The man's voice was hoarse and broken and it was like he was crying tears of blood. Lin Yuan noticed Huo Chen's abnormal mood and struggled to get out of his arms.
Because Huo Chen hugged him tightly, Lin Yuan expected that it would take a lot of effort to push him away, but as soon as he moved, the man holding him loosened his strength like he was afraid to touch him.
This scene inexplicably reminded Lin Yuan of those vines strongly attached to big trees, but when they loosened and fell down it was the start of their withering and death.
Lin Yuan panicked and held up Huo Chen's face. He saw that Huo Chen's face was pale and his eyes were bloodshot and wet. His state was similar to when he went crazy, but also not similar.
"Lin Yuan, I'll give you my life okay?"
"Can you take it?"
Lin Yuan looked at Huo Chen like this and felt like his heart was stabbed by needles. His throat was blocked by cotton and it was hard for him to breathe. Every inhale brought a sharp pain.
Lin Yuan experienced this pain for the first time. Obviously his body was fine, but it seemed like his insides were bleeding. The pain made him want to cry, but he couldn't.
"I don't want your life! I want you to live well! I want you to be healthy, happy, and live safely for a lifetime!"
After he said these words, Lin Yuan realized that he was very afraid of Huo Chen going down his established destiny. In fact, tomorrow was the day he died in the plot.
He was scared that Huo Chen, who was warm and breathing in front of him, would become a cold and dead body.
He was afraid that his strength was too little to hold onto Huo Chen.
He was afraid that the cold body would become reality.
He was terribly afraid that the corpse would be Huo Chen's.
Lin Yuan couldn't help kissing the other's eyes and those unshed tears--as if he could kiss away all of his pain and injuries.
"Huo Chen, do you remember? Our marriage still has 4170 years left."
"I don't want your life. I hope that your life will only belong to you." Don't let it belong to the mother who tried to kill him for the past 20 years, nor the father who regarded him as a chess piece, nor him. Only let it belong to Huo Chen himself.
"Huo Chen, if you die, I will also die. Only when you live, can I live."
"Huo Chen... I want to save you..."
Lin Yuan's heart squeezed, but he didn't understand what this pain meant, and could only kiss Huo Chen with all his strength.
"I really want to save you..." Not for the task, not for himself, just for Huo Chen. Just so Huo Chen could live on.
Huo Chen was content. He felt really satisfied. It was the first time he heard someone say they wanted to save him. He was always waiting for someone to save him, but he waited and waited and everyone around him turned a blind eye.
He almost couldn't wait any longer. Fortunately, he waited long enough.
It turned out that outside of that room, a sun existed. It was warm, and it would pull him forward and hug and kiss him.
Huo Chen finally felt that being alive wasn't bad.
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The company didn't have any other matters today, so seeing that Huo Chen was in a bad mood, Lin Yuan took him home.
On the soft bed, Huo Chen hugged Lin Yuan tightly, but no matter how much strength he used, he still felt that it wasn't enough. He wanted to completely merge with Lin Yuan's flesh and bone so they could never be separated.
Lin Yuan wanted to find something for Huo Chen to do in order to distract him. Remembering that Huo Chen asked to roll in the sheets with him back in the company, Lin Yuan struggled and raised his head out of Huo Chen's arms and showed a big smile: "Huo Chen~ I want to roll in the sheets with you~"
"Since you're not working today, let's roll in the sheets ah~"
Huo Chen's eyes were still slightly wet but his heart was peaceful. Hearing Lin Yuan's coquettish tone, Huo Chen turned over and pressed Lin Yuan under him. He said with red ears: "I... didn't prepare anything. We shouldn't do it."
Lin Yuan blinked in confusion and asked curiously: "What do you need to prepare? Do we not have it at home? Then let's go to the supermarket and buy it since it's still early. After we buy it we can come back and roll in the sheets."
Huo Chen wasn't surprised by Lin Yuan's forwardness. Thinking of the stuff he'd looked up before, he rubbed his own burning ears awkwardly: "...Ok, then let's go buy it now."
At the store, Lin Yuan still didn't know what they were buying. When he saw the packaging, he studied the box carefully. He saw that it said strawberry flavor and couldn't help sniffing it curiously.
Huo Chen: "..."
CEO Huo quickly pressed down his wife's hand.
Lin Yuan didn't smell any strawberry flavor, but before he could sniff again, his hand was pressed down and he couldn't smell it anymore.
