Ava, in a frenzy, "Maybe I am just a slave to the highest order of society, I wish my time with Yaren. It was the only thing that I could get out of as a being of robotic ego or just a freak."
Ava started to tremble as she continued watching porn, looking at the intimacy of male and female while uncontrollably laughing, doing weird analysis on two humans mating with each other.
Ava decides to stop watching porn in her mind and just relax. She is afraid of what her next day in school is going to be; she has never been this conscious before
She doesn't know what to do, so all she can do is wait for what's gonna happen, is Yaren going to reject her or what?
Ava has no idea about her beauty either; she considered herself as somewhat above-average, but not in a way that models of this generation would be put on a pedestal, all that fancy cyberpunk aesthetics with rich clothes, who has time for that ostentation?
Or maybe Ava acknowledging she doesn't fit the beauty standard mold, one thing for sure is that Ava is pretty, at the very least, she has no idea how it will affect others
She has no idea about their perception of her, but based on what Yaren said about her, "Too elegant and perfect" as if that holds any weight to her actual character. Maybe Ava is too posturing, too calculated, too robotic, and reclusive.
Ava cried out in laughter, "It doesn't matter. I don't even care anymore, but this isn't going to be the last time we met Yaren."
Ava smiles sinisterly before taking another dosage of serotonin stabilized pill, Ava feels a sense of calm but this overdose numb Ava's senses she can't feel her motor cortex fully operational, the neurotransmitters in the medulla oblongata was close to being disrupted, the technology in Ava's brain has been trying to combat the activity with drug delivery systems through the nanoparticles, could be amino acids into the glial cells.
As the drug delivery system performed its role, Ava's immobilized motor function started to function and recover. She wasn't able to move her limbs for a while as this strong abuse of serotonin-stabilizing pills was overwhelming her neurotransmitters. Ava started to move, she is started to gain autonomy with her functions, she breathed in and out.
She is starting to feel her limbs moving as she struggles to cohere herself, "Crap. That was intense. I am never doing that again." Ava stands up and decides to eat breakfast.
Ava eats her breakfast; she is glad she was able to recover, otherwise, her body would be frozen like a drug addict with saliva coming out of her mouth.
It was akin to paralysis, but worse, she wasn't able to process or think. Her body felt cold since the regulations in her body had been dysfunctional for a while before the nanoparticles deployment from her cybernetic galvanized the astrocytes or underlying glial cells for neurodegenerative threats.
Once again, highlighting Ava's father's brilliant intellect
Ava continues eating, she continues eating her food with utensils in silence as she cogitates her own self, with worries that are not even grounded in reality - Ava's mind has fragmented, but it's slowly recovering. It's not easy to say she suffered from catatonia but it can be said that she is in utter confusion
Not easy to visualize, but it happens when you are in a high stress situation - it's better to just relax and let things sort things out.
Simply, there are things outside of our control, and it's not in one's conundrum that Ava could try to control the situation with logic or brute force; she just could not accept what happened to her in school. In other cases, it's as if her emotional immaturity is crackling
Ava decides to just distract herself trying to release herself from stress-related states, before deciding to just relax
She was just holding her utensil frozen before deciding to scoop and bite it, entering her mouth, possibly anorexia, no idea?
You can't just make it up, but it would be in a safer area to say that she is in a state of overwhelm, right?
No,w how would Ava sort her feelings properly? No matter how much she can hide behind rationalism and emotion, she couldn't seem to help herself but be immobilized for a bit, she decides to just relax and forget about it.
Ava then decides to go outside. She takes a walk outside, trying to get that breath of fresh air. Upon exiting the door, she steps out and breathes in the oxygen
A neighborhood with all the simplistic but almost fractal structure, its structure is very ergonomic that one would be tempted to look at its all sleek metallic, with the grass so vibrant and green, even the skies are very blue. A utopia comes alive, right?
Ava continues walking, one drone is seen gliding around the neighborhood, a cone like structure with more round on its tip where it monitors the ecosystem 24/7 as Ava continues to breathe air, she thinks about her last days on this neighborhood or aka sector 451, where she would be moved to a different location eventually she would have to rent an apartment while working on her father's organization work or whatever.
Ava continue to breathe in the air as she sees the things around her, what would the 21st centuries joke would say "Touch grass" oh definitely but it's way better than touching grass it's merely just her trying to attune her mind to nature, the most amazing ecosystem, after a while wandering around the town she saw a buildings like the one in the city filled with skyscrapers.
Ava continue looking at the buildings marvelling at their heights before moving out she decides to go to the library she presented her card to the librarians and then she was granted access to peruse the books to her appetite looking whatever book she can get her hands on for flavourful literary entertainment, classics are hard to read but not to a great extent it takes a while to be able to appreciate them.