"Why... has my state of mind become so strange..."
The girl sat in meditation, her form appearing particularly frail in the pitch-black night.
Mount Wudang's scenery was magnificent and grand. Fu Hua was positioned on the peak where she could take in the vast beautiful view below with a glance, but this couldn't make her feel any better.
Fu Hua at this moment was like someone who had fallen out of love—in complete despair, everything seemed to lose meaning.
But... why was this happening?
Fu Hua's brow furrowed tightly.
Let alone that she had never been in love before—even if she had truly fallen out of love, her heart shouldn't be in such chaos like an ordinary person.
People who practiced martial arts for years would pursue spiritual strength, striving to remain unchanged in expression even if Mount Tai collapsed before them, and not blink even if elk frolicked to their left.
Only this way could they maintain calm in rapidly changing battles and perfectly display their full abilities.
Fu Hua had practiced martial arts since childhood, training in the depths of winter and heat of summer.
Her state of mind had long become still as an ancient well through countless tempering, like an elder who had seen through worldly affairs—this was also why Little Senti called her Old Antique.
However...
After hearing the news of Haru and Elysia's engagement, she couldn't control her inner emotions, feeling as lost as a child who had something important stolen.
"Haru... Haru..."
Fu Hua murmured the name in a low voice, the man's appearance floating in her mind.
Because of Elysia's relationship, even Little Senti had met Haru several times, let alone her.
Although Haru and Elysia had moved out to live together now, before they started dating, both had lived at the Golden Courtyard.
Fu Hua herself was also a member of the Golden Courtyard. Even though she couldn't live there permanently due to inheriting the family martial arts school, Eden still kept her room, and Fu Hua would return to stay at the Golden Courtyard during holidays.
In other words...
Fu Hua had actually lived under the same roof as Haru and had a good relationship with him.
She still remembered that when they first met, she had an extremely close feeling toward Haru, as if they were old friends who had known each other for years.
Fu Hua had thought this was because they were both from Shenzhou and had common ground.
But before long, she discovered that Haru seemed to have a magnetic attraction—whenever she was with him, her heart would ripple.
"I didn't think much of it at the time, and with Little Senti subsequently dragging me on travels, I gradually put this matter aside."
Fu Hua showed a bitter smile.
Looking at the current situation, she actually hadn't let it go at all.
And there was something strange—since meeting Haru, she would intermittently have dreams.
In the dreams, she seemed to be called Red Kite Immortal, spending most of her time slaying demons and monsters, but occasionally she would also dream of being together with Haru, acting as husband and wife.
"They say you dream of what you think about during the day. Could I really have feelings for Elysia's boyfriend..."
Fu Hua murmured, then shook her head.
No, things weren't that simple.
Everything in the dreams was extremely vivid, as if she had really experienced these things somewhere—transforming into an immortal to guard Shenzhou, and thousands of years later dating Haru.
"What exactly is going on? Am I too deep in dreams, or am I having these dreams because I like Haru?"
"I can't tell, I really can't tell..."
Fu Hua's gaze was vacant and confused, deeply trapped in some emotion she couldn't escape.
The clear dreams overlapped with the reality before her eyes. Her brain suddenly felt a tearing pain, as if something was about to surge up from the depths of her mind.
"Ugh!"
Fu Hua bit her silver teeth tightly, her expression becoming fierce in an instant, as if she had gone mad with cultivation. The scenery before her eyes gradually blurred, replaced by various hallucinations.
「I have experienced too much betrayal and deception, felt too much suffering and helplessness...」
「Those who trusted me were all implicated by me...」
「No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't resist the passage and erosion of time...」
「In the end, I was still alone!」
Countless images flashed by, followed by countless pain and despair that overwhelmed Fu Hua, causing her consciousness to instantly become chaotic.
But at this moment, a man's deep and powerful voice also resonated from the depths of memory.
「I won't let you be alone.」
Responding to these words was a clear phoenix cry!
Fu Hua seemed to see a divine bird soaring into the sky, then a martial arts technique appeared in her consciousness, making her instinctively assume a cultivation posture.
"The divine is the extreme of transformation, the wonderful expression of all things, which cannot be questioned by form."
The incantation of Taixu Sword Qi was repeatedly recited.
Fu Hua's consciousness gradually regained clarity, and the hallucinations disappeared as if nothing had happened.
But the many emotions that had previously overwhelmed her consciousness were absolutely real.
"And that martial technique that originally only appeared in dreams..."
Fu Hua exhaled a breath of turbid air, her expression somewhat surprised and suspicious.
She had just used the martial technique from her dreams while her mind was unclear, entering a state of spiritual wandering in Taixu in confusion.
That feeling was very peculiar.
It was as if heaven and earth became a leaf on a great tree, from which she could glimpse the operating patterns and then borrow the power of heaven and earth for her own use.
Although she ultimately couldn't borrow that vast power of heaven and earth, under the unity of heaven and man, it was enough to keep her conscious amid the torrent of countless emotions.
"This martial art called 'Taixu Sword Qi,' besides its profound mental method, also has many exquisite techniques."
With Fu Hua's insight, she could see that these techniques were definitely not fantasies but had practical combat significance.
It was no exaggeration to say that these techniques were more sophisticated than any other martial arts in the world, with myriad variations, each move exhausting the ultimate of technique.
To be honest, she didn't think she could create such martial arts just by dreaming.
"Was that really just a dream? The martial techniques are actually real—what about the other content in the dreams?"
Fu Hua's expression changed repeatedly as she grabbed her chest.
Faced with so many anomalies, no matter how slow Fu Hua was, she should have some guesses in her heart.
There was probably some inexplicable fate between her and Haru.
Making a bold assumption, Shenzhou had the concept of six paths of reincarnation. Perhaps she and Haru were husband and wife in a previous life, and the dream content was actually her past life memories.
As for why she could remember her previous life... maybe she didn't drink Meng Po's soup completely?
Fu Hua looked up at the night sky, her blue eyes becoming confused again.
Even if she knew her past life's husband was Haru, what could she do?
Haru probably didn't have memories of his past life, so in this life he got engaged to Elysia.
And Elysia was also her good friend. Fu Hua couldn't break up her friend's marriage just because she was with Haru in a previous life, could she?
But watching Haru and Elysia marry with her own eyes made her heart incredibly uncomfortable.
"What should I do?"
Such a contradictory situation left the honest Fu Hua's thoughts in complete chaos. After being silent for a long time, she finally made a decision.
"Whether it's dreams or past life, there's no way to reach a conclusion now."
"I should cultivate first. This martial art 'Taixu Sword Qi' can refine the heart and also involves spiritual aspects. When I practice to a certain level, maybe I can dig out the truth from the dreams!"
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