To be totally honest with himself, Shinji can say that those four scenes reflect everything he did in the first sixteen years of his life, besides talking to himself to console the darkness that was growing on in him. However, something he said back then, for the sake of stealing, comes to his mind.
—"To get it big, you've to be challenged, for when you're big, the challenges no longer bother you.
If problems don't appear in life, how will one possibly grow? How will one react when problems do come, when never encountering one? Life is a test, and immortality is the reward, while death is the penalty.
Ever since a young age, Shinji knew true immortality existed, even without reading the [Journey of the First Tama-Artist]. However, he never put mind to it, because his world was gray: always, caring about how to maintain his life in every situation, even if it means harming himself.
