13. "GIVE ME SOME TIME"
Yeah damn right, I shouldn't be worrying about her anymore nor should I give a fuck about the shit she posts and who she's in love with this season, she's just a girl "falling in love" again & again but really it's just infatuation all over again.
I hate seeing the changes, falling in love with somebody who isn't me, got me tripping over an old breakup, now she's kissing somebody else.. Damn these thoughts aren't good for me.
If it was ever love, we wouldn't be communicating as exes, she wouldn't be wasting her time with these fools and I wouldn't be in a moment of isolation. I'm not perfect but I'm perfect for her, she's gonna keep "falling in love", tryna replace me and forget me.
All she gotta do is to bring her ass over here, I guess these days exes don't really go seperate ways, because a few nights ago she was telling me that she's here to listen if I wanna talk about what's on my mind.
She's in love again, I'm seeing it all again, she's posting all about it, I wonder who she's in love with this month, but for some reason I feel like I'm realer because I haven't gotten close to anybody since her.
14. "LONG ENOUGH"
It's been long enough, I should've been over it by now, we could've been cool as friends now, I know but I'm just too messed up in here for me to bring myself to that change. I keep shutting down my own thoughts and emotions, I keep telling myself that this is the best way to deal with my demons but it really ain't.
I'm nothing like most people, I've got scars from the past, my flaws made me this vulnerable and this shit is all complicated, which normal person doesn't know how to move on and start afresh?
I'm harboring so much stuff and it's weighing me down but I just don't know how to detach myself from the past, I would love to start a new life, a new phase with new people but I just don't know how to.
It's been long enough, she shouldn't mean shit to me anymore, she shouldn't have that effect on me anymore but I keep dancing around the same flames with the ghosts of my past. She gave her love to the worst guy..