It's Lord Nyoirin, not Yorui , my bad. Can't blame me tho , dude is an npc … a bad one at that.
Ignore this if I made corrections
Chapter title - Die For You
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*Adrian POV*
[ She is not dead yet…]
My mind which was at the depths of despair suddenly reeled back as I felt like a desperate man grasping for straws.
" W-What? " I was in disbelief as I pushed myself off the ground and rushed towards Kwanon's side as I gently laid her down on my lap.
"B-But she stabbed herself through the heart .." My voice trembled as my fingers hovered over the blade that was stuck in her chest.
I wanted to pull it out but didn't want to do anything to aggravate the situation.
[ Yes , and all her vitals are down… but she is not dead… ]
My eyes lit up as I felt hope at the system's words. I don't know who are what this System was , but it has never bullshitted me.
" S-So I can save her ? " It was preposterous to even have that notion since Kwanon was no longer breathing and her heart had long since stopped beating.
[ Yes, there is a chance… But are you willing to pay the price ?]
'Am I ? Is that even a question?'
" Yeah " I owe this to her , and I don't know what pushed her to take her life , but I was going to be a selfish asshole, because I couldn't let her go like that.
[ I have a trace of the Symbiote that tried to invade your body. Stripping that small amount from your body means losing all the enhancements you gained from it. In turn I can regenerate her body and bring her body back to life. But nothing is guaranteed. ]
"Do it!"
[ Brace yourself, it will - ]
" Just do it.." I cut it off since I didn't care about anything other than saving her.
"Ugh!" Shit … It's way worse than I thought it would be.
It's like my bones were being stripped off of my body , my skin , my muscles, veins everything being stripped slowly as I couldn't breathe due to the pain.
But I held myself together as this was necessary to save Kwanon.
She did it for me , so why can't I do it for her ?
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[ Why can't I see the woman's face ? ]
[ Not only is Noir pixelated but her too ]
[ Nat: Probably to protect privacy ]
[ Kitty: Is she close to him? He seems to be in pain over her death…]
[ Silk: Maybe ]
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*Adrian POV*
I felt weak.. weaker than before , but I didn't feel an ounce of regret.
[ Remove the blade from her chest ]
'It's over ? ' My hand trembled as I felt like it was an eternity of torture.
I gently pulled the blade out of her chest as blood poured out , making me wince at the wound on her chest.
[ Place your palm above the wound ]
I did as I was told as something akin to a viscous red droplet dripped into Kwanon's wound.
Nothing happened for a few moments making me confused , but suddenly the wound on her chest started to mend itself back up as I could almost hear her beating heart as her body started to become warm again.
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'Why isn't she waking up ?' concern crept up into my mind as Kwanon just laid on my lap like she was in a deep sleep.
[ Her body is alive , but her mind has lost the will to live ]
'Huh?'
[ She doesn't want to live , and if nothing is done about this situation then she would forever be a comatose patient]
'You wouldn't be telling me if there was no solution to this..'
[ There is a solution, a rather dangerous one. A very risky endeavour in which you would be vulnerable and leaving your safety in Kwanon's hands. ]
'Tell me what to do' I wasn't scared in the slightest, if there was even a slightest chance that I could help her , then I would take it.
[ Use your telepathy to enter her mindscape and break her shackles. I will help you get in .. but after that It's all you ]
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*Kwanon POV* ( ⚠️Dark )
Why did the maids dress me in these clothes ?
They said Lord Nyoirin had summoned me… but why this late? Did he wish to praise me for training so hard ?
I heard one of them whispering about how young I was…. Hmph! I'm a big girl now , I'll be 12 in a few days!
Lord Nyoirin has been so good to me , I hope I'll be able to repay him properly for all he has done for me...
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It hurts… It hurts so much!
I don't want this , I hate it .. I hate it so much… But why won't Lord Nyoirin stop?
Didn't he say he cared about me ?
W-Why won't he stop… Why does he have that scary grin on his face?
I want him to take it out … but I'm too scared to say anything.
I don't want him to slap me like earlier….
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I hate Lord Nyoirin… I hate him so much…. But at the same time I seek his approval.
If he cares about me then why does he love humiliating and hurting me so much ?
But despite everything, his praises made me feel good about myself as I felt that I was worthless without him…..
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Lord Nyoirin is angry at me…
I-It must be because of something I did!
