The days has been passing like that, no difference and soon, Yuki- no, Ayame and I have finished the syllabus in half a year or so (or whatever it is supposed to be, I have no idea about it) which is great, I suppose. I should be in college now and Yuki will continue her homeschooling till she reaches college as well. I have also gotten close with the parents, Evelyn and Isamu. I even called them mom or dad without even knowing as I am usually doing an act.
As for Yuki…I again called her by the name! I am still struggling with calling Yuki as 'Ayame'. She is still with the act yet hasn't gotten her full trust in the, I also haven't but I am comfortable enough to subconsciously call them 'mom' and 'dad'. 'Ayame' still has her suspiciousness; I do too as my questioning on my existence has increased but she has been ranting on how they shouldn't be trusted, there must be something odd about them to make her like that. Despite all that, we both agreed on one thing; being capable of sleep is wonderful. At first, we were hesitant but once we dozed off and didn't have those horrible nightmares.
We were over the moon as we could finally sleep and no restless nights. Eva won't come for a while as she decided for us to take a 'break'.
I was in my room, searching for something to wear as 'Mom' and 'dad' told we will be visiting their friend. This girl, Hina has a lot of crop tops and I am not a fan of crop tops but guess I'll work with something. I ended up going simple with some black belly pants, a white cropped type shirt. It was a really gave a flowing type vibes. I took a black outer as it might get cold, who knows?
The weather is unpredictable. I went downstairs to see Yuki chilling in the couch, scrolling through her phone. I looked at what she was wearing and it clearly seemed to me that she didn't have a hard time unlike me. She was wearing a t-shirt, jeans and a finger less gloves; she has been wearing them ever since I gifted it to her in our 'birthday' not like it was our actual birthdays but still.
I sat down on the couch beside her and she glanced up from her phone. "Took you long enough" she told as she looked at what I was wearing. "You barely- never mind; you didn't even own one crop top back when we were alive" of course she would tell that. "Seems like 'Hina' likes crop tops given by how much she has them but they were mostly dark in color" I replied back.
Yuki nodded in response and went back to scrolling through her phone. I wasn't in the mood of reading any novels or manga's. Maybe I should write a novel. No, I would be a bad writer, writing isn't my best trait. It won't be a surprise if I was at the very least average at it and I doubt that my work would be any close to being famous. The thing that I would struggle the most even if I had good writing skills would be the 'lore'.
Every main character needs a story but how would it influence others? The others would also need their own story but what kind? I was bad at it. I've read novels, tons of them. Re-read some when I couldn't find any good ones; I had my imagination, it's limitless yet I fail to use it, I am afraid of it.
I could easily be the creator of a world
A universe that could have vast and endless amount of possibilities but only one could get chosen.
Another by someone else, who knows what, could happen? That's what I fear.
Simply tying words could create beings that don't exist anywhere but your mere imagination. Beings that you could chose to either suffer or be happy, I was afraid of such control.
I am someone who loved friction so much that I could easily mistake the reality that I have been living with for mere friction.
"It's pathetic"
I know, Father
"You have to face reality yourself otherwise it would come in your doorstep one day"
I don't want that, Mother
"Do you even know what you want?"
Yes. I know
I want to be happy. Yes, happy. Wasn't I already happy? I was. I wanted a happy life. Me, Yuki, Mother and Father; 2 betrayed us. Me and Yuki are left. Happy now? Yes! I can finally live peacefully despite being dead.
I am now alive as well! It's great, everything is going perfectly.
But also I am someone who still questioned its own existence without knowing why I started to think in such way; a question that made me afraid of my very own existence, it was truly interesting.
I hadn't even noticed that i was scrolling through some news. I stared at my phone for a while. 'What kind of news did I just come across?' Terrorism. Haa… What extraordinary news? Wouldn't you agree? I suppose I'll just shrug off such thoughts as they are normal as having to sleep.
'I am still sleep derived despite this new life'
I sighed as I went back to the news. I think I heard Eva talking about it before our break. 'An unknown rebel group is going around casing havoc and the fact that it has only been 2 months' 2 months. That's a crazy amount of chaos caused in that time. I sighed. Guess I have to actually check it out now.
'Over two thousand civilians death: What does this terrorist group want?'
Seems like it went from 'Rebel' to 'Terrorist', that's more suitable in my opinion. The fact that it has now been 6 months, the chaos? I should definitely check. I am a fan for violence as long as I am not included.
I clinked on the article and holy macaroni. Where did these bitches find TNT?! Oh gosh. I read the article and what disturbed me the most was the fact that the TNT bombings were at crowed places. Bars, clubs and all sorts of party or club like places. Even a delivery place where they keep those big things and delivered by ships; that wasn't what disturbed me.
Most of the clubs that exploded consist of break out criminals or the ones that got off free from the crimes they had committed.
Human trafficking. Over 100 children were found in the delivering place. The weird part was that those certain boxes or whatever it is called were barely harmed, it was like those people knew where the ones doing those crimes were and where the ones who are the victims of that crime was.
Hah… was this group evil or good? 'I am getting mixed feeling now' my brain is going to hurt if I continue this.
I glanced up at the stairs as I heard some footsteps. Finally! Mom and Dad are coming. Took them long enough, weren't they just going to meet some friend? Why so much effort in the dressing then?
Oh well, I got up from my spot where I was sitting in the couch and went to put on my shoes. Yuki, who was lazing around and lazily stood up as well.