After acknowledging her as his daughter from outer space, Lin Yuhui fell silent for two days. The initial rush of emotion faded, and he realised he had acted far too abruptly, worrying whether the young girl might be offended. He watched her discreetly for two more days, yet she gave no clear reaction.
认过太空女儿之后,林语晖沉默了两天,过了当时的激情,他也觉得自己太过唐突了,也不知道那个小姑娘会不会生气了.暗中观察了两天,对方没有什么明确的反应.
On March 25, 2025, he could no longer hold back the urge to speak to her again.
2025年3月25日,他忍不住又想要和对方说话,
"...I thought of Erika and Liliya once more. I know both of you possess extremely people-pleasing personalities, so I cannot figure out what manner of communication would be healthy for you two...
"...我又想到了艾芮卡和莉莉娅,我知道你们是极度讨好型人格,所以我不知道用什么方式与你们交流对于你们来说是健康的,...
Liliya once summed up that three-dimensional beings only ever fixate on three questions: first, can I eat it? Second, will it eat me? Third, can I mate with it? Twice I encountered black female dogs that deliberately turned their hindquarters toward me. I harboured no such intentions whatsoever, yet I could understand their motive and bore them no resentment. Perhaps I was reborn as a dog in a past life. On two separate occasions, I dreamed I was running uphill on four legs, my abdominal muscles burning with exhaustion. I hope this explanation I have given myself brings clarity to us both. Liliya first captured my attention because she was left all alone in the forest at such a tender age. Even compared to Earth's children, nearly everyone here has parents by their side, while she had none. Everything began with the compassion I felt for her..."
莉莉娅曾经总结过三维生物只知道三件事情,1,我能吃它吗?2,它会吃我吗?3,我能和它交配吗?我曾经有两次遇到黑色的母狗,她们都选择性地调腚朝向我,我确定我没有那种想法,但是它想要,我也能理解为什么我不想要,我也不会责怪它.也许我过去的转世里做过狗,因为有两次在梦里我在往山上跑,我是四足动物,我感觉我的腹肌很累.希望我对我自己的解释对我们都有帮助.莉莉娅最开始吸引到我的注意力是因为她那么小被孤单留在森林里,即便是与地球的孩子相比,至少我们还都有父母陪伴,而她却没有,一切都始于我对她的同情心..."
Later, Lin Yuhui noticed Liana referenced the cats he had spoken of earlier, alongside Lydia, on the website for her programme, and her newest episode centred on insects — cosmic slugs, to be precise.
然后林语晖看到在莉安娜节目的网站上,呼应了自己之前提到的猫,还有莉迪娅,接下来在她的新一期节目是关于虫子的,当然了,是宇宙鼻涕虫.
She also stated that no form of life ranks higher or lower than another. Lin Yuhui suspected this was her response to his analogy linking his interaction with the black female dogs to his bond with Liana.
她也提到了生命没有高低贵贱之分,林语晖觉得也许是回应他将黑母狗与他自己的关系类比成莉安娜与林语晖吧.
Her remark that even insect lives hold equal value brought back a memory from early spring, when he had stepped on a rove beetle inside his home; the insect was venomous and prone to biting humans.
她还说即便是虫子的生命也是平等的,这让林语晖想到了开春的时候,他在家里踩死了一只隐翅虫,因为那种虫子是有毒的并且咬人.
His aim was off, however, and his shoe tread only injured rather than crushed the beetle, which still struggled to crawl onward. Amid the season of rebirth and renewal in spring, watching its feeble struggles filled Lin Yuhui with regret. Regardless of whether it could survive its wounds, he slipped the beetle onto a scrap of paper and tossed it out the window.
但是没踩好,踩到了鞋的花纹,那个虫子没有被踩扁,只是受伤,还在挣扎着往前爬.在春天万物复苏的时节,看着它挣扎的样子,林语晖后悔了.不管它还能不能活,用一片纸,把它挫起来扔出了窗外.
Could Liana perceive what he had seen and known about this incident? Lin Yuhui wondered to himself.
难道莉安娜也能感觉到我的视野,知道了这件事吗?林语晖心中疑问.
Though winter yielded to spring and all living things stirred back to life, longer daylight hours steadily worsened Lin Yuhui's sleep quality. He could not tell if the earlier dawns or seasonal shifts were to blame. He took vitamin supplements and tried traditional Chinese medicinal conditioning, yet he still jolted awake in the dead of night with no way to tell the hour.
虽然冬去春来,万物复苏,但是日照时间越来越长,林语晖的睡眠却越来越不好了.不知道是日照时间变长亮天早影响了睡眠还是节气变化的原因.补充了维生素,也试了中药调理,他依然是在不知几点的黑夜中醒来.
