A high pitched whining woke me up from my deep, heavy sleep. A few seconds after getting brought back to reality I could now realize what that loud screeching noise was: Cicadas.
Oh,yes! I remember, before falling asleep. The harsh rough-edged, cold brick wall where my head rests, has now soaked up all the morning heat and turned hot. I could feel the rough edged brick bruise my scalp with each slight movement. That jagged brick that once grazed my scalp now cradles me to sleep.
Upon further realization, I notice the beads of sweat that has formed on top of my forehead. The feeling of cold sweat droplets drenching my back and the hard, hot brick wall where my back rests, these contrasts of temperatures around is helping me to come back to reality from my sleep state.
I am now awake. And all these changes around me indicates only one thing,
It's summer outside.
"Outside?" I question.
Yes, outside. I sometimes forget that the world isn't confined to the darkness around me. I Am. The pitch black darkness, where I couldn't even see my own hands and the embrace of the cold brick walls around me is the only world I remember. I don't remember how long I've been in here. Not that it matters, there exists no time in this place.
I pass my moments in silence, looking at the darkness up front, getting lost in it.
This room feels infinitely long in this vast sea of black. And I'd like to believe it is that big. Although If I stretched my legs straight I could feel the wall infront of me.
" Stretching my legs... How do I do that?" I have forgotten.
There are various things I do not remember anymore. Perhaps I never knew them to begin with.
My mind sometimes gets filled with different questions,
questions that I've already asked, questions that may never get any answers. But there's always a question that comes back over and over again.
"Do I belong in this vastness? Or am I a mere outsider, observing the calm sea for some time."
In this dark room, there is no time. No day or night. Only the vibrant deafening black and my quite beating heart.