"Hah.. I get the general idea now..."
I remove the overly sensual suit and put on my real clothes.
I had already collected them before my crashout, but since I had to take them off eventually, I was practically a naked exhibitionist shouting profanities for the last 3 hours.
I may have lost my dignity and but I have also gained wisdom!
"This corpse-suit can probably influence me in a limited zone, likely 3 meters is the limit, or maybe my willpower is not strong enough to go farther."
I decide to test my earlier theory and slowly put it on as reluctantly as possible, which is pretty hard since I've become a little accustomed, super embarrassing!
I am not an exhibitionist!
Eventually I feel the now familiar siphoning of what I decided to call 'karma'.
"This is a heavenly feeling, no matter how many times I experience it."
Because of this, the time of siphoning has even been slightly addicting. I am probably making a very disturbing face while wearing this suit.
.Curse you! Dead Organ-Human Trafficker!
"But it doesn't go any lower when the base karma is reached. This is a scam!"
The base karma is the minimum karma that never really leaves my system.
This system consists of me, the suit and the karma I accumulate over the whole process of me doing anything to eventually wearing the suit.
But after wearing it, it greedily sucks up all the karma, including the base karma.
Only after taking it off, does the base karma starts it influence on me again.
"Which means the base karma remains in some way or form."
"I mostly have enough time to distance myself from the suit by a couple meters, maybe the suit also needs some time after discharge or is it sorting out the karma?"
There is still the issue of the excess karma left if you minus preserved base karma.
I don't know where they go or if they are still somewhere in the suit, but looking that I have already gained some mental clarity once I started the wear-and-take off cycle, I have an idea, but nothing concrete yet.
"As for origin of the base karma, if I had to guess..."
Back when it first influenced me unknowingly to put it on, the feeling back then is way too similar to the base karma.
Somehow this base karma has been preserved since the first contact, which should be the moment it was fed into my system.
"Since then, it's become like a self sustaining loop that cannot be escaped from unless... a greater variable is introduced, or if the suit is destroyed."
I have already tried ripping it, it doesn't work, plus I can't stay without wearing it for too long, if I don't create some distance, then I have to wear it again.
The next option is creating a variable that can force me out of this range.
"If I had another person, it would've been much easier, since I am pretty sure it only affects me, unless there is some other function for others in range that I am not aware of. Well, I'll only know if I try."
I pull out something from my pocket, it reflects the 7 different colours of light, but can only glim darkly in this fog.
It looks oval in shape with some protrusions, giving it an aged look, like a mountain that has braved through the wear and tear of time, it being the last of it left.
"The description looked very enchanting and mysterious, at first I even got my hopes up but honestly it's just an ordinary rock."
It's a rock. I got it as 2nd prize in the lottery, it's said to bring good fortune.
After winning it, I got two other top prizes, since then I have kept it close to me.
Though it never showed anything remotely fortuitous after that, I still carried it around because it looked pretty to look at.
With nothing else on hand, I threw the rock in the fog above, adjacent to the sun, to get a clear view and wait for it to fall while being close but not too close to the suit to feel the future.
"As expected, I can feel a new karma."
Though this one is incomparably small, but it can still be felt.
If the base Karma is like being submerged in water until the pressure keeps you from even moving
Then this is like being surrounded by morning dew creating a foggy atmosphere.
I can do anything, run while doing a headstand, or stand there like a mime.
But that doesn't change the foggy scenery in any way.
The rock falls and there is nothing I can do to change this outcome from 7 meters away.
I put on the suit again, this time as well, the feeling of restriction feels like an eternal shackle, but I am not moving from here until we reach an equal status, I will not let myself be swept away this time.
"Whether it is the futility in grasping this fog, or the suffocating inevitability of drowning, I will not give up until the future I want to see becomes reality!"
I get ready to throw the rock again, a solid grip on it with it in my right hand and pushing my left thigh, my foot firm against the ground
I throw as high as I can but this time, just in range for me to interfere.
"The base karma has already started pulling me from behind. I have to be careful."
At the same time, a new karma appears, which is independent without my intervention.
As the rock falls, it appears, the second karma, branching out of the first independent karma. My eyes glim with hope at this.
It feels as if the fog itself is tracing the invisible karmas' trajectory but still light enough like a canvas being painted with a pencil.
The second karma feels more unstable compared to the other as if it might break or dissolve into the surrounding fog at any moment, but I will it into place and form a firmer string of line towards me.
As it is formed solely by my intention to do something in the future, it doesn't need anything but my resolution to form it.
In a way this is like shaping and fine-tuning my future choices in real time.
"Good! I feel like it'll work!"
I involuntary step back, now I am just two steps away from reaching the point of no return between me and the corpse(1.7 meter away).
After that I can only walk onwards to wear it again.
Right then the 2nd Karma started loosening into what felt like strands, the most important part is here.
"The next step is to envision a clear future, branching the 2nd Karma into two."
After so many trials, I have become able to make out the shape of karmas(future) and visually represent them to strings connected to me.
Although I feel they do not encompass the future's right shape this is the simplest interpretation I could reach for now.
But I have confidence that it can be a substitute for any karma of any shape.
I remember the first time I was able to clearly make out these strings. It came to me naturally as I focused on the connection between me and the corpse.
My entire body, down to nails, were covered with infinitely thin strings, so thin that I couldn't even touch them, like rays of light, no like neutrinos that can pass through almost anything.
Their attraction power should also be infinitely small, but the sheer scale of infinite strings working together could do something far more miraculous than what I am about to do.
It was hard to pinpoint where so many karma strings were coming from.
If I assumed they came from the corpse, nobody could blame me, at the same time, it also felt like they came from me.
Unlike the karmas created by my intention, the base karma was like a paradox, and at the center of it... is most likely the hole in my chest.
Every string goes into it and out, connecting me and the corpse, I still don't know whats in there.
"Maybe its head is inside there?"
I feel uncomfortable at this ominous possibility, at the same time, it feels like I have missed something crucial...
The strings showed a chaotic rhythm constantly changing like waves hitting a shore back and forth, but the closer I got to the corpse the more ordered they became until...
"It's ready."
I could see the second karma, just a meter shy now from reaching my planned zone.
With my adjustment, the second karma now feels like it is made of two strings in a double helical structure, reinforcing each other.
Meanwhile I have unknowingly reached my planned spot through the courtesy of the base karma's pull.