The light in the darkness....
My nanny, she is the only one who cared and loved me in that house. Her name is yulia, i used to call her lia nanny. And she always replayed with a smile on her face.
Since i was a child my identity was hidden from the outside world. Even if people knew my face, they didn't know my real identity. I was known as Anna, a poor servant's daughter to the outside world. Only very few people knew my real identity. If there were any parties, they would say that i am so sick and weak to attend them and they will leave me alone in that big mansion.
At times like that, it was my nanny who would hold me and tell me stories to keep me warm and happy.
Now that i think about her, i really miss her. I wish i could hold her like that just one more time.
Lia nanny always told me to be happy.
She would say
" child be happy no matter what, only do things that you really wanna do. And never run away from the harsh and painful reality. Face it with courage. Because my child, that's the best we could... "
Aaah i really miss her.
I miss the way she would hold me and told me bed time stories.
We were so happy at that time. Me, Lia nanny and yohan.
Yeah, Yohan!
How could i ever forget about him. My one and only friend. I wonder if he still remember me, i wonder if he still think of me from time to time.
Those days, it was like living a dream.
But then my dream came crashing down.
That day.... I could never forget about it. It still hurts when i think about it.
That day i started hating my mother for the first time.