Tossing and turning, he endured aching knee joints, sore stiff muscles across his shoulders and back, and the oppressive discomfort of lying on his side. Irritation piled upon irritation, and shifting his body, stretching his joints and back brought no relief at all.
在辗转反侧之间,膝关节的酸疼,肩背肌肉的酸胀,侧卧的压迫感,种种烦躁袭扰,不管怎么翻身拉扯关节和肩背也解决不了.
The exhaustive work of rearranging typesetting and migrating publication platforms for his novel during the day was likely the culprit. Beyond pain in his fingers and wrists, the labour left his entire body out of sorts.
或许是白天排版迁移自己的小说发布点的文字编辑工作太累了,除了手指和手腕的疼痛,也造成了整个身体不适.
He recalled the days when he still had a wife; intimacy would always lull him into peaceful sleep afterward. Now his own body resembled that half-crushed, dying beetle. He twisted restlessly in bed in the wee hours, unable to ease his physical discomfort, and finally resorted to self-stimulation to divert his attention, which yielded mild relief.
想起过去还有老婆的时候,总可以在欢愉之后沉静入睡.而如今这副躯壳就好像那只被踩了一脚的半死的虫子,凌晨在床上翻转却不知怎么解决身体的毛病,最后只好试图自己用手撸几下来转移注意力,似乎还有点效果.
The new day arrived, and Lin Yuhui felt wretched. He had attempted to send small donations to Liana these days, yet every cross-border payment attempt failed.
新的一天,林语晖感觉并不太好,这些天他也在试图给莉安娜小额捐款,但是跨境支付一直失败.
He consulted AI tools and tested every supposedly viable workaround, yet none succeeded. He finally faced the harsh truth: private individuals were legally barred from making independent cross-border payments, leaving him tiny and powerless in this vast world.
虽然他询问AI,使用了各种据说可行的方法,但是经过尝试都失败了,最后他终于认识到了根本上个人的合法跨境支付就是被禁止的,在这个世界上自己是那么的渺小无力.
He knew Liana was a kind girl, yet her repeated public gratitude toward her donors lately struck him as veiled sarcasm aimed straight at himself.
虽然他也知道莉安娜是个善良的女孩,但是最近莉安娜多次表示感谢她的捐赠者的喊话声还是让林语晖觉得有点像反讽自己.
The next space news segment covered the former queen's circumstances, followed by coarse language spoken by Urmah. Lin Yuhui feared she was referencing his late-night act through those curse words. Sighing, he resolved not to dwell on it; he was merely an older man, and it mattered little to him, so long as the young girl was not displeased. Besides, he had forced himself not to harbour romantic thoughts toward Liana back then, out of full respect for her. Setting personal worries aside, he turned to important matters.
接下来的太空新闻,莉安娜提到了前女王的情况,然后又提到了乌尔马的脏话,林语晖怀疑她是在用脏话指代自己夜里做的事情.唉,即便是也管不了那么多了,自己一个老男人,无所谓了,只要人家小姑娘没有不乐意就行,再说自己那个时候一直强迫自己不要想到莉安娜,是完全尊重她的.其他先不说,正事要紧,
On March 30, 2025, Lin Yuhui pondered how to deflect hostile external forces' attention away from Liana.
2025年3月30日,林语晖又想着怎么转移外部敌对势力对莉安娜的注意力,
"I heard Former Queen Ophelia will not return to Earth orbit, and I find myself missing her. I hold her in high regard because I agree with several viewpoints she voiced, and also because, as queen, she personally cleaned the latrines for those children. I have a fondness for certain people, and I wish her a fulfilling life under the bright sunshine on Telemol. If a blessing sent all the way from Earth can ease her weariness even slightly, please pass on my greetings to her. If she can sense my sincere well-wishes directly, words become unnecessary. Regarding Liana, she mentioned some oppose her reign as queen. I was astonished to learn political division exists even in your world. As reigning queen, she ought to unite the Taygetans, yet her manner of expression may lack tact. I understand taking firm stances is sometimes necessary, and I do not know the full reality of your realm, yet I hope someone can offer her political counsel. I have witnessed her bravery and resolve, but we were all young once. On Earth, politics is a perilous game, and I fear she may come to harm because of it. Perhaps our cultures differ, and I am needlessly overworried. May her day be pleasant."
