Throughout this time, Dai Yu has often been referred to as the all-knowing one by her friends and even her teachers at school. It is not without reason that she receives this title, as she often provides answers to her friends, even when the questions posed are very difficult or even hard to find information about. Therefore, it is no surprise that she is called the smartest student that ever existed.
"W-wait, why not?" he said, confused upon hearing those words.
"I don't know how to say this, but the point is, you don't need to do that."
Rover, hearing this, became even more confused and curious about the situation. Why does she seem to be hiding something? With an increasingly strong sense of curiosity, he attempted to analyze her body using his ability.
Soon, a screen appeared with a plethora of letters and words inside it.
{Status}
[Name: Lily Waverly]
[Age: 17] [Sex: Female]
[Race: Human] [Level: 0]
[Job: None] [Title: None]
[Fatigue: None]
[Condition: Died]
[Constitution: Pure Of Hope]
[Name: Pure of Hope]
[Information: A body filled with hope and the salvation of humanity. It is immune to viruses caused by zombies, and this effect can be transmitted through the blood flowing in the user's body. For now, this effect cannot be activated because the soul inhabiting this body is no longer present. This user was supposed to be a hope for humanity, but for some reason, a brutal murder ended their life. And the one who killed them was a human being who deserved nothing but to die in suffering.]
Seeing the description that appeared before his eyes, Rover could only remain silent and slowly felt his body trembling on its own.
Huh?
Wait, what is he feeling?
Why does his chest feel heavy?
Why is it hard for him to breathe?
And why does he feel so dizzy?
W-Why?
WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY?
For a moment, time seemed to slow down to a halt for no apparent reason. The hands of the clock stopped moving, and all movement ceased.
Memories of the day he killed that woman resurfaced in his mind.
The woman who should have been able to save humanity with her body was killed by him, who knew nothing.
Remembering it, he suddenly felt a wave of queasy and rushed to the toilet to vomit the contents of his stomach.
"Ugh, Blueeergghhhh, Blueeerghhhh"
He felt an immense disgust towards himself. He wanted to kill himself for that stupid action.
On the other hand, Dai Yu just stood silently in place after Rover left.
It's not that she didn't want to help Rover calm down, but she was trying to understand what was going on.
Seeing Rover's reaction upon seeing Lily's body, there was no doubt that it was connected to Rover suddenly leaving that place.
"..."
* * * * *
It has been 15 minutes since Rover left the library, but there seem to be no signs that he will return. Out of curiosity, she immediately headed to the restroom because she had briefly seen Rover heading there.
When she arrived, she could see Rover standing in front of a mirror that appeared to be broken by his own doing. It was visible from one of his bloodied hands as a result of his actions. However, she only took a quick glance before then staring at Rover's back.
"What are you doing here?" Rover asked coldly.
However, she only listened and had no intention of answering. Instead, she diverted the topic by bringing up something new.
"Rover, are you angry because you killed Lily who wanted to become a zombie, even though she actually didn't?"
Rover, upon hearing this, had already suspected she would launch that question.
But he remained silent and kept looking down with a complex expression.
"Actually, I don't know if this is true or not. But it seems like there was a reason she let you kill her."
She continued, "First, do you know about the Waverly family news that was reported in the media? The one where the father died because he tried to expose the embezzlement done by one of the largest companies in this country?"
"The mother, upon learning of this, tried to report it to the authorities, but as you know, the authorities disregarded it and instead accused her of trying to defame that official."
"As a result, the mother became depressed over this and committed suicide two months after her husband died."
"On the other hand, Lily could only remain silent and watch her parents die because of the injustices of this country. She felt very hopeless and wanted to end her life."
"However, her close neighbors did not let her be; they tried to comfort Lily and secretly changed her name to Lily Arabella, which was the surname of her close neighbors."
"Besides that, they also tried to cover up this case so that it wouldn't create bad rumors for Lily."
"Although the incident has ended, from Lily's perspective, she may have felt that she had no reason to live anymore and tried to find the right time to end her life. That was what led Lily to allow you to kill her at that moment, as that was the right time for her to end her life."
Hearing the explanation from Dai Yu, it would be a lie to say that he was not shocked. However, his shock was not as strong after the overwhelming sense of guilt began to fill him again. After all is said and done, a reason for letting Rover murder her does not change the fact that he is and always will be a murderer.
"You should not blame yourself-she wished for it. Don't feel guilty; she died because she wanted to. Remember that."
"And just remember, if you're guilty and want to make amends for it, at least do what she asked; that'll help." Rover, hearing Dai Yu's suggestion, could not help but remember her smiling request before her death.
Rover quickly smiled wryly as he thought about it again and turned around just to thank Dai Yu for her advice and counsel.
"It is alright. There is no need to thank me. All I'm doing is returning the gratitude I owe you."
After a momentary talk, they parted, with Dai Yu going into her inner room and Rover into the library to gaze at Lily before him.
"I'm sorry; I didn't realize you had such a difficult life. And I'm sorry; I wasn't strong enough to help you. If I had been strong enough at that time, maybe I could have saved you. But it seems that can't be changed, and also this was your own wish to end the suffering you felt. I can only hope that you remain at peace there and find happiness."
He was still teary-eyed when uttering those words but he could feel, a bit paradoxically, that for some reason a weight had disappeared from his heart.
With the blizzard raging outside and the wind screaming inside hoping for attention, he felt the voodoo doll of sleeping magic slipping through his fingers the moment of surrender. In the next instant, he was having the most wonderful nap possible.
"..... "
"... "
"Thank you, Rover."