Sometimes I wonder what kind of problems girls have; it just seems so different from my experience that they feel like completely different beings from me. On one hand, there's me, the kid who would be teased relentlessly by them as if it were some sort of sport. Then, on the other hand, there are the ones who teased me all throughout Grade and middle school. They had no care in the world what they were doing, and thanks to them, I lost the ability to feel nervous around them.
I switched the sink tap to cold.
My coping is like a double-edged sword where I can be around girls without stuttering and or being nervous, but at the same time, that's a normal human thing to do, it's what makes emotion and even sometimes, budding feelings for another.
I washed my face in the sink, the water dripping down my neck into my clothes… (ugh)
Looking at myself now, I really need to touch up on my appearance… I can't believe I am going around looking like this mess…
I reached for the handle, about to head back to my room.
"Areeeee, you done yet?"
My hand froze.
"Have… you been waiting this whole time?"
"Yup!"
Hell… I have been hogging the bathroom for my own personal (useless) problems… I can't believe I made her wait that long… Damn it, why must I annoy people so easily!
I burst out into a cold sweat.
What do I even say on the way out!? 'Oh, sorry, I was looking at myself in the mirror.' … Hell no! I'll just do the best strategy; walk in silence back to my room and act as if nothing was wrong or mattered!!