"Chunhui, will you stay by my side forever?"
"春晖,你会永远陪在我身边吗?"
"Yeah, forever,"
"嗯,永远,"
She turned over and smiled,
她翻了个身,笑了,
"How far is the forever you speak of?"
"你说的永远是多远?"
"This life, and the next life, to the end of the universe..."
"这辈子,还有下辈子,到宇宙的尽头..."
"Where will you find me in the next life?" After saying this, she giggled, and then right before him, her face gradually faded, seemed to become transparent, about to disappear,
"下辈子你去哪找我呢?"说完,她咯咯咯地笑了,然后就在面前,她的面容渐渐变淡了,似乎变得透明,将要消失,
When he waved his hands trying to catch her passing away, Chunhui suddenly opened his eyes. After being stunned for a moment, he rolled his eyes around to inspect, searching for her shadow, but all that his eyes could reach were the dawn sky and the coconut trees in the morning breeze.
挥舞着双手试图抓住她的逝去的时候,春晖忽地睁开了眼睛.愣了片刻,他翻转着眼睛四处查看,寻找她的影子,但是目之所及只有黎明的天空与晨风中的椰树.
Chunhui turned his head and looked at the surrounding environment, oh, it was his and Yattina's vacation camp, but the woman in the dream just now did not look like his partner Yattina, strange, who was it? Why would he have such a dream? Was it because yesterday her sister came out of nowhere and then disappeared, that he had such a dream? Bah, bah, bah, she was so young, how could he connect this kind of spring dream with her, but who was she in the dream?
春晖扭头看了看周边的环境,哦,是自己和雅缇娜的度假营地,可是刚才梦里的女性并不像自己的伴侣雅缇娜,奇怪,是谁呢?为什么会做这样的梦?是不是昨天她的妹妹凭空来了又消失,自己才会做这样的梦?呸呸呸,她那么小,自己怎么可以把这种春梦与她有所瓜葛,可是梦中的她又是谁呢?
Chunhui got up from his open-air bed, put on his clothes, and went to see Yattina, but she had already left. Although it was vacation time now, it seemed that she did not have a corresponding vacation; only he was on vacation, at this vacation camp.
春晖从他的露天床榻上起来,穿好衣服,去看雅缇娜,但是她已经走了.虽然现在是度假时间,但是似乎她并没有相应的休假,休假的只有自己,在这个休假营地.
So today was another routine day, and then he waited, not knowing when she would come back, mostly at mealtime.
所以今天又是循规蹈矩的一天,然后等着不知道什么时候她会回来,多数是吃饭的时候.
For Chunhui, when Yattina was not there, he did the work he should do. In the morning he lit the fire, put sweet potatoes and dried fish together in the pot to boil, then went on his daily inspection route, collected nets or baited and set fish nests, checked the freshwater distillation equipment, cut some fuel wood along the way and left it on the ground to dry, and then looked at how the sweet potatoes were growing.
对于春晖来说,雅缇娜不在的时候他就做自己该做的工作,一早上把火升起来,番薯鱼干一起放锅里煮上,然后自己去走日常巡检路线,收网或者下饵打鱼窝,检查淡水蒸馏设备,沿途砍些燃料木材放在地上晒着,再看看番薯长势.
After walking a round and coming back, he was hungry and the food was ready, then he calmly ate breakfast alone facing the gentle sea breeze.
一圈走回来,肚子也饿了,食物也好了,然后平静地一个人对着轻柔的海风吃早餐.
This really was a good vacation spot, with a pleasant climate and calm winds and waves, and the coast here was a white sand beach, extending toward the distant sea with a very small slope, so that the seawater before his eyes changed in color from light green to light blue; even the deep sea in the distance was as bright and clear as sapphire, and above it was a pale blue sky and white clouds.
这真是个度假的好地点,气候宜人,风平浪静,并且这里的海岸是白沙滩,很小的坡度延伸向大海远处,以至于眼前的海水都是由淡绿到淡蓝的颜色变化,就算远处的深海,也如同蓝宝石一样晶亮透彻,而它的上面是淡淡的蓝天与白云.