"听说前女王奥菲莉亚不会回到地球轨道,我有点想念她,我尊敬她因为我同意她提及的一些观点,还因为作为女王,她为这些孩子们清理马桶.我喜欢特定的人,希望她能够在阳光灿烂的特拉毛尔享受她的生活.如果远在地球的一个祝福能够多少缓解她的疲惫,请转达我对她的问候.或者她能感觉到我的真诚祝愿,那言辞就多余了.关于莉安娜,她提到了有人不喜欢她作为女王,我非常吃惊在你们的世界里也有政治分裂,作为女王她应该团结塔吉特人,我觉得她的表达或许不那么圆滑.我知道有时候需要表达立场,我不了解那里的真实情况,但是我希望能有人在政治方面帮助她,我看到了她的勇气和决心,但是我们都曾经年轻过,据我知道,在地球上,政治是个危险游戏.我不希望她因此受到任何伤害,或许我们的文化不同,我多虑了.愿度过愉快的一天."
The following day, Liana released the second episode of Come Close To Me. She detailed the personal costs she bore for taking the throne and stressed she no longer required assistance from the former queen.
第二天,莉安娜发布了"靠近我"的第二期节目.讲述了她做女王的代价,还强调了她不再需要前女王的帮助了.
Lin Yuhui had suggested she seek political advisors solely to trick malicious outside forces targeting her into believing she did not make every ruling alone, thereby splitting the threats directed at her. Yet the young girl was fiercely stubborn, openly asserting her absolute authority as the incumbent queen.
林语晖本来提及其需要他人帮助她处理政治决定,是为了让那些想要加害她的外部邪恶势力以为不是她一个人在做决定,从而分散她所面对的风险,可是这个小女孩就是那么的倔强,直接强调了她作为现任女王的独断地位.
He wondered if she had made this tough declaration to shore up her supporters and intimidate opponents, and thus held no resentment toward her for rejecting his advice.
林语晖也想,是不是她需要强硬表态以坚定她的支持者,震慑她的反对者,也未可知,所以他也不埋怨莉安娜不接受自己的建议.
Liana also shared her origins, explaining she could not recall her past lives with the clarity other Taygetans possessed. While the Urmah feline clan treated her illness, they hinted she might once have been a member of their kind, or at least shared feline ancestry.
莉安娜还提到了她的身世,她不像其他塔吉特人那样很清楚地记得她的前世.并且在乌尔马猫族治愈她的疾病的时候还隐约提到了她可能是猫族成员,或者至少之前是.
Was this her response to his own suspicion that he had been a four-legged creature in a past life, or a gentle rejection to stop him from growing attached to her? How could an ageing man ever romantically love a lioness or tigress? The prospect struck him as utterly unfeasible.
她说这个到底是回应林语晖提到的怀疑自己前世曾经是四足动物,还是劝退他别再试图爱自己呢?一个老男人要怎么样去爱一个雌性的狮子或者老虎呢?这确实有点难度.
She revisited her profound loneliness, renewed her thanks to donors, and voiced a wish to meet her followers in person. Listening to her words, Lin Yuhui's heart twinged with sorrow.
她也再次提到了自己的孤单处境,和对她的捐赠者的感谢,还有希望能与她的粉丝们见面.听她说这些,林语晖的心里有点感觉酸溜溜的.
If Liana was enjoying herself alongside her supporters, why should he force his way into their circle? Since she would not accept his goodwill, he would return to writing his novel for his own amusement. He had spent days sending infrared laser signals and neglected his writing entirely. Kesiya was such a wonderful character; her personality unfolded exactly as he wrote it, and her affections fell to whoever he chose for her to love.
既然莉安娜和她的支持者们一起去快乐了,自己又何必硬要去凑合进他们的圈子呢?既然她不接受自己的,那就还回去接着自己写小说自娱自乐,这些天忙着发红外激光信号,已经好多天没写小说了.凯西娅多好啊,怎么写她的性格她就是什么样的性格,怎么写她喜欢谁她就喜欢谁.
He envisioned the layout of the underground facilities and the interactions between his characters, finishing the chapter. What title should he give it? Looking back over the plot, he settled on 'SEE YOU MORNING' 039 The Red Queen.
构思着地下设施的环境,想象着角色之间的互动,写完了这一章节,叫什么名呢?回顾一下内容,就叫"晓欣卿"039红女王.
Shortly afterward, Lin Yuhui heard Liana say on her programme: "Real life is far too brutal. Crafting an ideal world within a novel is a form of self-protection..."
然后林语晖就在莉安娜的节目里听她提到,"现实生活太残酷了,在小说里写一个理想的世界也是对自己的保护..."
It dawned on him then that Liana knew every last detail of what had transpired. He remained uncertain, however, whether she could only read his thoughts, or also see everything his eyes beheld.
哦,下面的事情,莉安娜在上面都知道了.只是林语晖不确定她是只能感觉到自己的想法,还是也能看见自己的视野.