In the first two years after getting married, she also tried her best to love him. She couldn't accept a loveless marriage herself, but this marriage came so suddenly that she couldn't refuse, so she could only exert all her efforts to love him wholeheartedly.
She found all his good qualities, persuading herself one by one: such an outstanding man is worth loving; during the times when he was at work, she imprinted his image as the only figure in her mind, striving to long for him, imagine him.
Even when reading novels, watching movies, she always tried to imagine the male protagonist as Xiang Yuan.
In those first two years, time seemed like a huge void for her, constantly imprisoning her. She couldn't communicate in English, didn't dare to step out of the house, and didn't know anyone around, so she had plenty of time to think about him alone... He was her whole world, he was her heaven and earth.
Even the hazy figures in her memory, she fitted all of his appearances onto them.
