He started to beat me up once again and I lost a tooth in that process. He was also aiming for the scar on my stomach. He ended up tearing it open and I started to bleed. My white dress instantly turned red and the whole floor got stained with blood. Sizwe's t-shirt also became stained but that still didn't stop him from beating me. He continued even when I begged him to stop.
My whole face was swollen. My whole body was in pain. My stomach went from being extremely painful to being numb. I couldn't move an inch since my whole body was so swore. I couldn't even speak. My mouth was swollen. I had bruises all over my body.
Sizwe left me there on the floor and started to bath.
"Nx. Just look at how ugly you are. Piece of shit! You deserve to stay in here with all this rust furnished. I wonder what I saw in you. You are nothing but a hoe, liar and a fuckin bitch. You make me do all these things. You want people to think that I abuse you. You want people to think that I am a bad person when in actuality you are the bad guy. You are the devil in this relationship. You disrespect me. You don't give me peace, that's why I go out with my friends. You don't satisfy me in bed. You are just cold and loose. That's why I go out there and have fun with people who are tight, hot and active. Oh and beautiful. I'm not a bad guy. You are. See what you make me do? You make me hit you. I don't hit women. I don't. But you make me do bad things. It's your fault that you're like that. Isn't it? Huh mama?" he asked.
"Mh," I replied and nodded my head.
"Exactly. I love you mama and I would never hurt you. I bought us this RDP here in Alex because I love you. Because I want to be with you. But you don't appreciate my efforts instead you complain, complain and complain," he said.
He continued to speak while I groaned in pain. I paid less attention to him and more attention to the pain I was feeling. The pain got even more intense and unbearable that even my groans were not enough to numb it.
As soon as he was done freshening up he tied me to the same chair once again and locked the door on his way out.
I waited until I was sure that he was gone and I used my hands to look for the razor and after a few minutes of searching I eventually found it.
I untied myself and took my doek and used it to cover the scar on my stomach which was still bleeding. I didn't bother changing my clothes. I went straight to the toilet and opened the window to escape since it was the only window without a window casing.
It was late at night and I didn't know where I was going. I stumbled down the streets and found myself on a highway where there were a lot of cars. I asked for help but to no avail. I screamed for help but still no one stopped to come to my rescue. After about half an hour of roving down the main road a car stopped near the road. There were 3 guys inside and they seemed very drunk.
I didn't care what was gonna happen next as long as I was out of that hell of a place I was living in. I groaned in pain and looked back as I left the city. The lights got dimmer and dimmer until I couldn't see them anymore. I shut my eyes for merely 10 minutes. I was woken up by inertia as the car suddenly stopped. I looked around and all I could see was trees. With a gun pointed directly at my head, I was told to get out of the car slowly and walk right to the forest. I was told to walk and when to stop and they started to rape me.
I was too weak to fight so I just let them do their thing. It was not even as painful and they could also see it in my eyes. Tears were still falling from my eyes but I didn't utter a single groan.
"Oh you're enjoying this huh?" one of the guy said as he inserted the gun in my mouth. I just looked at him and said nothing while the second guy continued to rape me. The third guy pinned my hands against the floor to prevent me from escaping. As soon as the second guy was done raping me the guy with his gun traced the gun down to my vagina and inserted the gun inside.
The pain was unbearable so I started crying a little bit louder. I begged them to stop but they didn't. Instead, they just laughed at me and told the guy with a gun to go on even faster.
They continued to rape me while taking turns until I went numb. I couldn't feel anything. The last thing I saw was a gun pointing at my head and one of the guys doing whatever it was that he was doing on my private part and I'm sure that's when I passed out.
***
I woke up at a hospital with another guy who was with his girlfriend and I assume that they are the ones who saved my life.
I didn't know whether to thank God for saving my life and for giving me a second chance to continue with my miserable life or hate God for letting me live since I know for a fact that I will never be the same again.
With everything that had happened in my life before the tape took the trophy. It made me feel less of a woman. I lost a part of my life in that forest and I knew that I was never gonna get it back.
"I don't care where I go from here but as long as it's not back, the wind shall blow me wherever it blows," I said to myself and closed my eyes once again with hopes that I don't wake up again.