I woke up next to a beeping machine and a gan mask on my face.
Groaning , I tried to shove it away .
" No , no , no ,no ," my brother's voice sounded panicked ," Don't do that . Let me call the doctor now that you are awake ."
My headache was gone. I had a feeling that I had a really good sleep.
I could not understand the panick my manager and brother were showing . It was even more annoying that they had brought me to the hospital when we probably had a lot to deal with .
" Can I get discharged today ?," I asked the doctor directly.
" After you get a psychiatric evaluation."
This was too much . I was fine. I was not even depressed like before . I had understood the consequences of my actions and was ready to face it .
I had to probably sign a dozens of legal documents and deal with the nagging from the agency and apologize to my friends - yeah , that came first .
" Can I atleast call someone?," I asked .
My brother shook his head , " No , you are just going to rest today ."
" I am getting myself discharged," I looked at the manager " Get this , the longer I stay here , the more money the agency will be losing ."
" At this moment, I am your legal guardian and you will listen to me ," my brother was barely trying to suppress his anger .
" Jayjay , I am fine ," I grabbed his arm .
" YOU FUCKING OVERDOSED YOURSELF!"
I flinched . He had never shouted like this before .
" I thought that I could not sleep with just one sleeping pills , so -"
"DO YOU THINK THEY ARE VITAMINS?"
"Jayjay -"
He stromed off the room , leaving the door open .
There was another man standing at the door . Ofcourse, it was Liam Anderson. I rolled my eyes . How convenient was it for him to come now .
I ignored him and looked at the doctor ," How long you do suggest me to rest ?"
" Normally, a patient of your category would have been discharged in three days but given your circumstances, it will be a week."
A week here would ruin everything. I needed to look through the situation and take measurements.
" Please keep it in three days ."
" That would have to be seen ."
This was so much unnecessary. I had not felt so good like today for a while . Now that I had given up on everything, I felt so much better .
I just had to grit my teeth and deal with the consequences.
The chair beside me moved as Liam came to sit silently.
I looked at my manager as she stared at me with wide eyes . I could see the questions in her eyes -
'THIS IS FREAKING LIAM ANDERSON! OH MY GOD , SO YOU DO KNOW HIM '
Here we go , now I had to explain to another person my complicated marriage life .
" Give us a second ," I told her .
" I will be just outside the door ," she told me .
" No , back out the door . Yeah , get out ,get out ," I instructed her ,as she went out with a longing in her eyes , heck she might have been one of Liam's fans," You need to close the door , uh , no peeping . It is bad to everdrop !"
We sat in silence making sure that my manager was really gone .
" Julia ," he took in a shaky breath ," Did something happen?"
" Whatever it is , it is none of your business anymore," I reminded him .
He ignored it ," You know that even if you don't say it , I would eventually find out about it ."
I knew it . One conversation with my manager and he would know about my in-laws visiting me .
But I felt bitter . How could he shamelessly come back here after destroying me like this ?
" I am not still obligated to tell you ," my eyes accidentally met his .
He looked devastated, as if he was barely hanging on his life . His blue eyes were dull and it looked like he had not slept for days .
" What happened to you ?," I asked . I knew that Liam was struggling and going on therapy to Dr. Ravesh . But he looked worse than when I had left him.
His face went pale ," Nothing ," he told me . The secret that he was hiding was killing him.
The anger rose from the pit of my stomach . I threw the nearest thing on which I could get my hands on which happened to be an empty water bottle at the bedside table my brother might have drunk ,"Get out ! Get the fuck out !"
" Julia , please," he caught me wrist ," Can you let me stay just for a while ?"
The audacity this man had to ask for this . He was the one who left me for another woman , he was the one who had refused to give answers of any kind .
He was the one to break me . But now he was making me feel so guilty .
I hated this .
I hated myself for being so attached to him . Since the moment I had looked into his eyes , I wanted to wrap my arms around him. My worries, my life seemed insignificant compared to the sadness I saw in him . The closer he stayed , the closer I was to forgive him.
As if he had me bewitched . There was no saving myself from this devil.
" Just an hour , I can give you just an hour ," I choked on those words . The offer was not just beneficial to him . I had been missing him so terribly , that I wanted to look at him for a while like this .
That was all I needed .
While keeping hold of my hand , he made a pillow of his arms at the side of my bed and placed his head on it . He looked up at me , with an expression of longing that sent a tug in my heart .
" You blocked me ," he complained.
" If you don't like it here , you can leave ," I told him ," I told you that I am not obligated to answer any of your questions."
Thankfully he shut up after this . We just stared at each other in silence . There was a wall now that we could not cross. A painful rift that was keeping us seperated .
Eventually he fell asleep . But I didn't . I kept staring at him . Who knew when I could see him again like this ? The thought made my eyes go blurry with tears .
There was a small knock on the door .
I thought that it was my manager .
Well , she would eventually need some explanation for everything, considering Liam and Sunshine corporation would attack her for answers since I was not speaking .
But I guessed that watching your favourite idol sleeping while holding hands with the idol of whose manager she was , would be a bit too much for now .
" Don't come in ," I warned her in a voice as low as possible.
The door still opened wide .
It was chairwoman of Sunshine corporation, with two secretaries by her side .
" You can not order me to come in . The knock was to let you know that I was going to come in , anyway ," the chairwoman told me ," Since you have the audacity to miss the meeting arranged between us , I had to come by myself."
I wished that I had atleast pretended that I was sleeping.