Auto woken up by the sharp sensation rushing through his cranium, piercing like a migraine. Found himself in a dilemma; "I can't breathe." He said as he began choking.
He entered a reverie, hallucinating while he spirals into darkness. His vision gradually fading, no, it's a hazy fog. He feels as thousands of eyes are watching him, he feels shivers crawl through his spine.
The world's all dark, my vision is getting blurry, my head hurts, everyone is dead, and it's all because of me.
Eventually, it reaches him, a sharp echoing ring vibrates in his ears but he is given no time to rest. It was followed up by a wave of blood rapidly climbing his orifice leading him to vomit up blood from his mouth and nose.
Auto pants and wheezes, "Blood? Wait why are these worms squirming around my hand?"
The places that were traced with blood had squirming maggots manifest from the pools. Some were stained onto his hand and began infesting and eating away his flesh, feeding the maggots and leaving white squirmy substances that acidified his flesh but not his bones.
From the excruciating agony Auto could not speak, he could not think and all that was going on his head was a rush of false euphoria.
*false euphoria** - A symptom of dreamers falling into darkness, unlike euphoria; false euphoria overloads the brain with despair causing them to go into mental darkness and gradually fade from their old self and get corrupted.
At what seems to be the end of his life Auto managed to Conjure one more thought "I need to live, I can't die like this. It's painful... I wanna die... Don't I? Wasn't this what I wanted?" He asked himself contemplating.
"Or could it be I wanted more? But... If that was the case... No, I don't know what I want right now. But all that I do know is that... IS THAT I AM NOT DYING THIS WAY!"
He materialized all his strength to shout with his deforming body.
"I WANTED TO BE ACCEPTED, AND I'M NOT GOING DOWN WITHOUT REACHING MY GOAL! I WANT TO BE RECOGNIZED BY THIS WORLD EVEN IF IT MEANS I HAVE TO KILL EVERYONE WITH MYSELF TO DO IT!" He bit onto a glass bottle, shattered it with his bite force alone and with his acidified mouth, tore off pieces of his flesh that had been infested with maggots.
It did not stop though as his blood was still pouring and he had already lost an arm. He could not find the strength to use a skill and summon a healing potion, with pure desperation and will power he clung onto his life hoping for the best. But as hope would find it, the maggots reached his skull and starting from his eyes they acidified and melted it all away, leaving Auto as a mutilated inhuman corpse.
"I can't believe I'm going out like this." He thought to himself
But fate had other plans.
The dark world began to turn into light, a girl standing afar smiled at Auto's corpse laid back. And slower walked closer to him, gave him a kiss on the lips and the once decayed Auto was revived.
"Good morning Auto." The girl gently greeted him.
Auto was speechless and confused. "Excuse me?" He said
"I said good morning? Aren't you gonna greet me back?" The girl asked him in response.
Auto stutters "**Ahem** Uhh- oh sorry- uh-huhuh.... I'm being awkward aren't I?"
"No no, it's okay don't be shy I understand it Auto. You've always been like this ever since you were brought to this world." The girl smiled.
"Go-goo-goodu-good gu gu- good morning." Auto greeted her while stuttering excessively.
"Aw a stutter boy! Anyways don't you recognize me? After all these years we've spent together?" The girl teased him and poked his cheek.
"R-Recognize y-you?"
"Yes of course! Oh my god come give me a hug you're so cute even till this day you're still a cute little femboy!" The girl tightly embraced him and began carrying around the miniscule femboy like a baby.
**Don't you think it's harsh that even the narrator is teasing the main character? I feel bad, the writer must suck for being like this.**
"Hey cut it out! I'm not a baby and I'm not a femboy, I'm a monster!" Auto pouted and threw a baby tantrum!
**Okay... The narrator is having a little to much fun we gotta replace him for a while.**
The narrator was put on hold.
"Aww who's a big boy monster? You are! Yes yes you are!" The girl continued to tease him.
"Please just let me go." Auto teared up and began crying. The girl let her go and patted Auto on the back "I'm sorry... I was being mea-" She stopped mid-track as she saw a smirk on Auto's face.
"Hehe, you fell for it." Auto said as he poked her on the cheek. "Guess looks are deceiving after all." Auto smiled and to which the girl also responded by chuckling. "Well you grew to me fast, earlier you were stuttering like a peasant child inside a royal palace and now you're confident enough to tease me in the matter of minutes... That's good development, I like that!" The girl gently smiled and poked him on the nose.
Auto smiled and responds "Hmph, you don't have to hide it anymore Aira. I can recognize it's you now." Auto revealed to her. "Thanks for sticking with me until the end, I thought I was a goner for sure." He said looking down with the long face.
"I don't understand how you could still stay with me even if I am a monster, but if you really did stay with me... Then I'm convinced." He said seriously, "Convinced of what?" Aira asked.
"This world isn't real is it? You're just the everyday hallucination an illusion that I crafted in order to cope with my social isolation. This world I'm in right now is only crafted isn't it? Tell me... Am I really alive?" Auto with clear darkness in his eyes stared at her and said "Are you really the only friend I could make? A figment of my imagination?" The statement Auto said that broke Aira.
"Auto... What do you mean? We've been together for the longest time, and yes you are alive, and no I'm not an illusion or a figment of your imagination. I'm real." Aira pleaded with him.
"If you really are real... Then will you die by my dagger?" Auto said menacingly as he pointed a poisonous dagger upon her. "Auto this isn't like you." Aira said with a sad tone.
"There never was a me, prove it by dying or else-" cut-off mid-sentence, Aira kicked his blade off and slapped him on the face. "Do you know how hurtful you are?! I stayed with you for so long and this is what I get for saving you?! Go back to the real world I don't care." Aira screamed as a crack in the space began unravelling pulling Auto closer like a black hole.
"Wait, a hole? I can't go on! This bitch is-" Auto's thoughts were cut short as a blinding flash struck him and paused his thought process.
He recovered despite the blinding light and quickly held onto the floor but the force was so intense that no matter how hard Auto held onto he could not avoid getting dragged in until he at last fell in the hole.
In an instant, he found himself in the middle of a thousand dead corpses, no, in the village that he massacred where he realized it wasn't a dream. Aira was real, and most importantly everything he said was real and that he was alive just like she said. Realizing that was he said was indeed real, he tried to find her, he wanted to apologize but it was too late. Aira was no longer there.
"What have I done? I'm truly... A monster." Auto looked at the dull blade and drew closer. "I deserve to die." He thought to himself but he halted. In hesitation he thought "But what about my dreams? No, if I die how will I apologize to Aira? This is all my fault and I have to fix it. But death is the quickest way... I guess... I should persevere, after all I want to... I want to be recognized."