Is he praising me?
I thought instantly, having myself back from doubt. But I said, "Thank you." I don't know how to react after hearing those. Nobody ever talked with me compairing with their lovable persons. I was so delighted after hearing those. I wish I had some of those for him, too. So that he can feel please, too.
He was waiting for me to say further. I didn't want to. I will never choose those who will be going to hurt him hiddenly. But I have to tell him. I don't think he would be hurt.
"It was the moment when I had no listeners or supporters. As they didn't care about my decision even after getting the confirmation that I was willing to get married by their choice, I didn't feel the necessary to hear the name. I mean your name. I was angry, rude over their excitement. I just needed time, that's it. I got no problem about whosever I was getting married with. But they didn't consider mine." "Wait a minute. YOU DIDN'T KNOW MY NAME?!" He asked with huge surprise. Which was normal for everybody to react in that way.
"I do. When I saw the wedding card. I did watch your name. But mom didn't tell me that it was YOU-" "W-what? I didn't get it." He asked. "Let me describe. My friend told me that yours one is a very common name in Croatia. So, it was 50-50 chance it to be you, mean the footballer. When he asked my mother whether you were it. Mom didn't confirm me as she was at her highest temper because I denied visiting on the confirmation day. Got it?" I could see his half opened mouth and wide eyes over me. It was familiar.
"Like, ah- YOU DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS ME?!" He surprisingly spells those words. "No, I got the confirmation after lifting your veil." I honestly told the last line, prepared for everything he will show next.
"Are you kidding me? You did not know whether the card's name was mine and got up, got ready, and came to marry! Seriously? You could escape after fetching someone's hand. It would have made me happy-" "I had no one but the responsibilities on the shoulder. I made the decision that whoever it will be, I would try to make him happy, that's it. For the family, for my life, for his life, I had no other options. And if my words don't sound like the thing I did to you on the first night of our wedding, I still apologise." I said the rest.
Saw him, looking at me. It is a rare side of him to be paused. He usually doesn't contact his eyes while saying or listening to something. He looks down or here and there, but never in my eyes. But I love whenever he talks, looking here and there. I guess he suits it. He has no right to look at me.
"No, it's alright. Look, we have faced the same situation. For the family and responsibilities, we had to get married. It is good that we both care about our family. And I will never mind thinking when you didn't make the choice for coming on the confirmation date, and what you said the the first night."
He says while trying to sound normal that I knew it was never normal.
"Everything has positive with negative sides, and negative with positivities. If you see through my side, you will call the two things positive. I have the faith that what God does does for well. So, comparing with this, back then, if you made the decision to visit at my house, we couldn't have each other. Cause I am sure we both changed the decisions after meeting and ended up the preparation after saying we don't match. So, denying the meet-ups leads you to have us indirectly. And second one, if you did not yell at me, you would not face my emotions, nor did I ask for you trust if I hadn't seen your soft side of caring after the rudeness. I did it take it normally cause YOU turned the moment to it. So, those results were not there if those never happened. Otherwise, seeing me for getting confirmation has also some positive sides. At least, the thing was not in your preparation. And there, you lost. I was joking." I saw he laughed again.
I was only thinking that it is rare to be like that! Luka just changes so quickly.