SURLEM
I remember every single detail as if it were playing in my eyes. Every gasp, every single second of when i lost consciousness , as i let darkness consume me . I was ready to end it all and in the depth of my final breath all i could see was her doe eyes, her sinister smile , her beautiful curly hair and the whole messed up situation unfold . Sitting up straight from the bathtub to regain my breath stolen by the water, i was met with her wide grin. She smiled and i smiled as well knowing i had proven myself to her. It was toxic and i was not blind to the situation but o let myself pretend like i was
"i do not doubt for a moment your love for me Suu" that name she liked to call. My name always appeared beautiful when it came from her soft lips
"here", she handed me my ticket to heaven or hell , wherever i was going to end up going ,it was in the form of a knife. The tears trickling from my eyes were not from my terrified heart but i cried because i loved her so much, was that even love? did it even count as love?, i guess i will never know. I did as she asked , i ended it all , or so i thought.I deceived her and myself. I dont know who to blame, myself for being too blind or her for actually betraying me.In the midst of all this turmoil i know that i loathe her with every fiber within me . She left, she ran away like a coward and here i am facing the consequences, consequences of something i never put myself into in the first place.
Surlem Mayers , a 22 year old seated awaited for my first ever psychiatry doctors appointment in one of the biggest rehabs in the city.Thats the life i am about to live ,questioning my sanity everyday , whether i can escape it or not. what happens next nobody knows