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Chapter 4 - Stars are distant. He had been right here.

Maya found him just before dawn, at the hour when caffeine stops pretending it's sleep.

She pushed the office door with her knuckles and it opened on the old lamplight, the desk, the German notebook, and the way his body sat so still it betrayed the idea of sitting.

"Professor?" she said.

The word did not reach him.

She moved close enough to see the angle of his jaw, the blue tinge of fatigue turned final.

The mug lay on its side, a ring of cooling tea marking the coaster like an eclipse.

A pen on the floor pointed at her shoe as if the room were making introductions.

"Adrian," she tried again, and the name broke in her mouth.

Something old and practical woke in her fingers.

She touched the pulse at his neck, pressed harder than she should have, and then she called for help with a voice that sounded like a stranger's.

People came running with their arms full of urgency and machines that blinked green like hope.

They tried the rituals of reversal.

They asked her when she had last seen him.

She answered.

They nodded.

They looked kind.

They did not meet her eyes.

When it was finished, a paramedic gently closed the notebook on the desk as if covering a child with a blanket.

The page he'd left open had a line that ended mid-breath.

What is the thing behind the thin—

Behind the glass walls of the lab, dawn pushed a pale shoulder across the city.

The students standing in the corridor did not know what to do with their hands.

Someone said, "No," like an experiment rejecting a hypothesis.

Someone else began to laugh in a way that warned of later tears.

News moves inside buildings before it moves across continents.

It moved through that building as if the vents had carried it, outpaced only by the silence it left behind.

By eight a.m., the first newsroom took the pin out of the headline and let it fly.

BREAKING: World-Renowned Scientist Adrian Found Dead at 40

An anchor cleared his throat three times before he could say the word dead without it catching.

He wore the face of a man who had practiced impartiality and discovered it had limits.

"At approximately four o'clock this morning," he said, hands folded to keep them from betraying him, "Professor Adrian was found unresponsive in his office at the Institute. Paramedics pronounced him deceased at the scene. The cause is believed to be sudden cardiac arrest. We'll bring you more as this story develops."

They cut to footage.

Adrian on a stage, Adrian in a hard hat, Adrian bent over a lab bench, smiling at something only he could see.

The lower third of the screen mutated from BREAKING to REMEMBERING while producers argued about whether it was too soon.

Phones began to vibrate the way nerves fire.

A senator woke to a message from his chief of staff and sat up too fast, the room lagging behind. "Draft a statement," he said into the dark.

"Make it sound… respectful."

Later, he stood in front of cameras and called Adrian a visionary, and almost believed himself.

On the far side of the world, a woman with silver hair and a voice that never quite stopped being a lullaby stared at her screen until the letters blurred.

She pressed a hand to her mouth as if to keep something from escaping.

"No," she said to the empty kitchen. "No, no."

She dialed a number with muscle memory and got a recorded message that said the mailbox was full.

At the hospital where a boy had learned to play piano again, a therapist leaned against the wall and cried in the narrow, contained way of professionals.

The boy, Nico, did not understand right away.

He played the piece he had been practicing slow at first, then bright as if volume could argue with fact.

He missed the same note he always missed, laughed, and then the laughter stopped because the therapist's face told him he had missed something else forever.

Across a river, in a cramped apartment filled with the angles of ambition, Aditi sat up in bed.

She opened the news and read it twice as if the second reading could rewrite the first.

Her brother knocked on her door and asked if she wanted tea.

She did not answer.

She pulled her notebook into her lap and stared at the filtration diagrams drawn the night before on a ticket stub.

The ink had a tear in it where a drop had fallen.

She hadn't noticed then.

She noticed now.

In a dormitory where the paint peeled in honest curls, Donovan stared at the headline until the words turned inside out.

He picked up his phone and scrolled to the lecture he had saved, the one that had argued him into staying another day.

He pressed play.

The screen showed a man in a rumpled shirt, eyes alight, talking about the obligation hope imposes.

Donovan watched it twice.

When the video ended, he whispered, "Thank you," to an empty room and felt ridiculous and also relieved.

Journalists who had written profiles of Adrian in varying shades of reverent dusted off their word processors and called the same ten sources they always called.

One of them, Sasha, sat with her coffee going cold and decided to write what she had not been allowed to print before.

Not the manufactured myth, not the nonprofit brochure.

She opened a blank document and typed, He laughed at the idea of genius because it implied the work belonged to one person.

He made everyone around him taller by standing next to them.

Then she deleted taller because it was lazy and wrote braver instead.

In a classroom in Lagos, a teacher paused a lesson on Ohm's law and said nothing for thirty seconds.

The students did not know Adrian personally.

They knew the way adults made his name heavy.

They knew that a person could change the shape of the world without holding office or a gun.

They sat up straighter.

The teacher exhaled and wrote two dates on the board with a dash between them, then put the marker down like a flower on a grave.

Cameras gathered at the Institute's glass wedge.

They liked the way grief reflects.

Microphones found anyone with a badge and an unguarded face.

"What did he mean to you?" a reporter asked a young man who had only ever dared to call him Professor.

The young man said, "He remembered my name," and then seemed ashamed of how small that sounded for a headline.

It was not small to him.

The Institute issued a statement composed by committee and softened by lawyers.

It spoke of "immeasurable contributions" and "inspiration."

Someone added the phrase a light to follow and no one crossed it out.

They announced a vigil for the evening.

They used the word community and meant it.

By noon, condolence messages from heads of state began to bloom like a peculiar garden.

One called him "a national treasure" though he had spent his adult life trying to be useful to a border wider than that.

Another wrote, "The world has lost a star," which would have made him roll his eyes.

Stars are distant.

He had been right here.

Markets hiccuped because markets dislike surprises.

A biotech company's stock climbed for an hour on speculation that tragedy is an opportunity.

Then someone with a conscience said something in a meeting and the climb slowed, guilty.

Emails piled up in an account no one would open for a few days.

Among them,

A message from a teacher in a rural school thanking him for the free curriculum he had funded.

Acomplaint about an unreturned interview request.

A note from his mother, sent at 10:14 p.m., saying, Eat something warm, baby.

The vigil began before the vigil.

People arrived with things to hold because grief wants weight.

Flowers, candles, a hand-lettered sign that said He taught us to ask better questions.

A child placed a single screw on the steps because he thought scientists would like it.

A teenager drew a parabola on a poster and around it wrote names hers, her friends', her grandmother's and an arrow that said.

We are under this curve too.

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