Has your heart ever been tied to a feeling that makes you unable to leave? A warmth that was sweet but binds the chest.
'Love', words that people always finds it hard to conclude. A remained mystery. How could it be, only after everything had passed, that people finally cared about it?
Having resisting a somewhat bittersweet memories, hardship of togetherness, disappointment in outcome, joy of love life, and yet, in the end, what might it ended up?
What does it mean to love someone?
Some says love was sacrifice, whereas some says, love was an oath to live as one forever; overcoming everything that stand in the way, and a choice to make. Well, no one can deny that everything was true.
How about me?
Why did I love?
Well...I used to say.... I like his appearance, his perfectly sculpted face that matches my ideal type, or his sturdy body that made me felt safe on his embrace.
But as time passed by, I somewhat can't identify anymore. There's neither reason that could be explained, nor was accurate; there was just an addition, and additional reason to love the person on a deeper level.
As I looked back again, I found out that, love after all was translucent, which smoothly glided in, yet expanded substantially. Be it better or worse, it's always beyond doubt that both led to a MADNESS.
[ Author POV ]
The beginning of the story happened when Nuan Qing, who prefer peace and solitude seriously denied the existence of love or the desire to marry in her life, as she was always immersed in her world of fiction and dislikes much about community involvement. Yet, she met Yi Xuan, who also had never interested in love life, with a silver spoon on his mouth since childhood.
It was when finally a destined encounter made them have to swallow the words they used to deny. A fate that nurtured a feeling which had slowly grown in silence; as it settled deep in the corner of their heart, kept refusing to leave.
On a large hospital, a trembling phrase kept being repeated, full of misery and guilt, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I'm truly sorry". That figure's whole body was trembling, and a whole tear kept running down from its eyes, filling it's cheek; as if no matter how many tears that were shed would never be enough to atone for the wrong it done.
The voice echoed for a while before it vanished, nowhere to be seen again as the patient lying down opened its eyes.
4 Years later....
Four years slipped by, leaving behind everything that was held between those years; totally unraveled and remain mystery without any other explanation.
On the other hand, Yi Xuan was still trapped in the fragments of moments that never got the chance to become memories. He stood tall, on the edge of a bridge while leaning lightly on his motorbike. His deepened gaze was directed to the cloud as he mumbled, "Nuan Nuan....seriously, where have you gone now? What you're doing? Are you doing okay? I.... don't know... I honestly don't know what more can I do." At this time, in his mind, he wondered how sorrowful the sky must've felt. Listening to his endless grieve and longing for someone he truly dear for.
Who would have wondered? What is it feeling now? Is it joyful, or.... Is it sharing in the sadness? Or maybe.... It's also finds its happiness in being a companion to those who were grieving?
And yet, here we are, still, the clouds in the vast and blue sky became a constant place for Yi Xuan to truly conveyed his feeling, his longing, along with his despair; hoping that it brings a message for his beloved who had just disappeared without any words.
For years, their bond endured, but it might always was one-sided, as it's missing its half.