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Curse my over reactions, I didn't like admitting it, but being coodled like a child wasn't the worst feeling, especially when you aren't used to it.
Slowly he squatted , meeting my eye level, and with a heavy sigh, he spoke
You're my eldest daughter, this kind of behavior is not to be tolerated, you're...
Hurting us, Hurting me ,do you, want to hurt us
Tell me, carama!
Do you?
My legs remained fixed to a spot, my ears taking in every word he spoke."I can't keep disappointing them"
No sir, I said my gaze still fixed at the floor, drawing footprint's against it, with my mind mentally taking notes of everything he had said.
With the raise of a brow, he asked again, sternly this time. You don't?
Yes sir.....
Then why drag our prestigious name to the mud
My body quivered at that statement, had I done that?
I apologise sir, it won't repeat itself
Hmm...., He sighed as he straightened himself,. It better not, to your room.
His eyes shifting back it's focus to the couch where he was previously sitting on
I've disappointed them, once again my goal of making them love me has been thwarted,derailed
But, it's not too late,I thought as an idea popped into my head
Um sir..., his feet immidiately paused as he turned to face me again, noticing his gaze , a snivel escaped my lips, shortly followed by the incessant ransacking of my school bag
Uh huh, I softly exclaimed as my hand grazed against a cold metal
Here, sir, I got it for my achievement in school today, I said as I handed him the medal
With his hands stretched , I gave him the medal, which he received with an icy smile
Oh you've made me so proud~
Just as my eyes made to glisten in hope
Swiss -
The medal was flung across the room, missing me by an inch
Intimidatingly, his feet thumped against the floor boards , rhythmically as he made his way to me
His hot breath spraying against my face
ONE!, just One?!, What am I to do with one
Measly medal, Eat it?, will this one medal give you a good name, Will it? if you think it does, I really need to bring your mother for questioning, to inquire if you are indeed an offspring bearing my blood
You Psychotic child
Slowly his hands brushed against the floor boards, as he grabbed the fallen medal by the strap, rising stiffly yet so angrily, Holding the medal tightly by the strap and swinging the body against my head.
In a daze I fell, completely engulfed with pain, clutching on to my head as I wrapped myself in, Not even a whimper must escape the domain of my lips, I can't let it
His voice as loud as ever, lambasting me, could be heard, from the corners of the house, but not for me, for all I could process now was just the movement of his lips , for my head still rang.
With a fume, he stopped
To your room , you damned Disappointment!
Groggily, I stood up and made my way through the corridors
Hmm, hmm ,hmm, hmm, tch
Ugh Not Again
You know he doesn't love you,they do not love you, hell ,I'll be damned if anyone does
You've gone and done it now, what was that he called you. Yes!!,embarrassment?, No disappointment , maybe you're both
As it continued it's taunting, I urged my legs to move faster and upon reaching my room, I opened the door, quickly entering inside, then banging it shut.
Leaning into the door frame, with my back against it, gently sliding down as I took deep breaths to compose myself,
You know he doesn't love you, right!!
Quiet!, I heard myself say out loudly, ....you taunting demon
With a puff I stood up and started walking over to my chair, on reaching it heaved into it
It's my fault, it's my own fault, I was too oblivious to hear the sarcasm in his voice
When he said,* ohh you've made me so proud*, as if I could ever
With a sigh, I dropped the medal into the trash can, it's my fault, his words still ringing in my ear, damned Disappointment
My eyes twitched as my arms stiffened at the reminder, with an exhale, I arose from my chair making my way over to the closet
It was only now I remembered that I still had my school clothes on,
Tch, wish I could burn them
Taking off, the clothes I had on , I made my way to the shower , soaking up all the water, as the red liquid washed off my head, it was a shame to get my braids wet, but at least it was relaxing,and at least my delusions were gone now
Guess this delulu has a solulu,
Spending up to an hour in the shower wasn't ideal, and I still had maths and exams to think about., this delusions of mine, were getting out of hand ,and I do not want to resort back to taking my pills
The taste was always so pungent and irritable, and at times the vile retch would come so strongly , I wouldn't make it to the sink on time, the aftermath was the worst , always made me so wozzy and unsteady
Enough of that now, I was done bathing ,and needed to sleep, coming out of the shower, suddenly I heard a sound
A cold whisper, I flinched and stepped back in fear my back resting against the door where I came out from, I really needed to start taking those drugs
But something was wrong , this one , was more real, somewhat frightening, thinking, the sound came closer and closer, as if noticing my presence through the closed door
Twisting the door handle, huh!,did I remember to lock it right?
Interrupting my thoughts, The door flung open and
My heart dropped-
Hello sister,
Came the the reply from the open door