Lin Yuan didn't know what was said during the conversation between the doctor and Huo Chen, let alone know that the doctor defined Huo Chen's current behavior with two words-- self-destructive.
Hearing Huo Chen assert that he wanted to cure himself, Lin Yuan hurriedly nodded and said with bright eyes: "Ok, I'll help you. What do I need to do?"
Huo Chen lovingly squeezed Lin Yuan's cheek and said in a gentle, low voice: "Sui Sui just needs to hold my hand."
Lin Yuan immediately tightly held Huo Chen's hand, and even swayed it around a few times. He said with a smile: "I'm holding you tightly. Don't be afraid, I won't let go."
He will obediently hold Huo Chen!
Huo Chen smiled and said: "En, thank you , Sui Sui, for holding me."
Huo Chen's smile made Lin Yuan blush and his heart pounded again. He secretly touched his chest, and felt relieved that his heart hadn't jumped out.
The clerk didn't expect a male couple to enter the store. The tall man was extremely handsome and eye-catching. The shorter one was also handsome and sunny, with curly hair that looked fluffy.
The clerk hesitated for a moment before walking by: "Sirs, what clothes are you looking for?"
Lin Yuan politely smiled and said: "Hello, we're looking for a red nightdress."
The clerk couldn't help but think crooked thoughts. He looked at Lin Yuan's pure and innocent face and thought: Letting such a cute boy wear a red nightdress. Damn, a little exciting.
"Sleep wear are all over here." The clerk took the two people over and picked up a red nightdress from the rack.
When Huo Chen saw the familiar color and similar dress, his breathing stagnated and a chill spread all throughout his body. But it wasn't as bone-chilling as usual.
He understood that he wasn't in a closed room but in an ordinary clothing store. It seemed a little clustered with all of the clothes, but there was no oppressive suffocation in the air.
He knew that it was safe here.
That dress was also safe.
Lin Yuan originally wanted to ask for Huo Chen's opinion, but when the clerk picked up the dress, he felt Huo Chen clenching his hand and Lin Yuan knew that it was correct.
He reached out to touch Huo Chen's face and let the other look at himself: "Huo Chen."
Huo Chen's line of sight was forcibly taken away from the dress and fell on Lin Yuan's clean face and warm eyes.
Lin Yuan smiled at him and said: "Look at me. Don't look away, otherwise, I'll be angry."
Huo Chen knew that Lin Yuan was helping him, saving him, and nodded with a rare meekness, like the beast had put away his claws and fangs and tamely rubbed against Lin Yuan's hand: "Ok, I'll look at you and won't make you angry."
Lin Yuan hummed with satisfaction, and looked at the clerk: "Please help us pack this one."
The clerk who was forced to eat a mouthful of dog food and wanted more: "...Ok. I'll pack it up right now."
Naturally, it was Lin Yuan who took the clothes. He held Huo Chen's hand and changed the topic with a smile: "Husband, husband, let's go shopping. I suddenly realized that we've never gone on a date."
Huo Chen's eyes were intentionally avoiding looking at the red color, and didn't hear Lin Yuan's words clearly. But the word 'date' jerked Huo Chen awake from his nightmare.
He was too deeply trapped by that woman.
He shouldn't be like this, he must become a normal person.
Huo Chen made a sound of agreement and said as calmly as possible: "Ok, let's go on a date."
The first floor of the mall sold gold and silver jewelry, the second and third sold clothing, the fourth was a food court, and the fifth was a movie theater. When they started to shop, Huo Chen realized that he and Lin Yuan seemed to have missed out on a lot of things that ordinary couples would do.
In a ring store on the first floor, Huo Chen carefully selected a pair of rings. It was a simple style of platinum metal for them to temporarily wear for a few days. Once he got back, he would find a designer to design a pair of unique wedding rings and put it on Lin Yuan.
Lin Yuan liked the ring a lot and couldn't help looking at his ring finger and then at Huo Chen's ring finger. The smile on his face couldn't disappear and the cute dimple seemed to be filled with sweetness.
