Lexi's pov;
I woke up in a bed with Jade and Mira beside me. At first, I didn't remember what had happened. When I did, I burst into tears.
" Tell me it's not true. You were pranking me, right?". I pleaded.
Mira burst into fresh tears while Jade just kept quiet.
" Is it true? Are they really dead? My mom,my husband, my brother, all in one day?". I lamented.
" What else am I supposed to live for? Everyone is dead. I might as well follow them". I was crying so much I was choking on my tears.
" So cruel,why would you take them and not me? Damn death,why are you so cruel? The only family I have left, you took them all from me in one day". I kept lamenting.
Mira was also crying.
" It's ok. You both should stop crying already. It wouldn't do anything to help". Jade said.
That made me cry even more.
" I didn't even get to tell I love him. I love him so much. I really do love him. If I could turn back time, I would tell him I love him everyday, every hour. But now it's too late. I regret it so much". She was not crying anymore,her face was just blank.
My weeping already reduced to silent sobbing.
" Stop crying already, Xandra. It'll affect your health. It something happens to you now,who will take care of Nelson?".
' yes Nelson. His Dad just left him, I can't leave him too. I have to stay strong for him'. I stopped crying.
" Where's Nelson". I asked my voice cracking.
" He's in the leaving room".
I got out of bed and went to the living room to see Nelson crying hugging his legs on the couch hiccuping badly.
I rushed to him. " Cutie,why are you crying?". I asked sitting beside him.
He snuggled closer and hugged me.
" Jade said father is dead. He said I won't see him again". I tried to hold in my own tears and gave him a small smile.
I cupped his cheek.
" Look at me cutie".
" Jade wasn't right. Think about it like this, your Dad traveled and you won't be able to contact him for a long time. Moreover,he went with Uncle Drey and granny. He won't be lonely so don't worry". Somehow, I still didn't believe Max was dead.
" So,will I still see him?".
" Probably. You would have grown very old then. You'll go and meet him". I chuckled sadly.
He smiled. " I love you mother". He jumped on me.
" I love you too cutie". I cuddled him.
" Hmm, cutie, I love it". He pouted cutely.
I smiled faintly. At least, I still have him.
" Mom, school is resuming tomorrow".
' I totally forgot about it. Too bad he won't be resuming tomorrow. Until after the burial'. I sighed.
" Mom". He called again when I didn't answer.
" Yeah, but you won't be resuming tomorrow, I'm sorry".
" I don't mind at all. I want to sleep now, can you read me a bedtime story?"
" Yeah, sure". I took him in my arms and walked towards our room.
" When are we going back home? I miss my bed".
" Very soon".
Nelson was already asleep beside me but I find it difficult to sleep. I was just tossing left and right in bed careful not to wake Nelson up.
I wasn't thinking about anything in particular but my mind wasn't blank either. A lot was going through it.
My mind drifted to when I was still a boss,a CEO. How I had been so cold to my workers that I was sure they might even resent me. Well, except Luci of course. She's nice, I miss her.
Then my thoughts drifted to when I became a nanny for Nelson,
* Nelson likes you and wants you to be his nanny,100,000 XOF per month* I smiled bitterly.
Then I recalled when he had asked me out.
* I think I like you and I want you to be my girlfriend* remembering the way he said it made me chuckled slightly with tears already forming in my eyes.
When I reconciled with my brother. When I met my mother.
* Diamond, my Diamond. You're really back. Don't you ever leave me again*
' I didn't leave you mother, you left me. Now I have to be an orphan all over again'. Tears were falling from my eyes.
I recalled Max and I first love making.
The moment my Mom got killed. And Drey getting killed too.
' I didn't see you die Max. Right now, I find it too difficult to believe'. I was sobbing silently trying not to disturb Nelson. I wouldn't want him to see me crying.
I finally succeeded in crying myself to sleep when it's almost morning.
I woke up feeling restless. I didn't sleep well last night.
I dressed and dressed Nelson up. We were all wearing black dresses.
When we got downstairs, Jade and Mira were already by the dining. Mira was doing more of turning her food than eating it. She seemed lost in thought.
' looks like she also didn't get a good night's rest'.
I dropped Nelson on a chair at the dining and made to leave when Jade's voice stopped me.
" Aren't you eating?".
" No appetite". I said curtly and started walking away.
" You didn't eat last night too".
" Mom". I heard Nelson's voice and I turned back.
" What is it cutie?". I put on a fake smile on my face.
" Let's eat together".
" No,you go on and eat".
His face turned sore immediately. I sighed and walked up to him.
" I won't eat without you".
" Ok, fine let's eat" I surrendered sitting beside him.
I managed to eat a little.
" I'm full now cutie. I'll just watch you eat". I gave him a small smile.
After dinner,we all sat in the living room.
" Nelson, go watch movie in your room. We have adult talk". Jade said to him and he hopped off happily.
After Nelson left,he cleared his throat.
" I was thinking we should just do the burial and get it over with" he started.
" So, should we just do everything in a day and not unnecessarily extend the mourning period. If you would agree with me, then I'll call Max's Dad and finalize it. What do you both think".
" It's ok". Mira said slowly.
I didn't have the strength to talk so I just nodded positively.
" Ok then, since we all agree, I'll call Mr. Kim right away".
They discussed and we all concluded to do the burial in two days time.
" You guys should just rest. I'll make all the preparations".
". Thanks". That was all I could mutter.
". You are most welcome. I have to go now. See you in the evening".
" Mira".
" Un". She replied distantly.
" I want to visit home. I won't take too long". She nodded.
I left Nelson with Mira,just in case. I didn't wanna risk it.
I took the car key Jade had left for us and I drove home.
Everything here reminds me of him. Tears was already streaming down my face. But I wasn't really crying, I didn't know why the tears were falling.
I proceeded into his bedroom,our bedroom. I didn't even know why I was going there
I entered the room and started searching all around, searching everywhere for anything. Anything at all that'd give me hope though I knew it was pointless.
I opened the drawer and found a box. It wasn't there before so I was curious and took it out. I sat on the bed and unwrapped it.
Inside was a document. I opened and what I saw shocked me. ' did Max really did that? For me?'. I looked back into the box and saw a neatly folded paper.
The note read thus;
My love,if you're reading this, then you must have been told I'm dead. I'm sorry if I caused you grief. I'm sorry if I made you cry. That's all I could do to help. Please take care of Nelson and don't hurt yourself. Don't mourn my death too much and I want you to always have a smile on your face. No matter what, always remember,' I love you', wifey.
Many questions came to mind but the most disturbing of it all,' did he knew all along that he was going to die?'.