I can't make him disappointed in me , I must not let Lord Nyoirin think I am worthless.
Even if it hurts , I'll do whatever he needs.
I am Lord Nyoirin's possession after all and everything I have, even my own life, I owe it to him…
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I watched a family of three being murdered today … and even when the man was begging for his wife to be let go , they never spared him a glance as they slaughtered all three of them… not before taking their time with the woman.
Her screams and cries resounded in my ears as I watched while my Lord defiled her.
I can still hear her screams… and I don't think I'll ever stop hearing them….
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Numb…. I feel so numb….
I found out that Koyuki was sent to Lord Nyoirin's chambers… and she was never seen again.
The only thing that was seen was a body covered in white cloth being carried out.
The only person I could even remotely call a friend was gone… and anyone who had a connection to me was disposed of.
The only person in this world I had a connection with was Lord Nyoirin… he wanted it that way.
And I can only cling to him , after all I don't have anything else to live for…
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He said I was beautiful and he made sure to make me believe that it was a gift he gave me.
As if my body was his to sculpt , to dress , to parade around like a trophy.I was 16 when I learned that the word 'ownership' tasted like poison.
He always had a smile on his face , it was calm and collected like a man who believed he had everything under control, like it was just at the tip of his fingers.
Whenever he smiled at me , it would always be in the same manner as if he believed he owned every part of my existence, from my soul to my body.
I leaned to smile back , not because I wanted to… no … but because it made the nights shorter and more bearable.
I don't exactly remember the nights I had with him… Not really .. because those details were blurry to me… the things I remembered were the faint sounds of rain drop pittering pattering against the roof , the rustle of tree leaves , the faint scent of incense that helped mask the stench of his cologne.
Details ...focusing on these minute details was the way I survived , the way I kept myself sane. The times I had to force myself to be of service to him , I just numb myself, and everything would be a blur.
And it worked a bit , since I didn't get hurt by thinking about it , it was akin to training for me , a chore I had to get over with.
But the long hours I would spend inside the bath scrubbing my skin until they turned red suggested otherwise.
Even if I broke myself into fragments to prevent myself from breaking down… It still hurt.
But I forced myself to believe that I was lucky , and there were others out there in far worse conditions than me.
That's what he made me believe, he made sure to instill that in me….
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Then Matsuo came along… for the first time I felt love .. and I was desperate for it.
He treated me like a woman , not an object. His tender words managed to thaw the ice enclosed around my chest as I couldn't help but let it beat for him.
Naturally we kept our relationship a secret from Lord Nyoirin… but hiding it from him was something way harder than I thought.
I didn't know how Lord Nyoirin found out but he summoned Matsuo while having me kneel beside him.
I wished to plead for Matsuo, to beg Lord Nyoirin to not kill him.
But to my relief Lord Nyoirin spared Matsuo.
He said he never planned to kill him from the beginning.
I felt gratitude towards Lord Nyoirin for his mercy , but his next words made my blood run cold….
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"Strip "
My eyes widened as I gazed at Lord Nyoirin then to Matsuo who was also looking at me with wide eyes.
I have never been physically intimate with Matsuo , because the fear of Lord Nyoirin was ingrained deep in me.
And I had confessed to Matsuo about my relationship with Lord Nyoirin but he had comforted me while claiming he loved me for who I am.
That had deeply moved me , but knowing and seeing are two things.
And right now being taken by Lord Nyoirin in front of my lover made a sense of dread fill up in me.
Shame , despair, humiliation, disgust, all kinds of negative emotions filled up inside me but gazing at Matsuo who gazed at me pleadingly… I decided to give in.
I was ready to end it all… because for the first time I had someone who genuinely cared about me.
But Matsuo's cowardice deeply disappointed me as my eyes started to sting a bit.
I removed my clothes letting them fall to the floor as I had an empty look in my eyes.
My gaze was empty , and my face was emotionless as I moved to the bed like a lifeless puppet.
Matsuo didn't raise his voice… he didn't protest , he didn't say anything.
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I lay there like a corpse as I let Lord Nyoirin claim me in front of my lover as he watched from below on the ground.
It just felt numb…
I had nothing to live for other than my loyalty to Lord Nyoirin and my love for Matsuo.
I kept at it.. hoping one day things would get better.
Maybe Lord Nyoirin would let me and Matsuo live our lives after he gets tired of me….
