I don't have my memory, am I still me?
我没有了我的记忆,我还是我吗?
Li Haojun stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window in the living room, looking at the courtyard. His cheeks were faintly reflected in the glass window, and his eyes were deep and focused.
李皓珺站在客厅落地窗前,望着院落,玻璃窗淡淡映出他的脸颊,一双眼睛深邃而专注.
The drizzle that fell early in the morning has moistened every corner of the small courtyard. The dark blue brick wall, the raindrops on the corner of the wall, the moss on the soil, everything was soaked by the drizzle in the morning. The blue bricks on the ground were soaked, and the clear rainwater slowly flowed in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows. The entire glass of the floor-to-ceiling windows was covered with gray, soaked by the drizzle of the sky. Li Haojun's figure was faintly visible through the glass, standing in front of the window.
一早起来的细雨已经润湿了小小庭院的每一个角落.深色的青砖墙,墙角的滴雨芭蕉,泥土上泛起的青苔,一切都被这清晨的细雨浸润了.浸润了地面的青砖,清澈的雨水缓缓漫过落地窗前,而落地窗整块的玻璃则被灰蒙蒙的,细雨天空浸润着,透过玻璃依稀李皓珺的身影,站在窗前.
As soon as the door to the inner room opened, Tan Wenjing walked out. Li Haojun saw her reflected in the glass window, wearing a dark green silk strapless nightgown, like a banana leaf in the rain this morning, and the stark contrast made her fair skin stand out even more.
里屋的门一开,覃文静走了出来,李皓珺从玻璃窗的反射中看到她,身着墨绿色丝绸吊带睡衣,就像今早雨中的芭蕉叶,而这凝重的对比更显出她白皙的肌肤.
Li Haojun turned around and said hello without making any more eye contact.
李皓珺转身打了个招呼,没有更多目光接触.
"Did you sleep well last night?" Tan Wenjing asked, arranging her hair with both hands and tying it into a simple ponytail.
"昨晚睡好了吗?"覃文静问,一边双手整理头发,简单绑了个单马尾.
Li Haojun could only laugh miserably and said, "I don't even remember what it's like."
李皓珺只好惨笑道,"我也不记得好是什么样啊."
Tan Wenjing just pursed her lips and smiled, turned around and said, "Wait a moment, I will make some breakfast." Li Haojun originally followed behind wanting to help, but looking at Tan Wenjing's back, fair shoulders, and graceful waist, he felt a little embarrassed, so he turned aside and went to the dining room next to the kitchen, silently Set up the table and chairs, sit down and wait.
覃文静只是抿嘴而一笑,转身边走边说,你等一下,我去做点早餐.李皓珺本来跟在后面想帮忙打个下手什么的,可是看着覃文静的背影,白皙的肩背,婀娜的腰肢,不觉有些尴尬,于是便往旁边一拐,到厨房边的餐厅,默默摆好桌椅,坐下等着.
The upper part of the partition between the dining room and the kitchen is decorated with hollow wooden patterns, and some of the positions are used by Tan Wenjing. There are red wine, tea cans, and various spices placed flatly. It seems that she has lived in this home for a while. Li Haojun inspected the details of the room, trying to find traces of his past memories, but what caught his attention was Tan Wenjing's busy back, the looseness of the suspenders, the softness and luster of the silk, and the single ponytail that swayed with her movements. Putting it on his shoulder, it sometimes blocked her cheek, and sometimes it was pulled by her turning her head. Her dazed back through the partition was as dazed as his memory of her.
餐厅与厨房隔断的上部分是镂空的木制装饰花纹,也有些位置被覃文静利用了,平放的红酒,茶叶罐,各种调料,看来在这个家生活有一段时间了.李皓珺巡视着房间的这些细节,试图找到自己曾经的记忆的痕迹,不过吸引他视线的还是覃文静忙碌的背影,吊带的张弛,丝绸的柔软与光泽,那随着她动作晃动的单马尾,时而搭在肩头时而挡住脸颊,时而因她扭头而牵动,,,透过隔断她恍惚的背影,如同他对她的记忆一样恍惚.
