EXTRA
We are sitting on our bed, facing each other. I'm wearing my nightgown, while my Servant is still in her shirt-shorts combination. I'm not sure how to initiate. Of course, I know what to do. Of course, it isn't hard. Of course, I kissed her before.
But back then I did so without thinking. I didn't know before our lips touched that I would be kissing her. I was surprised by myself as well. Now that I know we are going to kiss, I can't help but feel somewhat nervous. Nervous, and reluctant.
"Master, if you aren't gonna hurry up, I might," Saber interrupts my inner monologue. Somehow, I think I wouldn't mind her taking the initiative here. It would take the stress and responsibility, if you may call it so, from me. But looking at her, tensely biting on her lower lip, the chances of her actually taking the lead are rather slim.
We would be sitting here like this tomorrow still… I know that. My Servant is an impulsive person, rather big-mouthed yet still somewhat shy towards skinship and attachment.
She will punch you in the face when you irritate her but you can hardly expect her to act on her feelings when she has positive emotions towards you. This trait of her is something I really like and if I wouldn't fear losing her trust or her hating me for it, I'm sure teasing her would lead to a lot of cute reactions. If only I could…
But that's just distraction. I shouldn't think about such nonsense—Saber is my Servant and friend. I shouldn't take her for granted, but appreciate the good bond between us. We treat each other like equals, while usually that shouldn't be the case with a Master and their Servant. I can't possibly consider risking this kind of relationship for selfish idiocy.
Also, I don't want to lose her. I can't lose her. I'm not as afraid of dying myself as I'm of Saber being killed because of me. I need to woman up and do this. And keep her safe.
There's no reason to be nervous. There's no reason to hold back.
We did this before. We both agreed it's fine. We're friends. Close friends, in fact.
I bring my hand to her cheek, softly caressing the now more reddening skin. She seems to get the hint, as she closes her eyes and slightly leans in—This face of hers is unbelievably cute. Impatient for what's following, yet too wary to look into my eyes right before.
Only mere seconds later, I lean in as well and close the distance between us, my hand wandering from her cheek to the back of her head and nape, pulling her close to make sure she wouldn't pull back. There's slight resistance from her first, but it dies down within milliseconds. Most likely, it was a knee jerk reaction from her to try pulling back.
It feels good. Better, more intimate than the last time. I want to never separate from the girl ever again, the lack of oxygen doesn't bother me right now at all. I need to feel her closer, so badly. So, I gently push her down on her back, being on top of her now.
This is the point where my lungs prove me wrong, and I do have to pull away, breaking the kiss, to fill them with much needed air again. Saber is panting, just like me. Maybe I should have allowed us to take a breath a bit sooner… " Damn," she muttered under her breath.
"I overdid it, didn't I?" She's visibly taking a while to be able to refocus and think somewhat clearly again.
"Yeah… I mean, n-no! Well, yes, but," her voice gets louder the more she talks, "Agh! I don't know." Her face is beet red right now, she looks too adorable.
I can't possibly keep myself from a peck on her reddened cheek, which only embarrasses her further.
"M-Master!" She yelps, then pouts cutely. Cutely to me, I suppose, not that she ever intended for it to look cute. However, I shouldn't overstep boundaries more than I maybe already have…
I clear my throat, "Well, now… Do you feel like it worked? Are you stronger?" Saber seems in deep focus for a second or two, then she nods.
"I-I suppose. Time to sleep then, good night," she hurries burying herself under the comforter.
Either she's mad because I overdid it, again, or she's just too embarrassed to face me… Or she's really tired.
Tomorrow is the Elimination Battle, the most important battle we've fought yet. I know Saber wouldn't let personal feelings, such as embarrassment, get a problem there. If I really happened to overdo it, we will have a talk afterwards…
Assuming we survive, that is.