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For the first time I'm free …. And it feels so comfortable…. I don't want to leave this place ever…..
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*3rd Person POV*
A door opened as Adrian stepped out of it.
He had a heavy expression as he clenched his fists with both rage and sorrow.
He had never wanted to kill someone so badly , if Lord Nyoirin was in front of him right now then he would slaughter that vile piece of human garbage.
[ This is the last door. Kwanon is inside of it , and this is the personification of what she wanted her life to be. An ideal utopia for her, so bringing her out of it would be your purpose. If you cannot accomplish it then she would forever be trapped inside of it ]
Adrian stood before a white door as the rest of the doors were black in nature. He was inside Kwanon's mindscape and he had traversed through her memories via doors leading him to experience and see what she went through making him disgusted and appalled.
Adrian took a deep breath as he placed his palms on the door and pushed it open and walked into it….
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*Adrian PoV*
"Hey? You okay ? " My head throbbed as I heard a voice call out to me.
I got up from the ground as my head ached as I turned my attention to the girl who seemed to be looking at me with both curiosity and a hint of worry.
" I … where am I ? Who are you?" I asked while clutching my head as she reached over to press her palm against my forehead, making me feel a bit flustered.
" You are near Ine village , in Kyoto , and I am Kwanon Sai , you can call me Kwanon, what about you?" She beamed at me with the innocence of an Angel as I was a bit enthralled.
"I… I think my name is Adrian… I don't remember anything else " I mumbled in disappointment as I didn't remember anything else.
" Adrian?.. That's a strange name , but you look strange too… no matter, come with me back to the village , it's not safe for children like us…" She smiled brightly while holding my hand, making me feel warm.
I didn't know why , but I decided I wanted to protect that smile….
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*3rd Person*
Adrian integrated into the village along with Kwanon's help as the two children grew closer together due to their similar situations.
Both of them didn't have parents, while Kwanon didn't have parents, Adrian didn't remember his parents.
So in the end he didn't have any other connections except Kwanon making him cherish that connection.
Two of them became inseparable and were so close that the villagers had predicted that they would end up together.
And as it turns out they were right and when Kwanon and Adrian got old enough , he proposed to marry her.
And with Kwanon's tearful acceptance, the couple got married and lived a happy life together.
But not everything was sunshine and rainbows as the couple were unable to have a child despite them trying desperately for it.
But after going to Tokyo to see a doctor, it was found out that Kwanon couldn't have children and it devastated her.
Kwanon feared that Adrian would leave her since she couldn't even give him a child like a normal woman could.
She was just useless and if he stayed with her , then his lineage would end.
But Kwanon's fears were for naught as Adrian refused to leave her and showed how much he loved her, calming her insecurities as he had said that if they couldn't have children then they could just adopt a child.
He wanted to raise a child with her , not with any other woman. His sentiment made Kwanon break down in tears while her love for him grew even more.
That was the first adversity in the couple's life and despite the fear and insecurities, they overcame it together….
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*Adrian POV*
"Ugh.." I paused mid swing as I dropped my axe while pressing my palm against my face as my mind seemed to be rushing with information and visions.
"Haah…" I let out a weary sigh as I walked towards the direction of 'our' home to have a talk with my 'wife''
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"Kwanon.." I calmly called out to her as her back was turned towards me while she was busying herself in the kitchen.
" Darling! You are back early ~ " Kwanon turned towards me with excitement as she gazed at me with a warm smile , and I would be lying if I said I didn't feel anything.
But I kept my expression neutral as I gazed at her with a complicated gaze.
" You knew already didn't you ? " I asked calmly as I watched her tense before gazing at me with a confused expression on her face.
" What do you mean Dear ? I don't understand.." She was acting clueless but I knew she had already regained her memories way before me.
"Kwanon… I regained my memories, just a few moments ago…. And no matter how beautiful all of this is… It's not real… " I said with a sigh as I gazed at Kwanon who trembled while gazing at me with a shocked gaze.
"W-What do you mean?.." Kwanon's voice cracked as she gazed at me with a betrayed gaze.
"We need to leave... All of this , isn't real no matter how much you want it to be..." My chest felt suffocated as I said those words to her.
"W-Why , can't we just live like before? Weren't we happy?.... I was… to me everything was special" Kwanon's lips trembled as she gazed at me pleadingly while shakily stepping towards me as she grasped my arm softly.