When buying clothes, Lin Yuan seemed to have unlocked something inside of him and endlessly asked Huo Chen to try on clothes. He thought that Huo Chen was too good-looking, and his appearance of wearing new clothes made him want to kiss him.
When Huo Chen went into the fitting room to change clothes, Lin Yuan looked around with a guilty heart. Seeing that no clerks were around, he immediately walked to the door of the fitting room and wanted to open it. But he found that Huo Chen had locked the door from the inside.
Lin Yuan hummed and paced around impatiently. The moment the door opened a little bit, he instantly pushed it open and squeezed in.
Huo Chen had changed into a new set of clothes that Lin Yuan chose. Although the style of the shirt was more casual than what he usually wore, he looked very fashionable wearing a few pieces of silver necklaces that Lin Yuan had picked out.
Lin Yuan felt as if he'd been bewitched when he saw Huo Chen. He felt a little light headed and pounced on him: "Huo Chen~ Kiss me, I want kisses~"
He tilted his head and kissed. Huo Chen smiled and immediately lowered his head and met the warm and soft lips of the other party. He hooked the other's tongue and gently stirred it.
Lin Yuan's eyes were distracted as he kissed. He felt that Huo Chen's kissing skills were getting better and better, unlike him, who sometimes couldn't even respond properly.
The two kissed for several minutes. Huo Chen estimated that if he didn't go out soon, the clerk would come over and ask if something had happened. He breathed heavily and let Lin Yuan go, but he still rubbed against the other's lips, feeling their softness.
In his daze, Lin Yuan had pinched Huo Chen's shirt into many creases. After realizing it, he asked nervously: "I... Did I ruin their clothes? Do we need to compensate for it?"
Huo Chen took a look and said: "Just buy it. Don't you like me in this, little pervert?"
Lin Yuan was called this for the first time and retorted: "I'm not a little pervert!"
Such a serious look on his partner was really cute and tempting. Huo Chen lowered his head and pecked his ear and said: "Even if Sui Sui is a little pervert, he's the most handsome one."
Lin Yuan hesitated. He was happy that his husband said he was the most handsome, but being called a little pervert wasn't good. It was really hard to decide, was he the most handsome little pervert?
While he was in a dilemma, Huo Chen had gone to the cashier to buy the clothes. He didn't care what he wore, but his little partner liked it.
When they came to the food court, Lin Yuan had already cultivated a habit of taking care of Huo Chen's meals, even if they were not at home.
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After returning to the villa, the bag with the nightdress in it was put on the coffee table in Huo Chen's room.
For Huo Chen, a dress from the same brand was enough to enlarge the shadow of the dead woman to a horrible extent. He had nightmares for several consecutive days.
In the nightmare, the red nightdress crawled out of the bag, first the sleeves, followed by the collar, the torso, and then the skirt.
Then white bones began to grow inside it from top to bottom, like a skeleton rack. Followed by the growth of red flesh and blood, and finally, it became an pallid and beautiful woman.
She stood in front of the sofa all of the time, never getting closer, only staring with those eyes that were five points similar to Huo Chen's.
Huo Chen couldn't feel a trace of warmth or brightness. He only felt a deep chill, constantly probing into his flesh.
Lin Yuan could feel that Huo Chen's spirit was bad these days, and he knew the cause was the dress.
He didn't know what to do. He seriously thought for half a day, and after taking a shower at night, he pushed Huo Chen down onto the bed and began to take off his clothes.
Huo Chen immediately grabbed his hand and there was a sliver of confusion and panic in his narrow, dark eyes: "Sui Sui! What are you doing?"
Lin Yuan hummed and pestered him: "I'm going to roll in the sheets~ If you don't roll with me three times tonight, I will… I will not call you husband anymore, and not let you kiss me."
They didn't do it these past few days because Huo Chen had an obstacle in his heart. Hearing Lin Yuan's words, he first smiled and expressed his doubts: "Can you hold back on kissing me though, Mr. Lin?"
