CHAPTER 9
HAYAT POV:
The car I loved the most was damaged, the extensive damage has turned my beautiful black car into pieces, I can't even drive it now, I'll need to repair it and repairing means a lot of time, I don't know if my car will be able to be repaired here in Pakistan, I'll see it but I won't cry over it, I won't cry, I told myself but felt warm water on my cheeks.
It was my mistake, and the other person got injured, too. I shouldn't have ignored the traffic light signal. I should have waited for the other person to cross the road. In my rage to run away from everything, I ruined someone else's life.
I looked behind my back and saw the man I crashed into kneeling on the ground in front of his bike, might that bike hold a lot of memories, just like mine, might he love the bike more than anything, I could feel his pain as I lost my car too, but it was my mistake, I feel guilty and sorry yet I can't do anything anymore... I could see his body shivering, maybe from all the crying...
I did not want to be anyone's misery anymore, yet here I am.
I walked up to him, but the fear of his outburst, his anger, or pain thrown at me since I was at fault was eating me alive. I was really hesitant, "I'm sorry for the mistake I made, I should have waited at the signal before the light turned green, please forgive me."
My body was in pain from the accident, but the pain I felt in my heart seeing that man kneeling on the ground looking at his bike was unbearable; I couldn't forgive myself. He may have memories connected with his bike, and because of my carelessness, he's shattered, and I couldn't bear it…
"Some things are meant to go, and we should let them go, cherish the memories, but try to move on to make new memories, and don't let your past make you feel suffocated..." I said whisperingly what Eira always told me.
I stood behind him, waiting for his outburst, but it didn't happen... what felt like an hour was just some minutes. I turned around to walk back to the car, but I found Ashar at the corner, standing just at some distance, shocked.
I looked at him and then glanced at the man kneeling on the ground, pointing my finger at Ashar. I mouthed, "brother?" To which he gave a curt nod, I looked at the man on the ground for the last time and whispered a soft, "Sorry..." silently making my way out.
Chachu was on a phone call when I came back to the car with the help of Chachi. Getting inside the car, he looked at me and patted my head, "Do not think about what Ali Bhai said! You have us by your side right now and always will, so now give me a beautiful smile, my little warrior." I smiled, knowing whatever he said, he meant it too.
I looked out of my window, whispering my thoughts, "I did it again, Chachu, I made another person cry, I again destroyed another person's life."
No tears came out of my eyes as I looked outside. Hearing uncle sigh, I closed my eyes and dozed off...
We soon reached home, and soon I locked myself in my room, not wanting to come out, facing anyone... I wanted some time alone, just for myself.
It has been two weeks since I locked myself in my room, escaping the battle between my heart and guilt. I do miss outings in my car, but it's okay, I can use one of my uncle's cars for moving anywhere till I get my own back.
"Little warrior, where are you? Come out! Look what I have brought for you," I heard my Chachu calling me. Coming out of my room, I saw him beaming with happiness. He had his hand hiding behind him, holding something, I guess.
"Chachu, you got something for me again?" I questioned, smiling a little. I have always loved surprises, and he provides the best surprises...
"Close your eyes first and open them when I say so, okay?" His tone held excitement and hopeful eyes. I nodded and closed my eyes, then opened them when he said so. Looking in front of me, he was holding a toy car in his hand. I looked at the car and smiled at him.
The black car was so beautiful, it was a Mercedes-Benz G Wagon miniature. I looked at the car happily and took it from his hand. Scanning the car, I saw a paper attached to the back of it, and I was shocked by what was written on it.
"I couldn't find the replacement of AMG GT but I got this instead for you, hope my little warrior will like it and I hope you can take us on a ride too, go out and look at your car, we hope you will love it" I had tears in my eyes, looking at my only family, as they gave me a nod and I ran outside.
I saw the car there, with a red ribbon bow at the front of it. I smiled, looked back at them, and ran towards my only family and hugged them tightly. "This is too costly; you should not have gotten this for me. How will I pay you back? You guys are spoiling me," I said, whining a little, still attached to them...
They encircled their hands around me, and I heard Chachu say, "Your uncle earns a lot of money and has no one to spend the money on, your beautiful Chachi loves simplicity, and my little warrior just loves cars, and can I not get her that? I can, and I will spoil my baby a lot; you need to now fulfill my one wish."
I detached myself from them and looked at my uncle, "Take admission to a university, little warrior. I want to see you successful." That was all he wanted me to do. I can do it, and I'm working on it too.
"I have already decided to get admission, all the documents are ready, I just need the transfer certificate. I'll go there as soon as I can," I replied, looking at my new car. I started imagining all the places I want to visit with my new car by my side.