In the deepest depth of darkness Sara was watching the projections of her memory, her left arm twitches as she clenched her fist. Her face was tilted down and her eyes were unreadable.
Sara had an abusive past, her father was an alcoholic man who neither had a job and he doesn't do any work. Instead he stayed home watching TV while drinking or sometimes going to casino.
Her mother had a job as an assistant in a company. She was only source of income in their house. But her father with an addiction of alcohol and going to casino. Stole the money from her cupboard or anyplace where she hide it then spent it all carelessly on them. Not even leaving a single penny.
Even though she had an abusive past. It wasn't always like that. Instead her father was a good husband and father. He had an stable income and he yearn to loved her daughter.
She and Zack studied at the same school before the incident happened with him. They were good friends and knew themselves for quite awhile. Sometimes she also go to his house. As he was a son of a royal family he had a quite luxury house, more like a mansion.
With Ender being Zack's cousin was also found of her along with Marine too. But then.. Sara fate begin to change.
One day with her parents they were coming from their long distance relatives in a car. It had an accident. Sara and her mother had some minor injuries, but her father had a deep brain injury which resulted in going to comma.
His treatment took a lot of money even their relatives and so called family members had given up from him. But his wife sacrificed her jewelries. Even shifting to an lower house to save him. In the end he did woke up, but he was never the same.
Over time, his behavior changed, his tone changed, it was the same man who had yearn to loved her daughter and his wife.. Now became an abusive low temper man.
Those so called relatives now don't even help them and broke all relations with them, not even caring for the child... Maybe he can be treated if the relatives could have given some cash.
The company fired him from the job where his father had worked. And the situation became so intense that her mother had to work for their living in poverty.
But it wasn't enough.. Sara who had studied in a good school had now shifted to an lower one. Thanks to the government facility, it had a law that every child should studied till graduation and the government themselves would provide funds for it.
Sara then studied her life in the school till one day.. The day when her father died, her mother takes the allegation on herself which resulted in her jail, but as there was no one to take care of the child, she was freed from court.
As she was always accused of being a murderer in their neighborhood, even targeting her daughter as a child of murderer. They moved to another city by selling their house and taking a flat on rent. After some time her mother had found a job as a receptionist in a store.
Surprisingly this was the same store where Ruis was working and even lived on the same floor of the building where Sara and her mother were living.
Due to her mother continuous efforts in finding another job because this wasn't enough for their living. She found another job as a office worker in a well named company.
With that Sara life started to have changes. She had got an admission in a good college despite studying in lower government schools. As her mother knew Ruis very well and he too had the same admission in the college where Sara had, they both go together as friends. Though Sara had a clumsy low temper nature as it was easy for her to get hot temper. So she was quite annoying for Ruis and unreadable.
When she started studying there. She found Zack and Ender again along with Marine. The difference was that they studied in different classes and Misha was also her class mate with Zack. Overtime they all get to know each other and even meet each other in break time.
***
Sara had her face behind from the projection, maybe the reason she wasn't looking because she knew her memories than just projected memory.
"So what?"
She muttered in the void. Her expression unreadable.
"What you expect from this?. Will this change me.. Change my past, bring my father back."
Her lips twitches as her voice way lower than usual.
She glanced behind to saw the projection because there was silence. As her eyes witnessed upon the unknown. There was a red hole in the void of darkness that started to suck the darkness.
Soon Sara's body commenced to dust light particles. Her skin turned alarmed as she thought.
~ Will I die?..
She clenched her fist of her disappearing arm.
"Never!"
Abruptly the portal disappeared in an instant. But her body was half turned to dust with only her torso and an arm, the other fragments of her had gone within the portal.
Sara's mind couldn't tolerate these things any longer. As she perturbed and look her disappeared body. Surprisingly her body was not showing any pain, it was feeling nothing. She was feeling, as a chunk of her body is missing.Her skin turned pale as many thoughts came to her mind.
~ What if I never escape from here?
~ What if I became corrupted like Misha?.. And hurt my friends.
Shrouded in her thoughts she came to her previous memory.
Ender had once said to all of them when they all had gone to snowfield.
"Being afraid of yourself and giving up.. Then hating yourself is making yourself exposed to destruction and madness. Only then destruction will wait for every path you step."
He had just said it as light talk when they were all chatting together. Yet these very words stood her hard now as she clings herself to them.
"I won't!. I won't let myself be controlled."
She spoke with fury.
"This is my world! My story!"
She extended her arm.
"I don't know about the other worlds but I'm indeed know that I'm right.. Everything I had done had resulted a path here and I'm okay with this."
Her tone slightly lower as her face titled down. Weirdly moments after. Some light fragments appeared in the darkness. They goes through her and start rebuilding her body gradually. She was stunned, in few moments her whole body had came back.
Sara who didn't know what to speak murmured, her hands twitching and her eyes who were wife open moments ago were unclear now.
"Do you do this?.. For me."
Suddenly the darkness and the void shiftef as if someone was forcibly taking out the darkness. Seconds later it became a light room. Sara who was floating in void had stepped on the floor. As she checks around her surroundings.
"Why?"
A voice echoed through the room. As Sara instinctively turned behind where the voice had came from, only to saw herself standing there. Her hair messy and her face down. It was hard to judge that she was looking at her or not, because her hair was covering her eyes.
"You think you can handle this all."
Her zon spoke with a flat tone.
"You will lose everything. If you let it dominant in you. Even yourself.. You will be a shell carrying parts of what you used to be."
Her tone became slightly concerned.
"No, this won't happen, because I won't let myself be controlled. Trust me.."
Sara spoke with a warm tone. A faint smile on her face as she comes closer to her.
"Trust!?. Trust!. You. Do you know know what that even mean?. Did you really understand yourself?... Because I can't."
In her heart Sara really doesn't understand herself because she thought herself that she deserved nothing. Sometimes she think she deserved everything. Sometimes she said she hates herself. Sometimes she said she loves herself. These different paths always wondered her. Who she was?. And what she can be really?.
"You're right. I don't understand myself. We don't ourselves. Maybe it's because we're engulfed in mysteries and purpose. And we need some one who will help us.. To strip away our mystery and gives us purpose."
Sara words stunned her zon. She was speechless. Her eyes wide as Sara hugged her.
"Trust me one last time."
She murmured to her.
"I won't let myself be ruined. Neither me nor you."
Her zon gave a warm smile. As the place turned to bright light. Her zon body started to turned to dust.
"Last time."
She spoke with a smile. An exaggerated smile.
***
The crystal started shining like a star. As the branches burned off which were holding the crystal. As it was about to land on ground. Ruis eyes glanced at right moment as he teleported it next to him.
The light was very intense but moments later it stopped, abruptly the crystal started to decayed. When Ruis tried to saw the crystal Sara had disappeared.
"Huh?."
Ruis was confused and was thinking where she had gone. In the very next moment, a hand tapped on his shoulder as he turned behind instinctively.
It was Sara who punched in his face the next second. He takes some steps back because of the impact, rubbing the area where she had hit him.
"What was that for?"
His expression was quite funny and unique. Something he rarely did.
"Testing my new strength."
Sara spoke with a smirked in her usual teasing tone.
~ She is unpredictable and unreadable.
Ruis thought as he adjusted himself.
***
It was night as moonlight had covered the forest floor and stars were shinning through the leaves. The forest was noisy as usual with owls hooting.
Leon was sitting in a chair reading a book. It had no cover so it was hard to know what he was reading, just a red book.
Misha, Ender and Zack were chatting about their memories. It was warm moment until Leon broke it.
"Hey Ender hasn't Sara awaken yet?"
He spoke with curious tone.
"I don't know wait let me ask Ruis."
He said with his usual tone.
As he was just about to activate his telepathy and communicate with Ruis in his mind. A voice came in his mind.
~ Hey Ender.
~ Oh hey Ruis how's going?.
~ Fine..
~ Is Sara awaken yet.
~ Hold up.
~ Huh? Hey reply Hello?.
Ender was confused as everyone had his everyone fixed on him. As Leon was about to ask him. A blue portal emerged right before where Ender and all of them were sitting.
Two people walked out. As Sara greeted Misha when she first glance over her.
"When do you awaken?"
"Just few hours ago."
Ender and Zack greeted Ruis with their causal style. As Ruis greeted Leon then.
"So everyone ready now."
Leon spoke with a smirked. Continuing without a pause.
"We're going to Raiheart tomorrow."