" Wanna grab a drink ?," my brother asked .
I was miserable enough to remind Jasper that I was just discharged today and I was not supposed to drink .
" Then I drink , you watch ," he said heartlessly, " After listening to you , I feel like drinking ."
Hahhhhh..
How could he use me as an excuse for drinking ?
He just waved a can of beer at me joyfully and then started drinking . It had not been even half an hour when he got drunk and started insulting me.
" Sis, do you put your brain into a cupboard or something? Who doesn't call a police when they get kidnapped?"
" Look , I told you the situation was -"
" So what ? Do you think that these freaking chaebols are some kind of God or something? Noone is above the law , repeat after me , noone is above the law ."
" You are drunk , let's go and lie down ."
" You know what ? I can drink myself to death and lie down on the road and noone will even notice me . Do you know why ? Because I am a nobody ! But for you , even if you are the one who is husrting, you will be the one who get judged by others ."
" You don't have to remind me."
" Next time you sneeze , they will blame you for air pollution, you hear me !"
I rolled my eyes .
" And can't you just divorce already ? What is so hard about it ? Just go to the court BAM ! just sign some papers BAM !"
As if it was that easy .
" Give me a can ," I said , annoyed .
Jasper scowled ," Weren't you not supposed to drink ? "
" I won't , I will just smell it ," I lied balantly.
" Fine ," he noded , his eyes were drooping," Smell it a little , then put it down ."
The can opened with a familiar skss .
I took a sip . The last time I drank was inour dorm with my team mates as I cried to them about the rumour of Liam cheating on me .
That made me twist my heart . I had lost so much after that time.
" Here we go , crybaby," Jasper jeered at me ,"Why are you crying again ?"
" She had a baby , and I wasn't there for it ," I broke down .
" What now ?"
"My friend, she had a baby , I was supposed to be there for it . I was supposed to be there for her as her maid of Honor in her wedding and I was supposed to be there for her when she had her first child ," I sobbed . The beer made me miss my team terribly. I miss Rain so much that it felt like there was a knife twisting inside me.
When we were together, they were my home . The only serene place for each storm I faced , my second family.
But now I had lost them like this .
I took a big gulo of the drink. The people I thought was going to stay forever with me , was leaving .
And there was nothing I could do about it .
" Then call her ," Jasper patted my back .
" I don't even have her number ," the thought made me cry more . Even if she was dying , I would not even know about it .
"Oh , oh , let me go look for it ," Jasper got up , searching the whole rooftop. He was so drunk that he did not have any sense left in him .
But it was good since the rest of beers were mine alone like this .
I lied down on the bench to watch the stars .
Aishh , this damn pollution! The sky was a sad roof of only darkness that had spreaded over me .
For a second it hit me , how young my brother actually was .
" Jasper , uh ," I scowled," You are nineteen , where did you learn drinking?"
Instead of answering me , he was talking to someone on phone , telling them ," Can you buy some tissue and some brain cells for my sister ?"
He was so freaking embarassing that I did not want to be bothered by him . But then , he was right , I was not exactly the smartest light bulb down the history .
I sat up , I felt a bit dizzy . But it was a good dizziness , since I was enjoying myself.
' I can't lose you so tonight
I shall put you under a spell
So we can dance till the dawn
When I am gone , you will remember my face '
It was one of our debut songs , five years back . We were so young avd full of dreams .
Now on the dark rooftop , I felt like the world was my audience. I could give it a free concert ...
I danced around my brother singing my parts and Winter's ones. Even if she was gone ,I could keep singing for her right ?
" Hey ! Be careful," my brother shouted at me ," There is no parapet of the roof ."
I giggled like a child . There was also no parapet of my life but here I was still alive .
" Who are you calling ?," I asked my brother .
"Err , a friend?."
" I also have a friend ," I told him ," Watch me ."
I called Summer first , but she never picked up , then called Rain who cut me off after ,"I need to sleep ."
That was so cheap of them . I knew that I had messed up , but least they could do was picked up my drunk-calls.
I snatched away my brother's phone to call . After constantly dialing for ten times , the other side picked up .
" How can you cut off my call like that ?," I started before she had the chance to put off the call again ," Is this how you think about us ? Is that all I matter to you ?"
The other side was silent for a while and then a male voice said ," You ....blocked me , remember? "
I stared at the phone and put it on my ear again ," Who is this ?"
" I do not understand ..."
" Liam ?," I guessed from his voice.
" Yes ?," he answered .