"You go buy your things, don't worry about me. I'll just randomly take a look." Lin Yuan said and brought the box to his nose again, wanting to smell strawberries.
CEO Huo could only press down his wife's hand again and looked left and right. Seeing that no one was around them to see Lin Yuan's movements, he was relieved and whispered: "Sui Sui, what are you doing?"
Lin Yuan raised the box and pointed to the strawberry label on it and said seriously: "This thing is broken, I don't smell strawberries!"
As he spoke he realized that there was a transparent plastic packaging outside of the box and scratched his head in embarrassment: "Just now I didn't notice that there was packaging around the box, no wonder I couldn't smell anything."
Lin Yuan's curiosity about the strawberry flavor was still piqued and he looked at Huo Chen's eyes with shining eyes: "Husband, husband, let's buy this strawberry flavor okay? When we're at home, I'll open the box and see if it smells like strawberries."
Huo Chen took the box in his hand and looked at the size, put it back, and took out a larger one.
Lin Yuan didn't know why he changed it, anyways, as long as it was still strawberry flavored.
The two of them looked around for almost 20 minutes. After paying the bill, they returned to the car. Lin Yuan looked at what they bought in surprise and felt as if he'd been introduced to a new world: "Husband, do we need all of these things when we roll in the sheets? Why does it cost so much money to roll in the sheets?"
How did he remember that when his hosts rolled in the sheets, they didn't spend this much?
But maybe he didn't notice back then, after all, he was a well-behaved system that only appeared when his host called him. In this way, when the two got back to the villa, it was already time for dinner. Under Huo Chen's order, porridge and light dishes were made tonight.
Lin Yuan wasn't picky about food and happily drank two bowls of porridge.
After eating, Lin Yuan went back to his room to shower, and once he finished washing, he ran over to Huo Chen's room. Huo Chen had already finished showering and was wearing black pajamas. His whole body was pale like snow, and he was like an exquisite jade statue.
The man's dark and narrow eyes quietly stared at the young man, and his eyes gradually turned a little scarlet, and his desire surged up like a tide.
"Sui Sui, come here..."
Lin Yuan's time as a human being was too short so he didn't have time to learn many complicated things. His attention always revolved around Huo Chen.
At night, Huo Chen taught him an extremely simple yet complicated thing. It was simple enough it could be done relying on instinct, but it was so complicated that Lin Yuan's whole body was painfully explored, then melted into a puddle, and was completely controlled by Huo Chen.
[Di! Congrats host, the villain's blackening value has decreased to 25%.]
In the early morning, the first ray of light shone into the room. Lin Yuan dazedly wrapped his arms around Huo Chen's neck and rubbed against it twice before falling into a deep sleep.
Huo Chen had never felt so energetic. Even after he stayed up all night, he was in a good mood and his body was not tired or sleepy.
Looking down at the young man in his embrace, Huo Chen's gaze fell on Lin Yuan's shoulders that were covered in marks. Because Lin Yuan's skin was pale, the traces of his kisses and bites were very jarring, and there were even more traces under the quilt.
Huo Chen felt as if he'd really eaten Lin Yuan, and Lin Yuan finally completely belonged to him.
In fact, last night, because Huo Chen was nervous that it was Lin Yuan's first time, he didn't do it hard. Huo Chen couldn't help getting addicted to this kind of gentle entanglement.
Lin Yuan slept until 3 o'clock in the afternoon. When he woke up, he subconsciously looked to his side.
Huo Chen was sitting up on the bed with a laptop on his knee and typing on the keyboard to do work.
Lin Yuan's consciousness slowly returned and pictures of last night flashed through his mind. His face instantly flushed red and his ears were hot and he drilled into the quilt like a snail.
So rolling in the sheets was like this!
Huo Chen had kissed him everywhere for a long time, and even bit him, but it didn't hurt.
But then there was a bit of time where it really hurt, then after it became very pleasurable.
No wonder his hosts loved to roll in the sheets! He liked it too!
Lin Yuan smiled secretly under the covers, but then the blanket was thrown off and two hands hugged him tightly. The man's cold body came over.
"Sui Sui, why did you hide in the quilt when you woke up?"
Huo Chen bit his ear and gently licked it: "Are you shy?"
