52. "LONELY HOUSE"
I just left the room where there was me, my mama and my little sister, if you could've put an ear on the door, you would think that nobody is around and as a young man, I just need a lady friend that will keep my mind busy during these trying time, I don't even remember how it feels to be around a woman.
There's no love in this big house, everybody stays in their own room and it's always been that way but I'm now tired of being part of this, I need a lady friend that will keep me out of this house. I've been working on my pain, getting over my failures and mistakes, I see the positive change in myself and I just need a lady friend that I can prove this to.
I miss having conversations, I miss falling out of place and deep into a woman's energy, I miss the peace that a woman carries in herself, I find it in between her arms, I have never went this long without a girl in my life, I've really stopped giving a fuck about my needs.
Grandma left her own house, people are getting distant and it doesn't feel like a home at the moment, so I need somebody that will be my escape from all of this because it's cold, it's damaging and it's dark, I need a girl that will bring me that sense of happiness, love and warmth.
53. "NOTHING NEW"
There was once a girl and a boy who fell in love at the age of 19, the girl fell out of love and ended the relationship, the boy found himself losing the meaning of life, he lost himself to girls, lust and destruction.
The relationship didn't make it for whatever reason, I shouldn't hold myself hostage for the faults that I couldn't control, I was young and I didn't know any better, the relationship ended and now life has to go on.
Things like this happen, in every breakup, there is always the one person that's stuck up but those people tend to wind up healing and letting go, maybe now that I'll put in the work, I will also get the same results.
Currently, I wake up with the thought of my pain, trauma and scars, I sleep with the feeling of loneliness, misery and emptiness but I write with hope that the next days bring a better life.
There was once a girl and a boy who fell in love at the age of 19, the girl fell out of love and ended the relationship, the boy found himself losing the meaning of life, he lost himself to girls, lust and destruction.