Although Chunhui could swim, he had never gone into the sea to swim during such a long vacation here. He was very cautious, and he clearly knew that his primary task was to guard his partner, Yattina.
虽然春晖会游泳,但是来这里度假这么长时间他从没下海游泳过,他很谨慎,也很清楚自己的首要任务是守护着自己的伴侣,雅缇娜.
After drinking a mouthful of fish soup with the faint sweetness of sweet potato and the saltiness of dried fish, Chunhui recalled his time with his partner Yattina, yet it had no flavor at all, simply as bland as water. Although as a mature man with moral restraints, when a young woman stood before him, he also had normal desires, but in the end he only gazed at her, without extravagant hopes or imagining wanting more, and he had never even tried to embrace her, nor had she ever had any intimate actions with him. She was so petite and pure; he truly did not know how she had become his partner.
喝了一口淡淡的番薯甜与鱼干咸的鱼汤,春晖回忆着自己与伴侣雅缇娜的相处,却不曾有任何滋味,简直是寡淡如水.虽然自己作为一个有道德约束成熟男人,当一位妙龄女士站在自己的面前,也有着正常的欲望,但终究也只是注视她,没有奢望或者想象要更多,甚至都没有过试图搂抱她,而她也不曾与自己有过任何亲昵动作.她那么娇小又清纯,真不知道她是怎么成为自己伴侣的.
Physical labor was a good way for a man to offset hormonal restlessness. Having eaten and drunk his fill, while the early morning weather was not yet very hot, Chunhui swung a long-handled axe and began to chop wood, chopping or splitting the various dried woods he had picked up into small pieces, then placing them in different rainproof woodpiles at high places.
体力活是男人抵消荷尔蒙躁动的好方式,吃饱喝足,趁着一清早天气还没有很热,春晖抡起长柄斧头开始砍柴,把捡回来的晒干的各种木头砍或者劈成小段儿,然后放在不同的高处的防雨柴堆里.
The labor just now had made him sweat all over. Chunhui gathered his sweat-soaked clothes, wanting to wash them, and by the way take a shower himself to feel fresh.
刚才的劳动出了一身汗,春晖搜罗自己汗湿的衣物,想要把它们洗了,顺便自己也冲个澡,清爽一下.
At this time the sun was also getting higher and higher. The sharp sunlight in the clear sky shot straight down dazzlingly, making people not dare to look directly at it. It not only illuminated the white sand beach and the veins of plant leaves so that they shone brilliantly, but the gentle waves also gradually began to carry fine bits of crystal brightness, either rotating crosses or six-pointed starlight of varying lengths, flashing and flowing before his eyes, leaving scorching tropical beach marks.
这时太阳也越来越高了,晴空锐利的阳光好耀眼地直射而下,让人不敢直视,不仅照亮得白沙滩和植物叶脉熠熠生辉,脉脉地的浪花也开始逐渐带着细碎的晶亮,或旋转的十字或长短不一的六芒星光耀闪烁在眼底流过,落下滚烫的热带海滩印记.
He was not interested in the scenery around him. His gaze swept past, and he walked back to his room, tidied the clothes to be washed, and then came to Yattina's room.
他对身边的风景并不感兴趣,视线一扫而过,走回自己的房间,拾掇要洗的衣物,然后又来到了雅缇娜的房间.
A girl's dwelling was indeed different, smelling a little faintly fresh and fragrant. Chunhui remembered the long dress she had worn two days ago, and he could wash it by the way as well. After finding it, he even lifted it and put it in front of his nose to smell it; it was the scent of her body.
女孩的住所就是不一样,闻起来有点淡淡的清香的感觉.春晖记得她前两天穿过的长裙,也可以顺便洗洗.找到后他还拎起来放在鼻子前面闻了闻,是她身体的气息.
After washing the clothes and taking a shower, it was exactly noon, the summer heat was at its strongest, and nothing could be done. Chunhui lay in his room, the four walls were openwork woven from plants, with a sea breeze blowing gently through. The sun was also directly overhead, and the roof was also woven from plant leaves. Under the blazing sun, occasionally a trace of bright noon sunlight leaked in through a gap.