"Aren't you happy?" Kwanon asked me in a hurt tone, making me grit my teeth , as I was indeed happy and our years together really did mean something to me.
I wasn't some emotionless machine that didn't feel anything.
I placed my hand softly on her cheek as I cupped her face gently while gazing at her sincerely.
" I am , I cherish our memories together…. But no matter how real they felt , the truth is that they aren't real… Kwanon we can't stay here.. we need to leave.. " I said imploringly as I wanted to bring Kwanon back and not live in this fantasy with her , because it just wasn't right.
"N-No! …. It's real! These feelings aren't fake and whatever we have here isn't fake! It's as genuine as it could be! " Kwanon slapped my hand away as she stepped back and shouted at me as she was screaming by the end as tears were flowing down her face.
My chest felt like it was being squeezed by something tight as I didn't like seeing her cry.
" Kwanon… you know deep down.. that all of this isn't real…" I said in a pained voice as I stepped towards Kwanon who took a step back while hugging herself in a vulnerable manner.
"N-No .. It's real! As long as we think it's real then it's real… we just have to forget about whatever is happening outside and live our lives here…" Kwanon said desperately as cracks had started form around her and I could feel a suffocating sensation.
This was her mindscape and In here I was powerless to do anything and that was why it was so dangerous.
Kwanon could just lobotomise me and there was nothing I could do….
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"Kwanon… please … it's just not right.." I held her hand gently as I pleaded with her as the cracks around us started to stabilize while Kwanon calmed down a bit.
" W-Why? In here I have everything I have ever wanted , but out there , I have nothing… I have nothing to live for…. *Hic* Y-You know how 'he' used me right? U-Used and treated me like an object, and thrown away when I no longer had any use…" Kwanon rested her head against my chest as she sobbed while I hugged her trembling form…..
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" L-Leave… you said this isn't real right ? Then I won't keep you here… you have family and friends to go back to anyways , and you wouldn't like to associate with someone as filthy as me…" Kwanon said with a shaky smile as a door opened beside me , and if I stepped through it then I could escape this mindscape.
My jaw tightened as I didn't like what she said one bit. I took a deep breath as I gazed at her sincerely while my cheeks heated up a bit.
" Then let's make it real.." I held her face in my palms as I gazed into her dark orbs that held confusion and fear.
"H-Huh?" She let out a confused sound as she didn't quite get what I was saying, but as a man I didn't mind spelling it out even if I internally cringed at what I was about to say.
The thing with 'her' did leave me a bit wounded… but these memories with Kwanon were more than enough to heal me if not more.
I spent more time with Kwanon than I did with 'her'… so it wasn't hard for me to make this decision…..
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" You said you had nothing to live for right? " I said seriously at least I believed I did , my cheeks did feel a bit hot… must be the climate.
Kwanon didn't say anything but I didn't need her to … not yet.
" Then why don't you live for me … And I'll live for you…Let's make this something real.. I don't want this to just be in a fantasy dream… I want to hold you in my arms in the real world.."
It's the heat , it's the heat , it's the heat… it's definitely the heat!
" I-I… Don't you know… what I've done?.. W-What he did to me? How he used me?" Kwanon's voice broke as she gazed into my eyes searching for disgust or revulsion.
" I-I can still feel his filthy touch all over me Adrian! … And the worst part is that my body has stopped belonging to me a long time ago…. So tell me …. Could you still touch something so filthy… a woman who was used , ruined and ravaged by another man… C-Can you ? " Kwanon was breaking down as she continued to gaze at me while I just calmly gazed back because none of what she said fazed me.
But I still couldn't prevent the anger from seeping through as I held her by the shoulder tightly while I nearly growled at her
" Don't you dare call yourself filthy! There is nothing about you that is filthy! " Feeling my anger Kwanon's eyes widened as she stiffened a bit but I was far from done.
I needed to get it through that thick skull of hers that she wasn't worthless, even if everyone in the world thought she was worthless , she was priceless to me.
" Now you listen to me , there is nothing you can say that would make me see you the way you do. You have scars… that's fine … I have mine too. But none of that changes the way I see you and what I see is someone worth everything… " I said affectionately as my feelings for her were real , this may be a fantasy world inside her mindscape but these memories aren't fake and the time we had together also wasn't.
Kwanon's eyes welled up with tears as she turned her gaze away from me bitterly making me frown.
