Alex's p.o.v
Last night was passionate and extremely scary. She remembers how every touch from her fated gave life and soothed her fears. He is warm, safe, and contrary to her initial belief… he loves her, she felt it but they can do that mistake again. Besides Noah left. He is gone. Did she do something wrong? Why is she being emotional? They had unprotected sex once. Fuck. No. She cannot risk getting pregnant by having unprotected sex again. She explained the whole blood situation, and he was really indifferent about the disgust she expected was replace by love as well as concern. Argh, why does this man love her? She should have probably kept the whole tidbit of information to herself, that would have brought her more time to think of solutions to her current problem at hand.
Basically, she hasn't been 'intimate' with anyone for like more than five years and when she was intimate, her hymen did not stretch. Since she was intimate with Noah her hymen must have stretched enough to break causing the embarrassing sight this morning. So technically the person that broke her hymen is the same person that just left her alone in a big ass room. That selfish jerk left her alone with her thoughts... Noah is a physical person as much as he waited for her for months he was basically attached to her. Now she opened up to him and his as enthusiastic as a man who survived the titanic.
Emotions are fleeting and raw, what if they do not work out? That the reason she cannot afford to get pregnant... His gone. Maybe he will kick her out, worse break up with her. Wait, are they even dating? Yes. No. She is meeting his family, but it doesn't mean they are together, right? Shit, does that mean he will want to meet her family? Dammit he left. He broke his promise. His gone. Shit he is still not back after her 'well thought' shower. Did she do something wrong? No. Stop overthinking Lex… There is one solution to this travesty that will save her face and allow Noah to return to his room without making anything awkward or make the other uneasy. Tonight, perhaps she will just have to ask Perm for a different room because the condom thing is something she is defiantly not willing to compromise on. Her request was not bazaar, right? She will just have to book her own flight home which will make her short on rent. Condoms. Whatever they are in terms of relations, they might as well be safe right?
At this point she is pro condom because their relationships foundation is mainly built on uncertainty and lust, therefore it's not a particularly strong foundation. Fuck. Condom. Shit. Besides she is an aspiring doctor and there are scary cases of unplanned pregnancies involving single parenting or abortions that she's not willing to take chances on. That is why she concluded unprotected sex without certainty would just be a painful Band-Aid to rip off eventually. Besides she does not want to raise a child before shes ready to raise one, her biggest fear is raising a child alone just like her mother did. Or have a man who who takes what he wants and leave her with all the responsibility just like her dad did.
Noah has an insatiable appetite and an annoyingly erotic foreplay… Why did she think that the small condoms medium sized condoms she bought will fit him, oh yeah… Because purchasing the set had been so embarrassing that she just took the first thing she read up on is important and ran out of the shop, hell she's not sure if she will ever return there ever again. Noah must think she's being an idiot, troublesome and he left which means he might leave her for this. Noah did initiate everything between them sexually and romantically. In the end control is in the alpha male's hands and she panted exhausted, in his arms. Shit, she's in trouble of losing herself to this uncertain relationship. Surely the is guest room here is close by, or must she wake Perm to take her there? No that would be awkward and rude... but she offered... It would also be rude to invite yourself in another person's household… Okay fine she will just go downstairs and call her, yes that will work.
"Where are you going?"
"You can stay here. I was about to ask your mo-"
Lips crashed against hers which momentarily stunning her. When her eyes closed, she knew she was lost to the sensation and all her doubts mixed with fears vanished.
"Condoms. The ice cream is in the fridge."
He broke the kiss just to hand her the red box, and he bought ice-cream? That is so sweet.
"Noah. I- you mis-understand the direction I was going. I-"
His lips were hungry. Desperate fingers groping, searching, exploring. She knew now that there would not be a point of using logic. Right there and then, her fated wrestled logic with lust. Especially the lust this man's touch induce tends to drive her in a sexual frenzy. Fuck it, she seethed her body building with a rush only her fated can satiate.
"Noah. Please. Now."
Noah pressed his lips on her boobs biting, sucking and creating friction. He lowered her on to her back before...Fuck. Shit the combination of sensations and simulations Alex cried out her pleasure a tad bit too loud. She did not know how or what Noah expected and how to pleasure him, but everything was so natural. He taught her what he likes and one of those things was having her, having his way and making sure that she hits the heights of ecstasy.
"Axx baby. Fuck."
The sounds of their love making, coupled with their moans made her push back following her man's tempo.
"Noah. I. Ah. Please. Yes."
All hell broke loose when she bit down on his shoulder, like a mosquito only moving when she was satisfied. At the height of their orgasm Alex pressed her coppery lips on Noah's and their forehead rested on each other. They reached their release together and she laid there spent in Noah's arms. The mark she left was more of a love bite than a claim, no harm, no foul. She rested content in his arms her fingers brushing hard abs. Before Noah, she feared sexual intercourse but now she hungered for it or is it just him?
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"I am sure about us. I tried not to love you, I failed. I do not want you to leave but by chance you do, I am just trying to cushion the blow in case of a fall out."
Darkness.
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Noah's p.o.v
Shit she fell asleep after proclaiming her love for him. Great. His beautiful Axx did not consider his feelings and declaration of his love to be true. Damn, this is extremely confusing to him. How clear must a guy be? Did his family give reason for her doubt?
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After showering, he shaves throwing the disposal razor away. Alex's toiletry bag was open he might as well use her face lotion. He loves her smooth face that is soft like marshmallows, her chocolate skin drove him crazy. They do have different beauty standards here but, in his eyes, his fated mate's darker skin, nontraditional weight and preferred status his mate is perfect in his eyes. he reached his hand in the bag for the clear oil when he saw a white box- 'Suppressants'? What is Alex doing with suppressants? Mostly omegas use these pills to control, prevent or stop their heats.
They did have sex with no protection. His fated did freak out and she did demand condoms after… Could Alex be an omega? Is that why their wolves found each other? Pretending as if he had not seen the white box, he walked out the bathroom. There is no point ruining what he has with the woman for stupid questions or take a risk to saying something that can trigger his beautiful fated. He will have wait for his fated to explain everything to him, whenever she's ready. In fact, Noah might be jumping to the wrong conclusions if he were to be honest but until the truth comes out, he will be hopeful about his instincts. Axx does not want him to leave? He accepts her request as long as she is to not leave him too. Besides he knows how to take full advantage of the stay. Slipping in the covers he saw the woman before him whom he has been gifted. The woman now in his arms is so perfect, her bottom lip sticking out he loves the fact his mate fit so perfectly in his arms.