洗了衣服冲了澡,正是中午时间,暑热正浓,啥也干不了.春晖躺在自己的房间里,四壁是植物编织的镂空,有海风轻轻吹过.太阳也正走到头顶,屋顶也是植物叶子编织的,烈日照耀之下,偶尔还有缝隙漏进来一丝晶亮的正午阳光.
That trace of sunlight was split into seven colors through the narrow gap. As the sun's position moved, it gradually shifted. That slowly shifting splendor seemed to have a very good hypnotic effect. The rustling sound of sea waves in the distance entered his ears, and the gentle sea breeze by his couch brushed over him. Chunhui was immersed in it and, without knowing it, had slept until dusk.
那一丝阳光透过狭缝被分成了七彩,随着太阳的方位走动,逐渐偏转着,那缓慢偏转的绚烂,似乎有很好的催眠作用,远处沙沙的海浪声入耳,卧榻边轻柔的海风抚送,春晖沉浸其中不知不觉已经睡到了黄昏.
Oh no, dinner was late; when Yattina came back to eat, it would not be in time. Anxious Chunhui was just about to get up, but he saw that Yattina had already returned, lying on her side beside him, propping her head on one elbow, looking at him. He did not know when she had changed to a hairstyle of long black waves, which had a different kind of womanly flavor.
哎呀,做饭晚了,雅缇娜回来吃饭要不赶趟了.着急的春晖正想要起身,却见雅缇娜已经回来了,正侧卧在自己身边,单肘拄着头,看着自己,不知道什么时候她改了大波浪黑长发的发型,别有一番女人滋味.
Yes, she had grown up. It seemed that she had gone to a place where time flowed faster and then returned, so she had grown up a lot. What had also passed with time was her former innocence. Although she had once been his nominal partner, at least that was how it was in his memory, this feeling of possession and loss made Chunhui feel very uncomfortable in his heart.
是的,她长大了,似乎是她去了时间流逝更快的地方回来了,所以长大了许多,同样随时间流逝的还有她曾经的纯真.虽然她曾经是自己名义上的伴侣,至少在自己的记忆里是这样,这样的拥有与失去的感觉让春晖心中很不是滋味.
But she had returned again, bringing the story from another timeline back before him. This time the feeling she gave him was that she had appeared in his life for the first time; her past was merely her personal attempt at pursuing happiness that had not been very successful.
但是她又回来了,带着她另一个时间线里的故事回到自己的面前,这一次给自己的感觉是她第一次出现在自己的生命里,她过往的曾经只是她追求幸福不太成功的个人尝试.
So in Chunhui's heart, she was still a proper woman, and those imperfect pasts were the necessary path to a perfect ending. Therefore he only asked softly,
所以在春晖的心中,她还是一位正经的女人,那些不完美的过往,是通往完美结局的必经之路.所以他只是轻声地询问,
"You're back? Welcome."
"你回来了?欢迎."
But Yattina only looked at him and did not answer,
但雅缇娜只是看着自己,并没有回答,
"Are you hungry? I'll prepare some food. What do you want to eat?"
"饿了么?我去准备点食物,你想吃什么?"
She still did not answer, only looked at him. Chunhui gently shook her shoulder, which moved her head, and her beautiful hair also shook. She still said nothing, only lay on him, pressed her face against his, as if whispering something in a low voice, perhaps her past and grievances after she left, hoping to receive his gentle acceptance...
她依旧没有回答,只是看着自己.春晖轻轻晃动她的肩头,带动她的头,她的秀发也在摇晃.她依旧不言语,只是趴在自己身上,贴着自己的脸,似乎在低声倾诉什么,或许是她离开之后的过往和委屈,希望得到自己的温柔接纳...
"Wake up, you're dreaming,"
"醒醒,你在做梦,"
Amid the shaking, Chunhui opened his eyes and saw Yattina standing before him. Had time flowed backward? She had returned to the way she looked when young,
摇晃间,春晖睁开眼睛,看见雅缇娜站在自己面前,时光倒流了吗?她又回到了年轻时的样子,
"You were just dreaming."