" Y-You don't understand…if you touch me you will feel it… all the filth and rot he left behind.. I am dirty, Adrian .. that's the truth. You-" Kwanon said bitterly and I was getting a bit angry at her continuous denial of her worth.
How much do I have to scream out my affection for her to understand that I don't give a damn about her past or what that trash did to her.
I leaned down to press my lips against hers as she struggled for a bit before reciprocating as we had done this countless times.
Kwanon's hands snaked behind my back and neck as she clung to me while moaning out my name.
After a while we separated from each other as both of use were breathing harder as Kwanon was a bit flushed from my sudden attack.
" Listen here… I came for you .. not your past. And if the rot and filth still clings to you , then I'll just hold you tighter until they wash away… I'm not afraid of your past Kwanon… let those fuckers come… I'll fight them all …" I said in an annoyed tone as I rested my forehead against hers while she just gazed at me with a gaze filled with myriad emotions, the most prominent being doubt and disbelief.
" Y-You really want me ? " Kwanon asked in a hopeful tone as if she still couldn't believe that I had feelings for her and was willing to fight anyone who would try to take her from me.
" Yes … If it wasn't obvious enough, unless you don't want anything to do with me…" I said in a slightly sad tone as I stepped back a bit only for Kwanon to grasp my clothes tightly while nearly shouting in panic.
"N-No , I-I do… " Kwanon said in panic making me crack a smile as I stepped forward to pull her into an embrace as her body melded against me.
" Hmm? I don't understand ~ " I tilted my head cluelessly as I gazed at her playfully making Kwanon pout as her cheeks flushed while gazing at me.
" I-I'll live for you! And if you are willing then you can live for me.." Kwanon mumbled in a low tone making me chuckle as I placed a kiss on top of her head as she snuggled against me while sniffling.
I just embraced her while enjoying her warmth and softness….
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" Let's go home~…"
"Hmmm.."
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[ Kwanon Sai ]
First Waifu getto.....
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Stones to Continue the legacy please...
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Mc current powers
[ Perfect Recall / Photographic Memory ]
Adrian can remember everything he has seen or heard.
[ Very low level Empathy Detection]
Will not work every time , has a higher chance of working on individuals in a fragile state of mind and eye contact is required to trigger it.
[ Enhanced agility ]
Only at the level of a trained athlete , fast and flexible like a gymnast. It is good for agility but it is in the realms of normal humans , not even reaching super human.
[ Plant Communication ]
Can sense the health and need of plants to help them grow faster and healthier but cannot control or move them.
[ Perfect Genes ]
The perfect genes to gain a perfect physique as long as Adiran puts in the work.
[ Enhanced Hearing ]
As the name suggests it enhances Adrian's auditory senses , and the best part is that it gets stronger with him.
It's not capped like Enhanced agility
[ Lie Detection]
Can tell if someone is lying , but not what the truth is
[ Night Vision ]
Can see in the dark
[ Pain Suppression ]
Can ignore pain temporarily, but the damage still happens and it could get worse without noticing.
[ Aura Reading ]
See vague colours around people that hint at mood or intent , but can't get clear answers
[ Enhanced Smell ]
Great for tracking , but could be overwhelmed by strong odors
[ Cosmetic ]
Can change the colour of hair and eyes
[ Weapon Recall ]
Can summon a specific weapon to hand as long as it's binded to the ability, range of 100 metres.
[ Wall Crawling ]
Can stick to walls but cannot run super fast or carry heavy loads.
[ Acrobatic Combat Mastery ]
Fights like a pro with skills focusing on dodge , flips and style. But it's skill based not power based.
[ Instant Multilingualism ]
Understand and speak any language.
[ Echo tracking ]
Like a bat, use echo location to track targets , works best in stealth in the dark.
[ Energy Reflection ( limited ) ]
Can deflect energy or elemental attacks but has a Cool down period.
[ Shadow Step ]
Can move between two shadows that are within ten metres of each other. Useless in direct sunlight or well lit areas.
[ Sound Reflection]
Redirect noise elsewhere, good for stealth but not for combat.
[ Silent Takedown ]
Collection of stealthy takedowns and knockouts perfect for infiltration. ]
[ Enhanced Strength]
Maximum Natural human capability ( 227-363kg bench press )
[ Minor Telepathy ]
Very weak telepathy