Mr. Lin… Mr. Lin felt that he probably couldn't resist, but he had to hold back and said: "I... will definitely hold back! I will keep my word. Three times~"
Huo Chen was still a little reluctant, but finally gave up under Lin Yuan's persistence.
This was probably the most uncomfortable time they did it because Huo Chen couldn't concentrate. Although he still did Lin Yuan gently, he felt that whenever their bodies touched, the shadow still existed.
The second time, Huo Chen's state stabilized a lot. Lin Yuan held onto his shoulders and cried faintly because of the unbearable feeling. His slender fingers slowly shuttled between the man's hair, over and over again.
"Huo... Huo Chen..."
"There are only Lin Yuan and Huo Chen in this room, there's no third person..."
"It's just us. Huo Chen, take a good look, this is our room..."
Under Lin Yuan's guidance, Huo Chen looked behind him. There was indeed no one there. There was no trace of the woman from his nightmare.
That woman created a prison of love and death from her deception and lies that confined a child with nightmares for the first half of his life.
But here was his and Lin Yuan's room, and there was only them.
Huo Chen hugged Lin Yuan and changed their position without stopping his movements. The vividness of his body and the shadow of death surrounded him on opposite sides. His eyes pulled away from the gloom of the nightmare and finally fell on the face of the young man who had lost his mind from pleasure.
For the first time, Huo Chen was clear about being alive.
He wanted to live.
He wanted to live with Lin Yuan and grow old together.
Lin Yuan originally just wanted to comfort Huo Chen with himself and hugs and kisses. He hoped that Huo Chen could focus his attention on himself instead of thinking of those other things.
On the first night, he felt he was okay and could hold on. The second night, he felt like it was harder and had to persevere.
The third night...
Lin Yuan knelt on the bed and the man behind him gripped his waist and plundered and invaded his body and consciousness like a beast.
"Sui Sui..."
"Sui Sui..."
The sound of morbid infatuation.
No matter how simple-minded Lin Yuan was, he finally reacted and cried out softly: "Huo… Huo Chen, are you not scared anymore?"
Huo Chen kissed his back, which was already littered with traces, and sucked a deeper mark on it. "No, I'm still scared. Sui Sui has to comfort me. Three times, you said so yourself, otherwise I can't kiss you for a week."Lin Yuan was shocked and didn't expect his words to be twisted like this. He angrily bit Huo Chen's shoulder, and the smell of blood quickly spread between his teeth and lips.
Huo Chen felt a tingling pain from his shoulder, and an indescribably excitement boiled his heart. The hungry beast in his heart shuddered under the simulation of blood and he felt extremely satisfied and happy.
This was the pain that Lin Yuan gave him! The scar that Lin Yuan gave him!
It's really good...
Huo Chen couldn't restrain his emotions and his movements became even more intense. His greed was difficult to fulfill, he wanted their bones and blood to blend with each other and wanted their souls to merge. Huo Chen wanted every inch of himself to be deeply embedded with Lin Yuan.
Lin Yuan didn't expect Huo Chen to suddenly speed up and go harder. Originally, he was biting the other to vent his anger, but now he was biting to help himself endure. In the end, he didn't even have the strength to bite anymore.
On the bed, Lin Yuan lay down and covered his eyes with the back of his hand and gasped heavily. The aftertaste still lingered in his body. When Huo Chen touched him, he couldn't help trembling.
Huo Chen turned his head to look at the teeth marks on his shoulder. Small beads of blood flowed out, and they looked eye-catching on the pale skin. He stared for a moment and closed his eyes in great satisfaction.
Huo Chen moved Lin Yuan's hands away and leaned and rubbed against the young man's forehead. His voice was particularly low and hoarse: "Sui Sui, my shoulder hurts, you bit too hard... It hurts..."
The pretending tone is obviously fake, but it was enough to trick Lin Yuan.
Lin Yuan immediately looked at the place his just bit and saw a circle of bright red indentations. It looked serious. He rushed over and blew on it with soft breaths. In a soft and well-behaved voice, he asked: "Does it hurt a lot?"