Lin Yuan wrapped his arms around the man's neck and happily rubbed against him and said: "I'm not shy, I'm thinking of last night. Huo Chen, it's really comfortable to roll in the sheets, can we do it again tonight?"Huo Chen thought of the addicting taste last night and his heart and hands itched. He remembered how he held Lin Yuan's thin and pale waist for a long time, and now there were blue and purple fingermarks.
Just the recollection of that scene made Huo Chen a little thirsty. He knew that his desire was not only instinctive, but came from his body, blood, and soul that were all clamoring for Lin Yuan.
"Probably...not." Huo Chen's voice was hoarse and deep and very pleasant to the ears: "...After the first time, you have to rest for a few days."
Lin Yuan blinked incomprehensibly and wondered: "Why do I need to rest? We're not rolling in the sheets during the day, isn't that resting?"
Huo Chen's hand that was on Lin Yuan's waist touched somewhere lower and his Adam's apple bobbed up and down. "Here... needs to rest."
Lin Yuan felt a little uncomfortable and couldn't help moaning lightly. He belatedly realized what Huo Chen was doing and probably because the quilt was stuffy, Lin Yuan felt that his face was very hot and red.
He twisted his body shyly and whispered: "...It's daytime now, you... you take your fingers out..."
Huo Chen deliberately moved a little before slowly pulling out his fingers.
Lin Yuan blushed even harder, but he still wanted to be intimate with Huo Chen like last night. He said softly and clingy: "Can't we do it again? You just do it gently."
Huo Chen didn't expect that his little partner would be so active about this matter and bowed down to kiss his slender neck and bit it before saying slowly: "No. Even if I'm gentle, Sui Sui will still feel pain. Wait until it doesn't hurt anymore, then we'll do it."
Lin Yuan felt that it didn't hurt much, but knowing that Huo Chen was doing it for his own good, he nodded obediently: "Ok."
Then, he said with some anticipation: "Then when it doesn't hurt anymore, can we do it three times a night? Can we, husband?"
Huo Chen stroked Lin Yuan's fluffy hair and said gently: "Ok, three times."
For the rest of the day, Lin Yuan became very confused because Huo Chen was treating him too well. He helped him dress, helped him wash his face, and even fed him porridge. He wiped his mouth, hugged him to accompany him to play games, and chatted with him.
Lin Yuan felt that he had become Huo Chen's cherished treasure, and his whole heart softened like it was wrapped in sweet, warm honey.
At night, Lin Yuan lay in Huo Chen's arms and looked up. The first thing he saw was the man's neck, and his prominent Adam's apple. It looked tempting when he swallowed, making people want to bite and lick.
Next was the man's sharp chin, red lips, tall nose, and finally the man's dark but extremely beautiful eyes.
He stared for a while, and couldn't help calling out: "Huo Chen~"
Huo Chen was thinking about something, but when he heard the young man's soft voice, he looked down: "Hm? What's the matter, Sui Sui?"
They made eye contact, and Lin Yuan's heart pounded uncontrollably and his temperature rose and seemed to burn him into a trance. For some reason he didn't dare look at Huo Chen anymore. He hurriedly lowered his hand and picked at the buttons of Huo Chen's pajamas.
"Well, today... You were really nice to me. You helped me dress and fed me porridge. You weren't like this before."
Huo Chen pressed Lin Yuan under him with a soft smile and clasped their hands together.
"Does Sui Sui think that I didn't treat you nicely before and want to settle accounts with me now?"
Huo Chen's slender fingers fell on Lin Yuan's ruddy swollen lips and rubbed it a few times. He asked meaningfully: "Then, Mr. Lin Yuan, how do you want to settle accounts with your husband?"
Lin Yuan's heart was still beating wildly. He looked at the handsome face and whispered: "I don't want to settle accounts with you. You were good to me before, but today was better."
Huo Chen observed Lin Yuan's well-behaved and soft appearance and leaned down to kiss him and said: "From now on I'll be this good to you. No, actually even better than today."
Lin Yuan heard this and found it hard to believe: "Better than today?"
What kind of treatment would that be?
"En, better than today." Huo Chen promised.
Lin Yuan smiled happily and kissed Huo Chen: "Then I'll also treat you better."
Huo Chen didn't say anything, but just looked at Lin Yuan, his reflection shining in his eyes.
This was his partner.
And the one treasure that belonged to him.
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Lin Yuan was in good health, and in a couple of days, he was hopping over to Huo's building to deliver food to Huo Chen.
