A name!
Does that bean-sized thing need a name too?
She was stunned. She had never thought about this before, much less about having children. In her difficult circumstances, who would have the heart to consider motherhood? She even thought she would never want children in her life; it's shameful for parents to expect a change in their own fortunes through their children when they themselves lack the ability to care for them.
But suddenly, she wondered, if she did have a child, what would she want its name to be? Joyful? Happy? Peaceful? An'an? Right! It must be something like that. The child should be simply happy and content, free from grand ambitions. Even names meaning 'Good Fortune' or 'Auspicious' would be acceptable. But it wouldn't be like her, Yan Xixi—Xixi—this name sounds unlucky, hence her half a lifetime of hardship.
She would prefer her child to be ordinary, but happy and carefree, without worries about food and clothing.
