Chapter 91 Amanda's POV
I'm so worried about Onyi. Every day, he seems to be slipping further into whatever darkness is pulling him. I see it in his eyes – those black eyes that used to hold so much warmth and now seem to gaze into someplace far away and shadowy. Sometimes I catch him talking to himself, whispering words I can't make out. It's like he's struggling with something inside him, something he can't or won't talk about.
I try to be there for him, to help him through whatever is happening. "Onyi, what's going on with you?" I ask him, trying to keep my voice steady and full of concern. But he just looks at me, his eyes intense like they're burning with a mix of emotions I can't quite read. For a moment, I think he's going to tell me something important, something that'll help me understand what's happening to him. But then he shakes his head, his expression going vague. "I... don't know. I hear things. Feel things. It's like the darkness is... pulling me," he says, and then he's silent again.
It's like he's trapped in his own world, and I'm trying to find a way to reach him. I see the struggle in him, the way his black eyes seem to hold a darkness that's affecting him deeply. I want to help him, to be there for him through this transformation. But Onyi's reluctance to talk about what's happening to him makes it hard for me to know how to help. I feel like I'm standing on the edge of something, watching him walk further into shadows I can't follow.
I've talked to my parents about Onyi's state, but they're more concerned with stopping Aurora from bringing back Xerxes. I know it's a big threat to the kingdom and the world – Aria and Lena, the witches, have warned my father about the dangers of Xerxes' return. But for me, Onyi's struggle is just as real, just as scary. I don't know what's going to happen to him, or to us, if he keeps slipping into this darkness.
Sometimes I wonder if Onyi's connection to me has anything to do with what's happening to him. We were close, closer than I ever was with anyone else. Did that connection make him more vulnerable to whatever darkness is pulling him? I don't know. But I do know I want to help him. I want to be there for him, no matter what.
As I watch Onyi struggle, I feel a mix of fear and determination. Fear for what might happen to him, to us, if the darkness consumes him. Determination to help him, to find a way to reach him through whatever is happening. I don't know what the future holds for Onyi or for us, but I know I'll be here for him as long as he needs me.