You are impossible, I said it to him. He smiled and said, tell me, do you really think that I am that weak that I can't handle your weight? he asked me.
No, I mean it wasn't like that, I just wanted that whenever you lift me up you won't feel any burden on yourself, that's it, I said.
Listen to me, my silly girl, you don't need to do such a strict dieting and workout. You are already very thin, you don't need to do all these things, he said to me.
But I… I just want that I look thin like other co-actresses of yours, I said.
You are already, in fact, more than them sometimes, he said.
No, I don't think so, I said.
He smiled and said, see, your body has weakened because of it. You are not even eating anything properly and doing everything by your own. Isn't it quite unfair to your body?
I looked down and didn't say anything.
Haven't I given you the responsibility to take care of my girl? Tell me, is this the way you are taking care of my girl, making her starve and making her do all the work? he asked me.
From now onwards I'll be the personal in-charge of your health. I'll keep my eye on you, what you are eating and what you are doing, he said.
But I was about to say something, but he stopped me and said, no buts here, this conversation is ended here, no more further discussions on this topic. Now you should rest properly, otherwise tomorrow you won't feel good enough to shoot the scenes, okay? I am leaving.
He was about to leave the room after saying it, but I held his sleeve with my hand and he stopped and turned around and looked at me and asked me, what happened, my silly girl?
I said, your silly girl wants something.
What? he asked me.
Your hug. I am feeling a bit low, energise me with that, I said.
He smiled and immediately hugged me and said while hugging me, now are you getting energised or not?
I smiled and said, it's processing, not done yet.
He smiled again.
You are really impossible, he said while smiling.
I know, but only for you, I said.
It's just not an ordinary hug to me, it's my Yuan's hug, and Yuan's hug always makes his Zhao Shiza happy and gives me the strength that I needed the most. It's not just an ordinary hug, it's a hug from my Yuan to his Zhao Shiza, how can it be called an ordinary one? This is the most extraordinary thing in this world when two souls are connected with each other.
I always thought when I was little what love really looks like, feels like, till I fell for him, but after knowing my Yuan I can say that yes, I know, I do really know what love feels like. It's just a thing between two people where they find everything in each other, and most importantly the peace I found in him is the most precious thing in this whole world. No one can ever be able to find it for me.
My heart was never on ease since my childhood, it always had many things going around in it, it's always very complicated until he arrived and he eased it. He eased my heart. He has given the peace to it which was long lost, but now I can, yes I can accept it that my heart found its peace and it's on ease.
Thank you, Yuan, thank you so much for developing this feeling in me, for giving the peace to my heart, for making it in ease, thank you so much. I know my whole life will not be enough to thank you, but still thank you, Yuan, for coming in my way.
I said all these things to myself only in my heart, not to him. For him I am just hugging him a bit too long without saying anything.
He patted my back a little and said, silly girl, did you fall asleep in my hands? he asked me.
I shook my head and said, no, just stay like this a little longer.
He smiled and hugged me more tightly and said, I'll always be there whenever you need me, wherever you go. Sometimes maybe I'll fail to be with you physically, but in your heart, in your soul, your Yuan lives there always and forever.
No, you don't live inside here, you just rule my heart, I said.
He chuckled and said, you are so good in playing with words, isn't it?
Of course, after all I am in love with the most handsome C-drama actor, the Xu Yuan, how can I not be good in playing with words? I have to, I said.
Then after a minute Ji Juan entered the room very silently without making any noise. We didn't even hear his footsteps. I don't know it's just Ji Juan who came inside the room so silently or it's just us who lost ourselves in our world that we didn't hear that someone entered the room.
Ooo sorry, sorry, I should go back, Ji Juan said while looking quite hyper.
We broke the hug immediately and looked at Ji Juan, and then Yuan said, don't you have manners to knock before coming inside a room? This is basic manners, haven't you ever learned that? Yuan asked him.
I know basic manners very well, but don't you have some basic manners to close or lock the door while doing such things? he said.
Such things? I repeated it. What are you trying to say, Ji Juan? I asked him.
Nothing, you won't feel good if I say further, Ji Juan said to me.
Now I really would love to listen what really you are thinking, I said to Ji Juan.
Ji Juan exhaled sharply and said, I thought you were different, Zhao Shiza, you were different, but I was wrong, I was so wrong. You are just like the others, you are no more different from others. I thought you were the extraordinary girl in this ordinary world, but literally, literally I was so, so wrong, he said.
On what basis are you saying this to me, Ji Juan? I asked him.
I have just seen both of you, he said.
We were just hugging each other, we are not doing anything wrong. How could you even blame me for something which I haven't done? I said to him.
I know that you were just hugging him, but still it's not good for you to do this. He already is on very good terms with his ex-girlfriend, I think you should know it before doing this, he said to me.
Listen, Zhao Shiza, it's your life, your decision. I am no one to say anything about it or in it, but when I say I see you as my friend, I really mean it, and I don't, I really don't want my friend to lose herself on someone who is already with many. But I know you, I know you are new in this world, in this industry, you don't understand the things the way I do. I just want to say that before moving forward in your relationship with him, just think twice. This is the only advice I can give you right now. Accept it or not, it's up to you.
And then after saying all these words Ji Juan left the room.
What kind of man he is, Yuan said.
No matter whatever Ji Juan said, I know he is saying all these things because he didn't know my Yuan well. He is saying all this out of care and out of a little bit jealousy in him that he has towards Yuan. But I only know one thing, that everything will be sorted out and I'll make it sorted out, and I must figure out some way to make Yuan and Ji Juan both come together and make them friends. This is the task that I have assigned myself without saying anything from my mouth.
That person has really gone mad, he got so insecure while seeing us together that he has started putting false allegations on me, he is such a—
Yuan was about to say something, but I stopped him and said, Yuan, don't, don't say anything. He just got a little bit worried about me, nothing else. He was saying it out of care, nothing more than that. I know you both have conflicts, but you know what is the only thing in both of you which is same?
What? he asked me.
The way you both care for me. I literally won this world after having such a caring lover and such a thoughtful friend like him, I said.
Who is the caring lover of yours? Yuan asked me while raising one of his eyebrows in his usual expression.
I chuckled and smiled and said, this air conditioner is my caring lover.
Ooo really? he said.
Yes really, I said.
The mission I have assigned to myself in my mind, to make them friends, has started processing in my mind and I am thinking and thinking that what should I do to make them come together. Then an evil plan came to my mind. You are so good, Zhao Shiza, I praised myself and smiled while biting my nails.
Why are you smiling so mischievously, silly girl? What are you up to? What's going on in your little mind? he asked me while doubting me.
I smiled back and said, nothing. Weren't we going out today? I asked him.
Yes, but not now. You need rest right now, so we'll go out on some other day.
No, no, no, from tomorrow onwards the shooting is going to start continuously and after that we won't have any time to go out, so today night at nine pm we are going out to have hot pot meal together. Now this is your task to find some good hot pot place in Beijing, I said to him while standing up from my bed and making him go out of the room through that connected door.
And what's your task? he asked me.
I smiled and said, to look pretty and make your heart flutter for me, and then I closed the door while making him go out from there.
What are you really up to, silly girl? I know it's not that simple that it seems like, there is really something very mischievous going inside your mind, Yuan said to himself.
Meanwhile, me who smiled foolishly and said to myself, now the mission to make Yuan and Ji Juan friends has started, I said to myself and started working on it then…