Him and Huo Chen became even more intimate, often just one kiss wasn't enough. While Huo Chen was working, they couldn't help looking at each other. When Huo Chen smiled at him, he was happy enough to laugh out loud.
After finishing lunch, Huo Chen brought Lin Yuan out of the company.
The car stopped in front of a building that Lin Yuan had never seen before. He asked: "Husband, where is this?"
Huo Chen's face was paler than usual, making his lips redder in comparison. He reached out to hug Lin Yuan and his eyes unconsciously closed. He took a deep breath, and said in a low voice: "This is the psychological consulting place that I used to go to. I haven't been here for a few years now, but now, I want to come. I think I should come here."
At this time, Huo Chen was sitting in the driver's seat and Lin Yuan was in the passenger seat. Their hugging posture was uncomfortable, but Huo Chen and Lin Yuan hugged tightly.
Lin Yuan voiced softly: "Huo Chen, if you don't want to go, then don't go. I think you're much better, and we can take our time. We have a lot, a lot of time."
Huo Chen shook his head with difficulty, like a rusty machine: "No, I need to get better. I... want to be with you like a normal person. Lin Yuan, when I hear that woman... I want to treat her like a stranger. I really, really want to..."
Lin Yuan felt Huo Chen's slight trembling and immediately kissed his cheek to comfort him. His hands didn't stop patting the man's thin back: "You can definitely get better. Huo Chen, I believe in you. We'll be together forever..."
When Huo Chen entered the reception room, Lin Yuan also accompanied him. The doctor seeing them was the one who had been in charge of him before. He was a middle-aged man in his forties, elegant and easy-going.
The doctor asked Huo Chen some questions, and after learning his situation, he looked at the young man beside him in disbelief.
"Mr. Huo, according to your statements, the sleep medicine has no effect on you, but even without taking the medicine, you can still sleep for about three hours every day, which suggests that your condition is improving..."
Huo Chen made a sound of acknowledgement and turned to look at Lin Yuan and said: "Sui Sui, go out and wait for me first. I have something to say to the doctor."
Lin Yuan nodded obediently: "Ok, then I'm going out. You hurry up ah."
He stood up and politely waved to the doctor and said goodbye.
The doctor looked at his warm and bright smile and his lips curved: "So Mr. Huo decided to come back here because of that gentleman right? I remember you were unwilling to come before."
When Huo Chen thought of Lin Yuan, his heart involuntarily softened: "Yes, I came here for him. Actually, I don't care what I do to myself, in any case, I've always lived like this."
"But I have him now. I can't let myself pose any danger to my lover. Furthermore, my poor mental state is detrimental to my health, and I want to grow old with him like other husbands do. So I need to recover."
When the doctor heard this, his relaxed look turned solemn.
The doctor said: "Mr. Huo, your thoughts are still dangerous. While I'm glad you've found motivation to live, it is too dangerous to attach everything to one person. If something happens to that gentleman, it will be a fatal blow to you. At that time, you will probably...."
"I'll probably lose the will to live and kill myself right?" Huo Chen continued the doctor's sentence. After saying these words, he had felt an indescribable pleasure rise from the bottom of his heart.
Having life and death depend on one another, he liked this ending.
The doctor guessed early on that Huo Chen would go crazy sooner or later. He refused treatment and his thoughts were extremely paranoid. He didn't carry a trace of hope for the future and couldn't find any motivation to live. He lived like a machine whose button was turned on. Today, the doctor felt that he was soberly crazy.
However, there was no other solution to Huo Chen's mental state.
A patient that was at the end of the road caught his only life-saving straw. It wasn't surprising that he would be so desperate.
The doctor talked to him for a while, and Huo Chen listened carefully. He gradually came up with some ideas in his heart.
Leaving the consultation room, Huo Chen drove Lin Yuan to the mall. Lin Yuan thought they were going to shop and looked forward to it, but Huo Chen took him to a store for women's clothing.
Lin Yuan was puzzled: "Huo Chen, this place sells women's clothes. Are you buying clothes to give to others?"
Huo Chen shook his head: "No." He looked up at the name of the store. The three words were white and shining, but he felt he could smell something bloody and decaying.
Huo Chen only glanced for a moment, and then looked down at Lin Yuan with his eyes full of tenderness: "Sui Sui, I want to cure my illness. So we should start with the easiest method. She liked this brand of nightdresses the most. In my memories, she always wore a red nightdress."
"If I want to get better, I need to face her."
He must make himself healthy.