After a while, Tan Wenjing placed a plate of burgers in front of Li Haojun, including beef and butter. And he turned around and brought out oatmeal, fried eggs, and a glass of milk.
没一会儿工夫覃文静端盘汉堡放在李皓珺面前,有牛肉,黄油.而自己回身端来燕麦粥和煎鸡蛋,外加一杯牛奶.
"Thank you," Li Haojun thanked him after Tan Wenjing sat down.
"谢谢,"等覃文静坐下,李皓珺谢道.
"Eat, you're welcome." Tan Wenjing hugged the hem of her pajamas with her hands and sat across from her. The dining table was not big, and although the burgers tasted good, the smell of milk also drifted into Li Haojun's nose, and he couldn't help but glance at the food opposite.
"吃吧,别客气."覃文静用手搂了一下睡衣下摆坐在了对面.餐桌不大,虽然汉堡味道不错,但是牛奶的香味儿也飘进了李皓珺的鼻子,不由得他瞟了一眼对面的美食.
Tan Wenjing used a spoon to gently stir the porridge, which was still a little hot. He said calmly, "You can't drink milk in the morning because you are lactose intolerant," and then looked into Li Haojun's eyes calmly.
覃文静用汤勺轻轻搅拌着粥,还有点烫.淡淡的说,"你早上不能喝牛奶,乳糖不耐受,"然后平静的注视着李皓珺的眼睛.
"Thank you for taking care of me all the time," what else can be said, his memory only started from here, "I...,"
"谢谢你一直以来对我的照料,"还能说什么呢,他的记忆只是从这里才开始,"我...,"
"You don't have to be so polite," Tan Wenjing raised the corners of her mouth slightly. She wanted to laugh but then froze again. She lowered her eyes and looked at the stirring spoon.
"不用这么客气,"覃文静的嘴角轻挑了一下,想笑随后却又冻结了,垂眼看着搅拌的汤勺,
"You and I are just a couple, not married."
"你我只是情侣关系,并没有结婚."
"It's just me, you...,"
"只是我这样,你...,"
"Don't be like this. In fact, you have paid a lot for me before..." As she said that, Tan Wenjing looked into Li Haojun's eyes again,
"别这样,其实之前你为我也付出了很多...,"说着,覃文静又看着李皓珺的眼睛,
"One time you met a girl in the market. She was your type. She had an oval face, fair skin, a melancholy and quiet face, natural eye shadow, and a slim figure. You passed her by, but you You turned around and wanted to take another look at her back, because you thought she was a serious woman. However, you didn't expect her to turn around after taking a few steps, but you hesitated and left..."
"有一次你在市场遇到一个女生,她是你喜欢的类型,瓜子脸,皮肤白皙,面容忧郁恬静,有着纯天然的眼影儿,身材也很苗条.你和她擦肩而过,但是你转身还想再看一眼她的背影,因为你觉得她是个正经女人.然而没想到她走过几步之后也转过身来,但是有些犹豫.而你狠心离开了...",
"So what I am doing now is all with my own will..."
"所以我现在所做的,都是我心甘情愿..."
Li Haojun didn't know what to say, so he could only gently hold her left hand on the table into his palm, his fingers were a little cold.
李皓珺不知道该说什么,只好轻轻把她放在桌上的左手握入掌心,手指有点凉.
After a while, Tan Wenjing gently pulled out her hand,
过了一会儿,覃文静轻轻抽出她的手,
"Eat, I have to go out to do some errands today, you come with me."
"吃吧,今天还得出去办点事情,你和我一起."
Remark,覃,As a surname, is a polysyllabic word that can be translated as Tan or Qin, google or deepL gave different translations at different times.