Huo Chen was just addicted to the pain brought by Lin Yuan, but now he was attached to Lin Yuan's care. He showed weakness naturally and said: "It hurts a lot. But I'm not angry when Sui Sui bites me, I like it when you touch me. Even if it hurts, I like it."
Lin Yuan had never heard sweet words like this and he completely tossed the matter of him being angry and Huo Chen tossing him so much out of his mind. Now, he carefully blew on Huo Chen's wound.
Huo Chen felt that this wasn't enough and approached the young man's ear to whisper: "Sui Sui, there's blood. Help me lick it clean..."
Lin Yuan hesitated for a moment, but thinking of Huo Chen in pain, he agreed obediently.
Huo Chen sat up and let Lin Yuan sit in his lap to make it more convenient for him to lick.
Lin Yuan thought of how Huo Chen was also holding himself like this when they were doing it and he blushed. He hadn't been able to support himself in the end, so Huo Chen had no choice but to let him lie down. He didn't expect to be in this position again.
Lin Yuan forced himself to forget that scene and lowered his head toward the teeth marks he gnawed on the man's shoulder. He slowly licked and sucked the blood from it.
Huo Chen could feel the warm and soft tongue of the other party move back and forth on his wound, bringing subtle pain. He was enthralled by the pain bought by Lin Yuan and slowly moved his hand down Lin Yuan's back.
When Lin Yuan felt his hand, he was stunned and looked up at Huo Chen sluggishly: "You..."
There was no gap between their bodies and Huo Chen directly kissed Lin Yuan's red lips and suppressed his excitement: "We still need to do it one more time. I can't go back on my word, and I can't hold back from kissing Sui Sui for a week. It's the same for Sui Sui right? I really like to kiss you."
Lin Yuan's breath stagnated and he shyly blinked his eyes, and nodded seriously: "I also really, really like kissing you. But… But you can't do it like you just did, you have to be more gentle and slow."
Huo Chen agreed to his request with a smile, and then Lin Yuan suffered for a long, long time.
Lin Yuan's crying eyes almost couldn't open anymore. He begged Huo Chen to hurry up, but CEO Huo's promise weighed a thousand gold: "I'm listening to Sui Sui. Gentler and slower."
Lin Yuan: "..."
Wuuu~ ok, he did say that.
When it finally ended, Lin Yuan was so tired he was about to fall asleep. In a daze, he seemed to hear the man's low and worried voice.
"What should I do if it disappears?"
Lin Yuan wanted to open his eyes but he was so tired that he could only use the last of his strength to ask: "What…disappears..."
"The mark from Sui Sui."
However, Lin Yuan had already fallen asleep and didn't hear this.
The next night, Lin Yuan wanted to take advantage of when Huo Chen was showering to put away the dress, but he was also worried that Huo Chen's illness would relapse so he decided to wait and see for two more days.
Before sleeping, Huo Chen didn't do anything much, but tasted Lin Yuan from head to toe. Lin Yuan had worked too hard for three days and finally had a good night of sleep and fell asleep quickly.
Huo Chen hugged him. Although he still wasn't sleepy, his mood returned to its past peacefulness and tranquility. Late into the night, sleepiness finally hit. Before closing his eyes, he looked towards somewhere in the room, but there was still nothing there.
That night, Huo Chen didn't have any dreams and woke up at 6 o'clock. He slept at around midnight, so he slept for almost six hours. t/n midnight is late? o.O
The breath of the young man in his arms was warm and clean as usual, like the morning sun or like water from a spring, tightly entangling and hugging him.
Huo Chen lightly smiled and hugged the person in his embrace.
Dawn was breaking, and winter was about to end. The time was just right.
[Di! Congrats host, the villain's blackening value has decreased to 20%.]
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After Huo Chen's blackening value dropped to 20%, it didn't move for a long time. Lin Yuan couldn't figure out why, and 521 was even more clueless.
However, Lin Yuan was very happy every day. He lived as the man's cherished lover and he was so happy every moment he could blow bubbles.
In a blink of an eye, it was the end of the year. Huo Chen became busier and stayed in the company until late in the evening every day. As usual, Lin Yuan brought him food at noon and came back home with him every evening.
