Ununiformed
Fragile
Incomplete
I feel like I have been stretched in all directions with no way to tell which way is my head.
No, it's more like I have been split apart, the parts of me, scattered in different directions.
At the highest place, the most noticable and impactful part.
Ironically, feels like being trapped in a dark damp place with no way to open a way forward. A feeling of being completely lost.
Another part feels like being surrounded, no being crushed by my own weight, countless versions of this feeling, in them I am obsessively holding on.
Another part futher crushed beneath it, is screaming in pain, it's at an existential level, that makes me want to desperately ignore it, diverting my attention elsewhere.
Beneath, is another part that is submerged in regret and anguish, even taking a step away fills me with unimaginable grief.
Just beside it, at an equal magnitude, another part converges with it.
Then using it as the base, it rises towards the parts containing unbearable pain, and obsession.
It starves them and at times overwhelmes them making them crave endless pleasure
or
an impossible dream.
I look back at the top, that part feels so lonely and powerless, but I can feel it being supported by the part obsessively carrying it.
Millions upon millions of such parts experience these emotions in varying intensities.
All the way at the top of all these, beyond the horizon, where such emotions dare not expose themselves, a giant lives.
Waiting unt------
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"Urgh..."
I wake up from my sleep, something I had secretly had more than enough of since transmigration.
Back then it felt like if I blacked out, I would never wake up again.
But I guess, since I already woke up and got a physique similar to my human form, I guess I can try sleeping as well or...anything that a human male can do.
Feels weird to say that, as if I am not human...
Well, let's check whether I have been transmigrated again.
System
[Good Morning, Host.
Have you calmed down? There seems to have been some abnormality in your conciousness, so an emergency forced-sleep state was induced]
Alright, what happened after that?
[While recuperating, a body-wide scan was initiated, three hundred times, the results matches the average: No Abnormalities in the Central Multi-Processor or the Physique, it seems to be judged as a mental issue, but I didn't find any points of cross reference between my state and your abnormal behaviour]
Uh huh, so? What about that light? What happened to me just after? I could've swore it obliterated me.
[Yes, Host, the light indeed touched you but that was after you cleared a way to the outside, the golden light has been scanned by the Central Multi-Processor through contact, and there are no qualities found in it that can induce such a reaction]
Okay so what was it?
[It was composed of infrared, ultra-violet and the light in the visible spectrum, according to the data in your and the makeup of this golden light, it's called 'sunlight']
...wait. So I got no diff'd by a ray of light? A minion of Ancestor Sun.
Bitch I never got a heat stroke in my entire life!
There's gotta be something more to it. Fuck, I don't know, and I kinda don't want to know.
At this point, my brain tactically figures out a distraction to get out of this uncertain thought process.
Hey, what was the last message you were showing me?
I remember the main content, but not other half at the start, so I have to know to be sure.
[Yes, Host.
The last message was about the origin of Aether Points leading to
the Central Multi-Processor's speculation-
"The Birth Pod- and consequently Host, is related to the Restored Main Path of Power, Endless Evolution ]
Something about this bugs...no, focus on the main topic.
Tell me about this Path of Power.
I decided to go for the fundamentals, before immediately jumping on the exciting word.
I don't want to keep guessing and come back, might as well get it done properly withoutanydoubts.
[Yes, Host the Path of Power, is but a singular one.
That is 'Progression'.]
Progression. It rolls in my tongue, it's satisfying to say.
[Throughout history and time, any being or substance needs to accumulate it's essense, to become, obtain or create a Power.]
I mean, I can see how someone can become powerful, maybe by cultivating on one's ownself, which was my go to, on Earth.
Or chasing money, understanding the rules and developing skills specialised in politics or mass media and psychology.
One is internal and the other is external, but far more impactful than the former, as even I who chased after self-perfection, couldn't make a dent to the monster known as the masses, as a 'True Human'.
[It could be their History, a 'Status', or even complete nothingness, signifying a terrifyingly infinite
initialpotential.]
Hmm...the Status is probably different from the status I am thinking of right? Also, what is Power in this case, is it something that can also be digitized by the System?
[Answering the first query: Yes
The 'Status' is different from a typical status from 'Earth' 's political landscape.
Every being and thing in existence has a Status, and is thus a
'Status-holder'.]
Everything? So maybe say, even this whole world? But I am in this world right now, in a way a part of it.
So how does that resolve the problem of my and the world's conflicting statuses?
[A Good Question, Host.
It is in simple terminology, a record of birth, life, death and everything in between.
Having a Status is a Proof of Existence.
A typical 'status-holder' will undergo many 'status' changes, as it transforms into various 'states', living or non-living.
A 'Status' chnage is like an end of 'existence'.
It's Proof of Existence is dissolved and 'archived' somewhere.
Further explained in the second query.]
[Second query: