ZEPHYR'S P.O.V
Reaching home, I step out of my car and get into my house glad to not have a run-in with anybody considering the mood I was in. In need of a strong drink, I head straight for the bar and pour myself some scotch. The drink did little to nothing to curb my anger so I decided to shower and head straight to bed, perhaps that could help me relax but then I was met with a rather unpleasant surprise.
"Lucia." I call out boredly not in the best of moods for her tantrums. Lucia stared back at me, her eyes full of desire making her intentions very well known to me and on any normal occasion I'd appreciate her advances but not tonight especially considering the fact that she was the main cause of the problem.
"Hey baby, how was dinner with your parents?" Rising to her feet, she walks over to me seductively as she caresses me through my cloth but I shove her hand away, rejecting her advances.
"Fine Lucia, I'm really tired and I'd appreciate it if you could leave."
"But baby..." She whines, irritating me further as she advances towards me again as she touches me. "I need you…I want you. And besides, you look tense. Lemme help you relieve the tension."
Having had enough, I grab her hands shoving her away a bit more harshly than intended. "I said no Lucia." I say a bit more firmly, walking past her as I unbutton my shirt. I feel her come up behind me relentlessly as she wraps her hands around me, dragging her fingertips across my chest down to my belt before coming back up and then helping me pull off my shirt while placing light feathery kisses across my back.
Turning to her in a flash, I grab her hands as I shove her gently into the nearest wall, pinning her by her arms above her head.
"I said fucking no Lucia, don't make me repeat myself." I could feel my wolf-side coming to the surface and judging by the terrified look on her face my eyes had changed colour and my canines had begun to show. She lets out a pained whimper so I release my grip on her before stepping away.
"Why? Why don't you want me?" Fuck no, I couldn't deal with this tonight. Rubbing my forehead I let out a tired sigh as I sit on the chair at the far corner of the room.
"Like I told you Lucia, I'm tired and I'm not in the mood."
Scoffing, "I don't mean sex Zephyr, I mean why don't you want me? I've known you longer than any woman, we have mind-blowing sex, we both don't have mates and we love each other. So tell me Zeph, tell me why we can't be together." I try to hold myself back from visibly cringing at the l-word. There was definitely no love between us and we both knew it.
"Cut the crap Lucia, we both knew what we were getting into when we started having sex. We never agreed to being exclusive."
"Well I fell in love with you Zephyr and I know that deep down you feel something for me, something more than just sex." She walks over to me and kneels before me as she holds my hands in hers. "Give us a chance Zephyr…please"
Rising to my feet, I walk to the other side of the room needing space. "Stop it Lucia, enough. We..we're not happening, we can't happen and the sooner you learn to accept it the better for you. I don't mean to hurt your feelings Lucia, but us…this is nothing more than sex."
In a flash she smacks me right across the face and while I might have deserved that for being uncaring with my words, I wasn't going to let it happen again.
"I'm gonna let that slide Lucia but keep in mind that I'm still your alpha and I won't tolerate any form of disrespect."
"I don't give a shit if you're the alpha or not Zephyr. You used me knowing fully well that I had feelings for you. What more do you want that I won't give you huh? Your parents love me, the pack practically thinks we're together and everything's going perfectly well. Why won't you give us a fucking chance Zephyr?"
"Because I don't love you Lucia, I don't have and I never will." I burst out angrily. Shock, pain and anger overwhelms her features as she staggers back slightly before falling to the bed.
"Look, I'm sorry to put it to you in such manner but it's the truth. I don't love you and I don't honestly think I ever will. I need to go freshen up, please be gone by the time I'm back." Before I leave, I see tears falling down her cheeks and I can't help but feel pity towards her but I leave her anyways.
I had just stepped out of the shower when I see Lucia sprawled out on the bed. Thinking it's one of her usual antics, I ignore her and walk over to the dresser pulling out a pair of sweatpants.
"C'mon Lucia get up, I need to sleep." She doesn't move in the slightest, curiously I walk over to her and feel for a pulse which is slower than usual and I also notice a blood stain patch on her clothes which had soaked my bedsheets. Panicked, I pick her up in my arms and head out for the hospital but not before grabbing my keys.
About two hours later and a long impatient wait, the doctor finally walks up to me bowing his head slightly in greeting.
"Alpha, if I may ask where did you find her?"
Pursing my lips slightly, I reply, "She was with me in my home when she suddenly fell unconscious." I say shortly.
He lets out a sigh before responding, "She had a miscarriage, Alpha. From my evaluations she was under a lot of stress which led to her losing her baby." His words hit with a force like a bullet as I recoil in shock. She was pregnant? With my baby? How come she never told me about it? Did she even know about it?
"Doctor can I see her?" I ask quietly to which he nods. Without wasting another moment I hurry into her room to be met with a crying Lucia who looked at me in anger and sadness.
"What are you doing here? This is your fault Zephyr, your freaking fault you hear me?" She lashes out as her voice cracks inbetween, breaking into tears once more. Walking over to her side, I pull her into a hug as she cries into my embrace all the while blaming me for the death of our child. And deep down I couldn't help but agree with her, I had killed our child.