Inna just offered me some lessons that should fix my bad habits, even though i found it hard to believe, i feel like something shandy's going on.
Normally, someone offering some kind of service that seems to be in your interest is definitely a scam, but with Inna, i can't put my hand on what she's after, cause she so unreadable, even in class she doesn't do things regular students do.
"Jueji, I'm glad you offered to do this, but how are we gonna make time for it, we all busy all day. And also, are you sure you can take some away from your precious time to teach me?"
"Well it can be challenging but i feel like i can do it. It's been a long time since I've helped someone, so i will try to offer as much as i can to make you a better student."
I felt the noble cause out of her, i kind of get it now, she just trying to help others to not gatekeep all her knowledge. Which sound like a justification, but i can accept that
One thing I noticed about Inna is that she's very handy, you talk to her for sometime and she start touching you.
It's sounds weird coming from me, but i noticed she really likes to physically express herself. She grabbed my chin back in the bathroom which kind of surprised me. I'm really worried about that.
It's been a long time since i stayed in class after the school bell, students voices just fade away little by little, and what was a class filled with students is now just empty, the scene is very reminiscing.
Inna brought out a paper and started writing the terms for our relationship.
"Okay Bina, our goal for this arrangement is elevating your lifestyle, so by the end of it, you going to be an excellent student, who is highly valued. That's our main goal."
"Uh huh, sounds good."
"So in order to reach that goal, you should follow my directions and orders, anything i ask you to do, you do it. Got it?"
"Got it"
"During our journey, there might be some obstacles that might ruin our relationship, which is a very risky thing that needs to be handled properly. For that reason we should have a reminder so that we won't let those obstacles ruin our mission."
"A reminder?, what's that"
"It's a particular thing, we just create a way to make sure that we both will never breach our arrangement, it's like a contract"
"Hmm, so i should sign like a paper?"
"No Bina, a paper wouldn't work in our situation, we need something symbolic that can firm our interconnection."
"Symbolic?." I didn't get how that would make us dodge those obstacles that she's talking about. None the less, i started thinking of what would work, looking around me trying to get some ideas.
"Okay" i think this is in the range of she's talking.
"I have this cat doll that was offered to me by a dear friend who moved away one time. What do you think"
I don't know why i lied, i just created a whole backstory of a cat doll that i won on a claw machine, maybe i just thought that it would be better to give it some kind of meaning.
I handed Inna the cat and she said.
"That's nice, I'm going to have this sit in our desk, as long as it's hanging, I'm obliged to guide you, and you are obliged to follow."
I looked at the doll while it's in the hold of Inna, and i felt like i gave a part of me to her, but I'm not mad at it, i wanted her to have it.
"Sounds good, can't wait to start our training."
"Very well. Now because we have a symbol, we need a charter, similar to terms but easy- to- remember."
"A charter?. Are we seriously in need for that."
"Yes. It's very important in anything you do to have a clear objective. A chart should cover our objective."
"Hmm, the objective is to improve my lifestyle which means we need something like a slogan... Didn't we learn about the moon landing mission at English, where we had a quote that says: 'one small step for a man, one giant leap for mankind', that could describe our journey."
"I guess using a big quote as our charter might work out, how should we turn it?"
"One small step for a girl, one giant woman to mankind... it sounds bad.
"Yeah, but i liked the word switch, let's just—"
"Oh, how about 'one small step for me, one giant leap to be the girl he'll will never let go'."
"..."
"I meant 'you'll never let go'."
"Well if that's what motivates you, we'll go with that."
"Now that we covered the necessary forms, we shall begin our mission, you address me by my first name and i address by Ruby, got it."
"And the stuff that i will order you to do will not be limited to only school stuff, other aspects of your life going to change too."
"And we'll be meeting two times a week after school, we'll be studying and catching up with each other, is that okay?."
"That's great, I'm so excited to be under Inna's care, now I feel like I'm doing something with my life."
"Alright, that's about it Ruby, if you're going to follow me, you'll end up so much more respected. People and teachers will give their attention to you، to the point you will feel sick of it eventually."
"Yeah?!, i think that's going to be wonderful, teachers don't usually talk to me that much, i mean i never act like I'm interesting on what they're saying, but i feel like a ghost in class."
"That's right, being strict and disciplined means people will easily lower their guards for you, no matter who you are, those stupid classmates thinks it's cool to talk back to teachers and go about freely like the bums they are."
"Ummm, what?"
"We shouldn't tell anyone about this, I can't stand those low lives—"
"Don't—"
I stode up at that moment, i couldn't let her talk about my classmates and friends like that, i don't want someone who claims to be my tutor badmouth them like that.
"Looking down at people is not a good trait. No matter how much you think you better than them doesn't give you an excuse to put yourself above them."
"... Sorry if i came off like that, i really didn't want to sound like i despise them but, i do. Those pests are so ignorant and simple-minded, i just can't stand them, i only look at them as comrades and schoolmates that i get along with, other than that, i shouldn't get close with them."
Inna words kind of shocked me, i can't believe the reason why she always isolate herself in class is cause she doesn't tolerate us, but she doesn't come off like that, at least the little moments we encountered, she seems very nice and open, that's really confusing.
But if i think about it, she talking to me just fine, which means there's a chance we could all get along together, and try to bring her to talk to us more.
"Inna, i always have admired you, so much that i wanted to be like you, I'm not going to sit and listen to you badmouthing others because you don't like them, for the sake of our relationship we need to only promote love, instead using hate as a fuel."
It's been a long time since i put out my values, i felt my speech was cheesy and people never take me seriously at those times, so i stopped for a minute now on changing people and teaching values. But now, Inna have woken that part of me again.
"... You're such good person Ruby, i wish you were— i wish we can maintain this relationship and achieve our goal."
Inna's words got me a little emotional, i felt kind of bad for the words i said.
"So am i. Inna, i give you all permission to help me fix my life."