That Sunday, the company's affairs finally came to an end. Huo Chen took some time to go to the psychological counseling office. It had been a month since he went.
Huo Chen was very clear about his own mental condition, so he didn't take Lin Yuan with him this time.
After the doctor understood his situation during that month, he smiled and said: "Mr. Huo has recovered well. You can go out more and keep up the good mood. As for the treatment plan we discussed before, I think it's better to take your time and do it step by step."
Huo Chen sat on the sofa with his right hand supporting his cheek and his slender legs overlapped one another. Originally his eyes were half-closed and thick eyelashes stretched downwards. Hearing the doctor's words, he looked up at the doctor and his dark, long eyelashes fluttered like butterfly wings.
"Take my time?" Huo Chen sneered and said sarcastically: "Someone won't let me take my time."
The doctor didn't know who Huo Chen was talking about, but he had always been trying to dissuade Huo Chen's actions, who was like a moth flying into the fire.
But to Huo Chen, he refused to stand by his lover as a broken and incomplete man. He needed to be whole again, even if he needed to stick pieces of himself together in the most crude and rough way.
Leaving the counseling building, Huo Chen didn't drive back to the villa but went to Huo's house instead. The elderly housekeeper greeted him at the door: "Why did the second master suddenly come back?"
Huo Chen didn't explain anything and went up to the third floor directly.
He stood in front of the stairs of the third floor. There was a window at the end of the long corridor, and the sun was shining brightly in the middle of winter through the glass, lighting up the ground with warm colors. But the corridor was like a prison that trapped the light that was originally free.
Huo Chen stood there for a long time before he took a deep breath and forced himself to walk forward.
Stopping at the door, Huo Chen shut his eyes, held the handle that felt colder than ice, and turned it with all of his strength.
The room hadn't been opened for many many years. The rusty door made a harsh sound, like a needle that pricked Huo Chen's ear drums and drew blood.
More than 20 years ago, Huo Chen tried to escape from here for countless days and nights.
In the past 20 years, day by day, Huo Chen was killed in his nightmares. He was pressed into the quagmire of blood and pain. He fell into the deepest part of the abyss. He fell into hell on earth.
Now, he took the initiative to walk back into that hell that trapped him for over 20 years.
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When Huo Huai An received a call from the elderly housekeeper, his handsome face almost distorted fiercely because of his excitement.
A few years ago, in order to stimulate Huo Chen, Huo Huai An asked someone to turn Huo Chen's room in the Huo's house into the same room as the one on the third floor. And indeed, Huo Chen turned into a crazy beast, so crazy he was almost not human anymore.
Now Huo Chen went to that room again, and Huo Huai An believed that Huo Chen might become completely crazy. Of course, even if he could still maintain a trace of humanity, Huo Huai An would add more oil to the first and completely burn his sanity.
Huo Huai An rushed back to the Huo house first and arranged his plan. Then he sent someone to Huo Chen's villa to inform Lin Yuan.
Sitting in the living room, Huo Huai An found a horror movie with very high ratings. Although for the past few months, he had tried his best to get closer to Lin Yuan, Lin Yuan avoided him perfectly. Lin Yuan never went out in the morning, only went to deliver food to Huo Chen, and then stayed in Huo Chen's office and didn't come out at all.
Even when Huo Chen went out to business dinners, he had people send Lin Yuan back directly. Huo Huai An couldn't do anything.
But now that Huo Chen was going crazy, he didn't need to do what he did for Lin Yan, he only needed a small spark.
Lin Yuan was very timid, as long as he jumped into Huo Huai An's arms when he saw the horror movie, he could take the opportunity to do something to him and the camera would capture everything.
Since Huo Chen didn't like Lin Yan, Lin Yan didn't have any value here.
But what about Lin Yuan? He heard that they were very loving now.
While waiting, Huo Huai An thought about how Huo Chen was about to go crazy and he was so excited he almost hardened. t/n ermm i think he's the crazy one
At this time, the elderly housekeeper led in a handsome young man.
Lin Yuan had come.