MAHIRA
I just want to die. Why don't I just die? My kids are safe and sound so why doesn't death take
me already.
It's been eight months already, four more months to go before I can leave Adamsen's villa.
Unfortunately I can't tell myself that I'm going back to Thane, he has already moved on.
In four months he'll be getting married to Bianca. I received divorce papers three months ago
and I was forced to sign them. Adamsen was always working but whenever he wasn't he would
spend time with me.
He was really sweet but in bed he was totally different. I really don't understand Adamsen
because he is just so confusing. He's very cold and if I didn't live with him I'd think he had no
heart but he has this sweet side of him.
Well I guess he only shows it to me. I think him taking care of me has improved my mental
health a bit but I still see that little girl in a white dress.
I decided to call that little angelic devil death. It's the only name I could think of.
Whenever she appears she just convinces me to commit suicide. Adamsen has saved me three
times, once when I nearly drowned myself in a pool, the next I was about to blow up the house
and the third time I was about to jump off a building again.
I was lost in thought when Adamsen disrupted me.
'Take a shower and wear the dress I got you yesterday.'
'Why should I wear that dress while I'm staying home? It's too pretty to wear while I'm wasting
away in the doors of your villa.'
'We are going to an event so I'm taking you along as my girlfriend.'
'Thanks but no thanks!'
'This is not for me okay. I'm not even willing to go there but I figured you miss your children.
Don't you want to see them?'
'Are we going to Thane's house?' Technically my house but since he's been living there he might as well take it, I have many
more.
'It's Thane's engagement party so you can see your kids from a distance before we leave. If you
won't be able to bear it, it's okay, you can stay here.'
'No no, I can handle it. I just want to see my sons. Thank you.'
I took a quick shower. I was never really a fan of bathing. It was tiring and my least favorite, not
that I'm unhygienic but do you know how difficult it is to abandon the warmth of your clothes to
bathe.
This is what I meant by Adamsen was confusing. One minute he wishes well for me, next he's
cold. I wore the sexy red dress Adam was talking about.
It was a body con with a long lace and one arm. I had red fifteen inch heels that matched the
dress. As always I didn't apply makeup and I braided one side of my hair and I applied lipgloss
to moisturize my lips.
Adamsen's eyes were glued to me the entire time when I came down the stairs.
'You look beautiful. Very pretty, there's no one as gorgeous as you, my flower. Come, let's go.'
That flattered me. It's been a long time since I've heard a compliment from a man. It made me
smile. We entered a luxurious hotel and I wasn't quite surprised. Adamsen was a gentleman, a
real one. But he was rude to other girls. We sat on our seats which unfortunately had to be
close, and by close I mean so close to the stage where the bride and groom would sit.
Thane and I had a short moment of eye contact. I could see jealousy in his eyes and
remembering how he treated me made me shiver. Adamsen held my hand which made Thane
angrier. He broke a wine glass he was holding and claimed it was a mistake.
The engagement ceremony went on smoothly. Angelo and Alexander were clinging onto Elena
throughout the ceremony. It warmed my heart that they had someone to protect them and take
care of them. I didn't have to worry anymore. After the exchange of ring's, Thane suddenly
pulled Bianca closer to him and kissed her passionately. I felt a pang in my heart but I tried to
ignore it.
'I love you so much Bianca. I wish I had found you earlier then I wouldn't have wasted my time
with worthless bitches.'
He was talking about me. He called me a bitch. I looked up to prevent the tears from falling.
'If this ceremony is hurting you then we can go somewhere else. I can take you out or
something.'
I wiped the tears that had already managed to escape my eyes.
'No it's okay. I'm here for my son's and not for him.'
Suddenly Bianca called me to the stage. How I wanted the earth to swallow me or a tornado to
take me with it but no, no earthquake no tornado. I went to the stage but my heart was telling
me to run away. Bianca hugged me and turned to the audience.
'Ladies and gentlemen this is Mahira Carson. The CEO of AMS Film Production Studio, I'm
pretty sure you've heard her name. Well she's Thane's ex wife and Angelo and Alexander's
mother.'
Whatever this bitch is planning, I'm sure it's not good for me.
'This woman here is not as good as she looks. Her children are experiencing a mental health
disorder because of her. Look at them, they're even scared of her.'
Wait, what did she say? Why would she disclose that to the public? 'That's why Thane divorced her, because she was harassing her children. Because of her, her
sons are not well.'
'Do you want me to expose you? Listen here I am a very good mother okay. Yes I agree my kids
hate me but I'm not a bad mom.'
'Children never lie, Angelo, why do you hate your mom?'
Bianca looked at the kids.
Angelo hid behind Elena, 'because she is a murderer.'
After saying that he ran away. People started asking me questions and clicked countless
pictures of me. They threw countless questions at me. I should've known that she was up to
something. My head started aching because of the tight space. I even felt dizzy. Adamsen
intervened.
'You're stepping on the wrong tail Bianca.'
Adamsen shielded me from the cameras and warned the camera man to stop taking pictures,
they stopped after he demanded it.
'Why should I fear you?' Bianca challenged.
Adamsen stepped closer to her and bent down to the level of her ear.
'Because I can kill you and ensure that your body is never found.'
I could feel the tear's nearly falling down so I left the stage and rushed to the bathroom. I wanted
to break down because I couldn't hold onto the tears anymore but Thane had followed me.
'Why do you always ruin everything? Today is supposed to be my special day.'
'Why are you like this Thane? I don't even recognize you anymore.'
Thane," you have no right to question me. I don't even know why I'm wasting time with a bitch
like you. Stay away from my family okay. Slut!"
He pushed me aside and I lost my balance. I fell to the floor. Because of the pressure on my fall,
the floor cut a part of my skin off. I winced from the pain. I blew on the wound to cool down the
burning sensation and then the little girl I named Death stood behind Thane, a sickening, bloody
smile on her face.
'You don't listen Mahi. Didn't I tell you multiple times that you deserve to die. You don't deserve
to live, your presence in your children's life's is not good for them, you are dangerous, you ruin
everyone's happiness.'
'No, I'm not. It's not my fault please, I'm not wrong. They're misunderstanding me. Please go
away, you are wrong.'
'Just die Mahi.'
I covered my ears and screamed in dismay so that the voice could go away because it was tormenting me. Adamsen found me on the floor and carried me to his car. He drove us back home. When he laid me in the car, I fell into the familiar darkness.