse.
"Lucca, it's been a while, we missed you, I thought you had forgotten about me." She says excitedly.
Having said that, she hugs him possessively.
I scowl immediately, although the situation is complicated and we haven't talked about it. We are still in a relationship.
Is she his ex-girlfriend?
He didn't say anything about it the whole way.
"Pardon my sister's manners, Lucca and she are very old friends." Says a boy appearing out of nowhere in the doorway, with straight brown hair that falls in waves, round light blue eyes, and an athletic build.
"Let me introduce myself. I'm Gabriell Rosenkreutz, and my sister is Ally Rosenkreutz. We are vampires. Would you do me the honor of entering our humble abode?"
He looks straight into my eyes.
How long have you been friends?
Suddenly I see an image of myself as I must look now (with a hood covering half my face, my clothes rumpled and looking like a drug addict). Then I'm in a long red gown inlaid with blood red rubies and gold lace.
I'm amazed.
The dress is magnificent.
Then the image fades.
I can only stammer a yes.
"You can forget it, Gabe, her heart already belongs to someone!" Lucca says, smirking.
I don't like Lucca's possessive tone at all.
He treated me like I was just another prize on his shelf (although I'm more of a consolation prize).
Ally is still holding his waist. And he just lets it, with another hand around her shoulders.
I'm really not enjoying it one bit.
"Hi Gabriell, I'm Samantha and this is my sister, Alexandra Knight. Sammy says and extends a hand to shake.
How does she do it? She's much more composed, I don't feel like interacting with strangers, but she just has this something about her, this ease. It was the same when our parents died, sure she broke down once, but then she continues to fight against the tide and still be cheerful despite everything. I just feel broken and battered.
How I wish I could be like her.
"It's a pleasure to meet you both." He says, his tone soft. He is still looking at me even while shaking hands with her.
Sammy pushes me inside, while Lucca let Ally go and takes my hand.
I hesitate for a moment and then just give in again.
What's the worst that could happen?