"你刚才在做梦."
"Oh," Chunhui answered, turning his head to look around,
"哦,"春晖答应着扭头看看四周,
"I came back and saw you sleeping, so I did not disturb you, but you were dreaming, and you dreamed me into that appearance, so I came over to wake you."
"我回来看见你在睡觉,就没打扰你,但是你在做梦,还把我梦成那个样子,我才过来叫醒你."
"Oh, so that's how it is," Chunhui looked around. It was still bright daylight, and Yattina was also as she had always been. It turned out that he had just fallen asleep and was dreaming.
"哦,是这样,"春晖看看周围,天还大亮,雅缇娜也是一直以来的样子,原来是刚才自己睡着了,在做梦.
Chunhui lay there, stayed alert for a while, recalling previous experiences and also the scene in the dream just now. He did not know why he had such a dream.
春晖躺在那里,精神了一会儿,回想着之前的经历,也回想着刚才梦中的情景,不知道为什么自己会做那样的梦.
He got up and returned to daily life. It was still the same as before: preparing dinner, taking a walk after the meal, and then each of them taking a shower. He returned to his own room, not knowing what kind of couple they were.
起身回到日常,还是与之前一样的准备晚饭,饭后散步,然后与雅缇娜各自冲凉,回到自己的房间,不知道和她是什么样的情侣.
While he was puzzled, Yattina came, holding a brainwave interaction device used for learning,
困惑着,雅缇娜来了,手拿着学习用的脑波交互设备,
"Put it on and sleep. You need to prepare for the spaceship mission operations after the vacation." Yattina handed the device to Chunhui and said,
"戴上它睡觉吧,你需要准备休假后的飞船任务操作."雅缇娜把设备递给春晖说,
He took it and held it in his hand, turned it over and looked at it, then turned his gaze to Yattina,
他接过来拿在手里,翻转着看了看,又把视线望向雅缇娜,
"How long has our vacation been? How much is left?"
"我们的假期过了多长时间了?还有多少?"
"Don't worry, we have a two-month vacation, and less than half has passed."
"别担心,我们有两个月的休假,才过了不到一半."
"You can feel what I'm thinking, right?" Chunhui said, and handed the device back to Yattina,
"你能感觉到我在想什么,是吧?"春晖说着,把设备又递给了雅缇娜,
"Actually, you don't necessarily have to put this on me. I won't hurt you,"
"其实你不一定非要给我戴这个,我不会伤害你的,"
Yattina silently took it back, looked into Chunhui's eyes, and said nothing,
雅缇娜默默地接了过去,看着春晖的双眼,没有说什么,
"Even when you are asleep, just like when you are awake, I will not do anything that would hurt you." He then continued to explain,
"即便是在你睡着的时候,和你醒着的时候一样,我不做会伤害你的事的." 他又接着解释,
"It's not that reason," Yattina gazed for a moment and further said,
"不是那个原因,"雅缇娜凝视片刻,进一步说,
"You will become more familiar with me as time increases, and in your subconscious there will be more thoughts about possibilities. You know, you are an adult male. Although you are restraining yourself, you will still have a male's natural tendency toward desire for women. That feeling is somewhat troubling to me, and I don't want to end my maiden years yet."
"你会对我随着时间的增加更熟悉,在你的潜意识里就会有更多关于可能性的想法.你知道,你是一个成年男性,虽然你在克制自己,但是你依然会有男性天然对女性欲望的倾向.那种感觉对我来说有些困扰,我还不想结束我的少女年代."
"Oh," Chunhui nodded slightly. He understood, and then silently took the brainwave interaction device from Yattina's hand again, then gave a bleak smile,
"哦,"春晖微微点了一下头,他明白了,然后默默地又从雅缇娜手中接过了脑波交互设备,然后惨淡一笑,
"If only I could keep the memories with you."
"要是我能保留与你一起的记忆该多好啊."
But obviously he could not expect anything from this young girl.
但是显然他不能奢望这个年轻女孩的什么.