After that episode with my mother, I decided to get discharged.
Nothing good would come from staying in the hospital any longer. And as much as I wanted to stay for a while longer and look after Tae-Hyun, I couldn't and it was simply because my mother was there most of the time.
I hated my mother.
Those words crept into my heart and lingered like a curse.
I have no reason to love her to begin with.
She doesn't want to tell me why she hates me, so I think it's only fair to hate her equally, not like it would affect her.
After leaving the hospital, I took up therapy with a psychologist.
I didn't talk about my relationship with Tae-Hyun but I talked about everything else.
I talked about my mother, about how I feel detached from the world, and how it became hard for me to close my eyes at night without waking up minutes later from a nightmare I couldn't even remember.
